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Thursday, July 17, 2008

  • the Son died to give us new life, by grace of God, and to this the Spirit testifies.
    where exactly did i read that verse? T_T

    my previous entry was a jumble of thoughts. maybe not very coherent and so not very edifying. i think what i really wanted to get across was... there is that still small voice calling... some of us are still lost, others yet still being fashioned, others weaning, and others ready to respond to that horn calling in the distance. but as i was listening to the radio, i was called to remember what the focus is. the focus is not, "what can i do for God?" but, "what can the Spirit enable me to do for God, and will i do it?" i ask this partially in response to my own place in my walk: am i ready to go out? i don't know if that's my place yet...

    not that the works we do define our faith. our faith is based on the trust we have that God in His grace sent His son, and by that we are saved. and He has sent His spirit to be with us, to intercede, to fill us up with God's good things, enable us for God's work. and i read that God is love, and we especially have come in tune with it. and now we can't help but share it. but in sharing it, what is the focus of it...?



    anyway, just a thought from yesterday that i thought i'd finally clear up with myself. ha ha. and now i'm late for work.

    75 I know, O LORD, that your laws are righteous,
           and in faithfulness you have afflicted me.
     76 May your unfailing love be my comfort,
           according to your promise to your servant.
    Psalm 119:75-76

     94 Save me, for I am yours;
           I have sought out your precepts.
     95 The wicked are waiting to destroy me,
           but I will ponder your statutes.
     96 To all perfection I see a limit;
           but your commands are boundless.
    Psalm 119:94-96

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

  • An average view of the Christian life is that it means deliverance from trouble. It is deliverance in trouble, which is very different... God does not give us overcoming life: He gives us life as we overcome. The strain is the strength. If there is no strain, there is no strength. Are you asking God to give you life and liberty and joy? He cannot, unless you will accept the strain. Immediately you face the strain, you will get the strength...

    We are apt to say that because a man has natural ability, therefore he will make a good Christian. It is not a question of our equipment but of our poverty, not of what we bring with us, but of what God puts into us; not a question of natural virtues of strength of character, knowledge, and experience - all that is of no avail in this matter...

    There comes the baffling call of God in our lives also. The call of God can never be stated explicitly; it is implicit. The call of God is like the call of the sea, no one hears it but the one who has the nature of the sea in him. It cannot be stated definitely what the call of God is to, because His call is to be in comradeship with Himself for His own purposes, and the test is to believe that God knows what He is after...
    Oswald Chambers

    i'm kind of lost for words these days. i can write poems that read what i am thinking, but i can't get myself to write, otherwise. and it's funny. because, God has been teaching me a lot through my hurting, recently. and that's good. :) He is so awesome. but. i should stand up and TELL of what goodness He is... and... i am suffering major writer's block.

    things i'd like to do some time SOON:
    1) actually sit down (which i do all day anyway...) and write essays/stories/poems, etc
    2) practice violin every single day for at least an hour
    3) join an orchestra
    4) go hiking
    5) travel (ok this one may take a long time)
    6) share my time and resources with people
    7) go back to the nursing home and help, again!
    8) dance like a maniac in the streets...

    wait i've already done #8....

    hmmmm

    my brain has officially melted.....................