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Pictures woo

Thu, 27 Apr 2006 22:04:30 GMT

Alright here's the modeling thingy I did some pictures :)

who I modeled with lol

and one more for one

Jesus Christ

Thu, 27 Apr 2006 21:54:35 GMT

So I just ran the cost on the computer I want to build roughly 3300$ god it's gunna fucking rock...gota love senior grad gifts eh?? HOPEFULLY I'll get this machine.....

Scattered brains, and a white wall, a steaming barrel and a broken jaw

Sun, 23 Apr 2006 18:34:39 GMT

So it's been a hell of a long day....started the morning with beer for breakfast and well pints of guinness make you strong. I'm confused as where to go, to stay here in this hell hole, or go back to texas, and there are reasons worth staying here. But are they really worth it? I really don't know right now and just need to kind of clear my head. I'm going out to jog, skate, or I don't know. I'm off outside, if call me if you want new # is 717-802-0780

Also for those of you who haven't heard, Sarah broke up with me, reasons are just meh.

Privatization why not?

Tue, 18 Apr 2006 22:40:19 GMT

So I was thinking and why not set-up a goverment trust system of privatization of CERTAIN drugs and decriminalize most. There are already tax stamps for cannabis and a few other drugs, but a rather large pain in the ass to get. If a trust was set up for an amount of say 2 trillion to pay into the goverment, these companies could then get rights to distribute certain drugs, if they meet a set standard. From there people have to register in order to purchase these substances. Now then the exact set-up of this process would of course be rather tricky, but the outcome is a large economy boost. If companies would dump 2 trillion into this trust/fund and then have rights to use these substances to make new products, not only would we have a steam of new medications, but a large amount of consumer spending. Not to mention the fact that 10billion a year is spent on putting people caught with an ounce or less of WEED. Thats 10billion a year saved alone, then how much would be made from taxing, the fund, and pure spending. This would also create tons of new jobs, from agriculture to drug companies billions upon billions would be made and jobs. This would also free the drug monopolies from drug cartels leaving them without profit, thus weakining thus weaking their grip on politics and such. This rant is kinda incomplete at the moment but just something that popped into my head.

Que?

Mon, 17 Apr 2006 22:35:06 GMT

So yea boredem, and much of it, 10:34 pm and just playing with my new phone...got new shoes too! Anyways it's been a LONG weekend, 5days....jeeze people it was fun too for the most part. Anyways peace all.

I will become my own damn god

Wed, 29 Mar 2006 20:41:08 GMT

I am rebuilding myself now, I will make myself stronger and faster than I ever was, I am shaping myself to no longer feel pain....I am becoming what is inside me.....I will push untill I am no more, and what is inside has taken over.....I can feel nothing at this moment....all I can taste is nothingness and vomit.....I will become what I must

Liber Null

Tue, 14 Mar 2006 17:11:58 GMT

Well I guess it's time to come clean about me, about one of the largest reasons I'm up here.... I'm a chaos magician and a shaman My religion may not seem so up front to you who know me but it's a very big part of me.I am an OCCULTIST and an active one at that. I haven't been that active in the past few months but I'm starting it up again. I have practiced a few rights seen and done my fair share and it's time to branch out here. I will leave my mark. I'm not a fluffy bunny wiccan or any of that other BULLSHIT...I'm sorry to if that offends anyone but hey, it is... Most "wiccans" I meet know NOTHING of the religion or the fact that they aren't suppose to oppenly claim your wiccan. Not only that YOU MUST be initiated by a coven to be wiccan... It's time I re-open the doors and begin working again... I need to start up at initiate rights and slowly work forward again, this time I'm revolving more around shamanic practices and more chaos oriented work. Now it's time for a rather long quote....

      "Existance is the great indulgence. Anything lesss than this, any attempt to avoid part of oneself is to invite loss of form, a self-negation to a shrinkage of spirit.
       The Self alone is God and should recognize itself in all things. For those who uphold limited values bind themeselves to mediocrity and failure. Those who self-righteously value thier own contradictions are mighty on this earth. Our dual nature is all morality; it is foolish to be other that we are. Acceptance and living without restraint is the highest virtue.
       The greatest sinner are the greatest sains, though they may be unconscious of this. Great men are greatly dual. And doubleness is not the end of it. Every moment the consortium of "I" puts forward a new face. I am not who I was seconds ago, much less yesterday. Our nam is multiple. I am a colony of beings sharing the same envelope. And Kia, the self-love which binds them together, will one day hurl them apart - attempting even death for its satisfactions.
      What is a god but a man wielding the force of Chaos? To him nothing is true; everything is permitted. There is no purpose in his existance; he is free to choose his own. He has bound himself to earth forever and reincarnates at will. For the universe is mad and arbitrary in her ways. Nothing is unchangeable except change itself. The only universal principle is the universal lack of principle. Yet the Great Goddess Chaos will lend some of her power to those who can become her favorites." -Liber LUX

And that about wraps up this for me today, good day to all...

Weed, wine, and women....

Mon, 13 Mar 2006 18:43:01 GMT

So where the hell am I at? I'm loosing my self in this fog...I mean damn I've stormed my brain. Soon my mind will be drifted. I am the shaman, and I shall moved forward in this fog. For the greater vision I reach...I look beyond this plane of existance to pull for magick, power, and control of time...call me mad, but what a small line is there between madness and genius?? These so called substances guide us threw what we need to see. My rant is over, and my mind is gone. Please take a number, this could take awhile.....

-Insert generic title-

Tue, 07 Mar 2006 16:26:49 GMT

Hmm so yes I just woke up about 30mins ago at it's now 4:22pm...I said fuck school cause I woke up with a headache and slept this fucking long! I feel better except for the fact that I keep coughing up alot of green shit....but anyways things are deffinately gunna be getting better soon. I'm getting ready to call my dad and bitch him out about lieng to me...I will go down to texas and get my liscence, then we will all go to fucking hershey park(you know whos going...if your one of them). I've been working out all week too so it's time I get back into shape, I will get my 6-pack back and I will be able to kick the shit out of who ever I feel like again! Part of this will come from me taking kick boxing soon. So things are looking up! If you wunna go to capitol city mall on friday contact me...sarah and I are aleady planning on this so contact me and we'll try to fit you in!

I get to go home!(for a visit)

Wed, 01 Mar 2006 15:44:45 GMT

Wooo, so I get to go home...for a visit atleast hopefully get to get out if not I'll atleast get to see my brother(Daxual) and hopefully have a beer with him. God I miss texas and all my friends, but all in all things aren't to bad up here. I must say this state has given me the best girl friend yet and well thats a damn good accomplishment seeing as she hasn't tried to kill me yet, left me for no reason, or gone completly off the deep end. So I'd say thats a major plus. As for the future...god knows where I'm gunna be. Anyways things are looking up for me, may get to sleep till 11 tmrw and boy will that be nice and I'm starting to work out again and haven't smoked in a week so things are getting better!

Auf einer Brücke ziemlich hoch
Hält ein Mann die Arme auf
Da steht er nun und zögert noch
Die Menschen strömen gleich zuhauf
Auch ich lass mir das nicht entgehen
Das will ich aus der Nähe sehen
Ich stell mich in die erste Reihe
und schreie

Der Mann will von der Brücke steigen
Die Menschen fangen an zu hassen
Bilden einen dichten Reigen
Und wollen ihn nicht nach unten lassen
So steigt er noch mal nach oben
Und der Mob fängt an zu toben
Sie wollen seine Innereien
Und schreien

Spring
Erlöse mich
Spring
Enttäusch mich nicht
Spring für mich
Spring ins Licht
Spring

Jetzt fängt der Mann zu weinen an
Heimlich schiebt sich eine Wolke
fragt sich Was hab ich getan
vor die Sonne es wird kalt
Ich wollte nur zur Aussicht gehen
die Menschen laufen aus den Reihen
und in den Abendhimmel sehen
Und sie schreien

Spring

Sie schreien
Spring
Erlöse mich
Spring
Enttäusch mich nicht
Spring für mich
Spring ins Licht
Spring

Heimlich schiebt sich eine Wolke
vor die Sonne es wird kalt
Doch tausend Sonnen brennen nur für dich
Ich schleich mich heimlich auf die Brücke
Tret ihm von hinten in den Rücken
Erlöse ihn von dieser Schmach
und schrei ihm nach

Spring

Spring
Erlöse dich
Spring
Enttäusch mich nicht
Spring für mich
Spring
Enttäusch mich nicht