DAMMMM!! WTF!!! ITS SERIOUSLY BEEN MONTHS!! well jus to update u guys i am curretntly in love like non other , ahah love no longer comes in a box of choclates,

LOVE COMES IN A BOX OF TAMPONS!!

TO UNDERSTAND WTF THAT IS SUPPOSED TO MEAN CHEK OUT MAH MYSPACE, AND READ THE BLOG I HAVE UP THERE AHHA

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OMG ITS BEEN A BAJILLION YEARS SINCE I HAVE UPDATED THIS THING... WOW.. AHAH MYSPACE takes over ..>.< hahah anyhow , i went to disneyland on sat an im am pretty much stress free for the time being. an less sleep deprived haah aite, im too lazy to type>.<

remind me to change the pic up there ahha thas me back in like sept i think ahha >.<

i like this songg haha so pretty.. now i need to find a way to put on my xanga

I just can`t understand the ways, Of all the men and their mistakes. You give them all your heart,
And then they rip it all away...

You told me how much you loved me, And how our love was meant to be. And i believed in you,
I thought that you would set me free...

You should`ve just told me the truth,
That i wasn`t the girl for you... Still i didn`t have a clue,
So my heart depended on You... Whoah

Although i`ll say `i hate u` now, Although i`ll shout and curse you out...
I`ll always have love for you, Because i am a girl

Been told a man will leave you cold,
Get sick of you and bored...
I know that it`s no lie,
I gave my all still i just cry.

Never again will i be fooled,
to give my all when nothing`s true...
I won`t be played again,
but i will fall in love again...

You should`ve just told me the truth,
That i wasn`t the girl for you... Still i didn`t have a clue,
So my heart depended on You... Whoah

Although i`ll say `i hate u` now, Although i`ll shout and curse you out...
I`ll always have love for you, Because i am a girl

I loved u so...
now u leave me in the cold,
How could this be,
i thought that u`d only love me...
Into the night...
i will pray that you`re alright, You hurt me so,
I just can`t let u go....    (tee hee hee .. done >.<)

You took advantage of my willingness,
to do anything for love,
Now i`m the only one in pain... will you please take it all away~ Oh~

Never thought born being a girl, How i can love you and be burned... And now i will build a wall,
to never get torn again~

Although i`ll say `i hate u` now, Although i`ll shout and curse you out...
I`ll always have love for you, Because i am a girl

Although i`ll say `i hate u` now, Although i`ll shout and curse you out...
I`ll always have love for you, Because i am a girl

BUH DOOD IM OVER THIS HAHA JUS A PRETTY SONG HAHA

this is so truee omg kinda scary.. toook the werds rite out my mouth.. .. im sure there are othas tha feel the same..

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

gahh mood: shitty for the next cuopla months... werkouts are gonna get harder ..dammit

RAndom thoughts:

swim is killing me, made a giant pot in art, i guess i shud start makin stuff wen im angry an frustrated coz i make reeli big pots ahha .. put all my anger an strenghth into it, hw sucks, burnt my tongue wit hot chocolate agen.. got pushed from this ladder... i was on the last step.. the very last one! then i lost it.. got pushed.. now im on the floor... back where i started.. gonna take another 3 er 4 months to climb back to that last step again. sighh. i need sleep .. bye

wow oscar sucks buh he cool .. hahha scratched my hands uupp!!! haha owell he pretty cool.. brought him to skool an scared the shit outa ppl hahah it was funni. haha yea been pretty tired lately.. an yeaa. ... omg i didnt get to go laser taggin on fri!!  there was too much trafic an my dad got pissed so he turned back. haha yea. i heard it was fun thoo haha. geez time flew by so fast. i mean like i thot i wud never get to this point in my life. i memba thinking wen i was ten, how it wud be like to be 16, an wondering wat it wud belike to hab a bf, experiencing love, living up to my grades, hatein my teachers, startin a new lif in high skool, freinds, the stress. i memba waiting to be 15 so tha i cud drive ( which i still cant). i mean like WOW!! so much has happened. stuff tha i never expected to happen.. some exciting, some painful , some werthwile , some werth killing (chu..)hahah jkjk ... i wud never kill hahah ::innocent face:: hahah i jus cant believe how much i changed. jus look at how u were back in 8th grade.. an look at u now.. see the difference?? geez i wonder wat it wud be like to be in college. buh im in high skool, an im supposed to have fun rite? hgahah college is wen u start to find the love of ur life rite ?? haha yeaa .. sound familiar? >.<  o well .. .. still struggling thru the hardships tha i have put upon my self .. sighh..  o well i'll get thru it haha hope fully. haha sowy u had to hear me blab haha okies buhbyes

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