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Name: hannah
Birthday: 4/20/1990
Gender: Female
Interests: Hannah.
17 years of age.
Struggling with everything.
Loves to laugh.
Loves the beach.
Happy.
Hates stereo types.
Anti-cool.
Thinks like a 6 year old.
Loves being the underdog.
Hates exerting effort over things.
Believes in the most twisted things possible.
Fears everything.
Thinks that she is obliged to satisfy everyone around her's needs.
She's sick of it.
Desperately trying to be more mature about stuff.
Has done things. Bad things.
Secretive.
Oh, and she's over IT. :D
Occupation: Student
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
Member Since:
2/20/2005
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| Hello world! :DNaisipan ko lang magcheck ng xanga kasi I wanted to read past posts.. Tapos bigla ko nakita yung counter na matagal ko na hinahanap! I also noticed na marami-rami rin palang bumibisita dito kaya I'm updating! Yipee! Haha. I was supposed to go to Ateneo today kaya lang MIA si shimmee. Siya dapat yung kasama ko. So, I'm waiting for my mom nalang. (nag offer siya to go shopping and eat out) How could I refuse? Haha. I missed posting here! Wala lang. O siya, dito na nga lang ako parati mag u-update. Bahala na kung sino makabasa. | | |
| I'm back!!!I missed blogging... I haven't posted an entry here for the longest time. Updates! - There are about 2 months left in my senior year and that makes me seriously sad. Just two more months and were done. - I sooo love my friends. - I still don't have a school for next year. I'm gonna update more later. Toodles! :D | | |
| Got this from friendster[ ] You listen to death metal.
[] You wear mainly black.
[x] You have had 10 or more fights with your
parents/guardians (who hasn’t?)
[ ] You own a pair of chained pants.
[x] You've cried yourself to sleep.
[x] You do or used to think about suicide
[x] You've screamed so loud at the top of
your lungs your throat hurt.
TOTAL = 4
[x] You did or still do constantly worry what other
people think
[ ] You're a transvestite
[ ]You own at least one metal CD
[x] You buy clothes from hot topic
[ ] You'd rather be someone else
[ ] You wear black eyeliner
[x] sometimes even with your friends
you're quiet and sad
[ ] You cry every day
[] You cry every week
[]You'd never be seen in pink
[ ] You take/used to take drugs.
[x] You smoke/Used to...
TOTAL = 4
[ ] Right this second you want to die
[ ] Your walls are black
[ ] You've attempted to starve yourself
[x] You've dyed your hair black
[ ] You've dyed your arm hair
[ ] Your computer is full of gothic symbols
[x] You sometimes feel like the whole world is
against you
[x]You stay up late
[ ] your family couldn't care less about you.
[x] You only leave your room to pee and eat.
[x]You drink/used to drink alcohol.
TOTAL = 5
[ ] You wear long sleeves in the summer
[x]You get called emo/scene
[x]At least once a month you shrivel up and cry
[ ] You wear spikes
[ ] You wear chains
[x] You wear band Tees
[ ] You own merchandise of The Used
[ ] You own a regular metal CD
[x] Your friendster/myspace is black
TOTAL = 4
[ ] You hate your siblings
[ ] You could care less about your looks
[x] You want to be skinnier
[ ] Your hair is currently black
[ ] You own arm cuffs
[ ] You pray to the devil
[x] You own at least 2 shirts with sayings
[ ] You like the taste of blood
[ ] You welcome the sight of blood
TOTAL = 2
GRAND TOTAL = 19
Now take that number, multiply it by 2
and
repost as 38% depressed
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| No one else will know that part of me.I felt for sure last night
That once we said goodbye
No one else will know these lonely dreams
No one else will know that part of me
I'm still driving away
And I'm sorry every day
I won't always love these selfish things
I won't always live...
Not stopping...
It was my turn to decide
I knew this was our time
No one else will have me like you do
No one else will have me, only you
You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I'm here I'm now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine
Amazing still it seems
I'll be 23
I won't always love what I'll never have
I won't always live in my regrets
You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I'm here I'm now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine
You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I'm here I'm now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine...
I love this song. Just because of the situation I'm in. I don't know how to say it without really giving it away. The song pretty much tells a part of it. I hate it when I'm like this. Everytime I'm around people I pretend that everthing's ok but they're not. I can't even tell it to the person closest to me. Sometimes i feel like it's better to talk to strangers. Maybe in time I will tell people. When things get better I guess.
I hope things do get better. I suck at this. I hate how I'm feeling. What sucks more is that I know why I'm feeling this way. I just can't tell people why. It's not about boys or anything of that sort. It's totally different. It's something not expected from me. People act like they know me. 80% of the people who say they do, don't. I've been the most pretentious person in the world. I pretend like I don't care most of the time but I do. I secretly do. I'm sooo scared of what might happen after this.
You shocked yet? Yeah, me too. I seriously need someone to talk to. I mean TALK. Like, serious type of talk. I need to get this off. I need fucking time.
I'm not making sense. I just need to talk. Right now, I don't know who to talk to. I'm just so sick of the fucking situation. I mean it's not just like a situation with ONE person. It's like, things going on with different people. It's so fucking screwed up. I soo hate being like this.
It's dark out now. I haven't gone out of my room since I got home from school. That was 4 hours ago.
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| Gossip Kills.My life is steady. It's so steady that it turns sucky. Yes, I have a sucky - sucky life and I make it even more sucky by ranting. I've been an emotional bitch for the past month. Well, here at home at least. Maybe it's from the lack of sun. Whatever.
So, I came home today then I went straight to my room, sat down and looked for my calculator. Unfortunately, I am stupid so I couldn't find it. I went to the office and it wasn't there. I asked my brothers if they got it by mistake and they said no. As a result of my frustration, I went ballistic. Haha. After slamming all the doors that I could possibly slam, I went back to my room to calm myself down. I tried looking for it again. Then, I found it. (Just when I heard my mom screaming at the maids) It was in one of the cabinets where I usually put my tech related stuff into. I am stupid and pathetic.
I stayed in school until around 6:30 today. Haha. Gossiped. Talked about friends and shit. I want to go out on Saturday. I hope I can. I'm too lazy. | | |
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