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Stone Sour: Through Glass

I'm looking at you through the glass...
Don't know how much time has passed
Oh god it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home sitting all alone inside your head

How do you feel? That is the question
But I forget.. you don't expect an easy answer
When something like a soul becomes
Initialized and folded up like paper dolls and little notes
You cant expect a bit of hope
And while your outside looking in
Describing what you see
Remember what your staring at is me

Cause I'm looking at you through the glass...
Don't know how much time has passed
All I know is that it feels like forever
When no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head

How much is real? So much to question
An epidemic of the mannequins
Contaminating everything
When thought came from the heart
It never did right from the start
Just listen to the noises
(No more sad voices)
Before you tell yourself
Its just a different scene
Remember its just different from what you've seen

I'm looking at you through the glass...
Don't know how much time has passed
And all I know is that it feels like forever
When no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head

And it's the stars
The stars
That shine for you
And it's the stars
The stars
That lie to you.. yeah-ah

I'm looking at you through the glass...
Don't know how much time has passed
Oh god it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head

Cause I'm looking at you through the glass...
Don't know how much time has passed
All I know is that it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever
feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head

hmmm....

let's see what's going on.... I am working 30 hours a week, taking 12 hours in school, running a house, and trying to relax.  Yep, things are going well :) 

Very busy, but keeps me active (and losing weight, no less... so I can't complain)

I GOT A HOUSE!

3 bedroom, 2 baths... carport, fenced backyard, washer/dryer hookups, in a GREAT part of town.

Oh yeah, it's at school and I have a roommate!  I am so excited to be on my own!  This is my last summer at home.  I have 2 quarters left (graduate March 3).  Then I will start graduate school... either a Master's at ULM or a Doctorate at Tech.

Life is GRAND!

i dont skinny dip....

i CHUNKY DUNK

By the Grace of God

I am dissappointed in myself.  Without getting too specific, I will tell you why.

I thought that I was exactly who I wanted to be, that everything I did, said, thought, proved that to others.  I know life isn't about proving yourselves to others, but it is necessary in some situations.  But today it was shown to me, maybe by the Grace of God, that others don't see me as I see myself.

The "natural worrier" in me starts to obsess about that:  What do I need to do different in my life?  How do I change the way others interpret me, so that they see me the same way I see myself?  Do I really have control over any of that... or do people already have their minds made up?

These are questions I can't answer... and maybe they aren't for ME to answer.  Maybe this is a test from the Lord... blind faith, as you will, only not so blind.  God will test us all...multiple, countless, endless times.  Mother Theresa once said "God never gives us more than we can deal with, I only wish He didn't trust me so much".  What a beacon of truth, for the Lord's way of trusting is completely different from the trust we know and practice.  His trust is all encompassing...reaching far into the valley and the darkness. 

I thought I knew me...the way I trusted, the way I loved...turns out, I don't really know anything.  And I HAVE to trust that God will lead me to where He wants me.

I learned a valuable lesson today... something I pray I never forget.