Name: Marisa Aliases: Risa // Sa-sA // Rista // RISD B-day: o8.29.91 // Aug. 29 Gender: Girl Ethnicity: Chinese Contacts: e-mail: tanoshii_niwa@yahoo.com
AIM: appleangelluv
MSN: take a guess XD; Interests: GOD, making graphic junk [I'm a noob compared to a ton of people out there], drawing/cg, anime, manga, music Dislikes: jockers/ art thieves, annoying people, gossipers [pardon my spelling XP], people with big egos, dissers of God/Jesus [I'm won't dislike you, I'll just be mad haha], people who make fun of me or my friends Network:tanoshii_niwa // LJ // fB // flickr
DONG BANG SHIN KI!! FIGHTING!! YUNHO... FIGHTING!!! JAEJOONG... FIGHTING!! YOOCHUN... FIGHTING!!! CHANGMIN... FIGHTING!!! JUNSU... FIGHTING!!! XD; These guys are soo adorable yet soo charismatic >w< They sing so wonderfully, and dance so pro!! And NO, THEY ARE NOT GAY!!! *death glare*
Yeah, my 5th DBSK layout!! 5 members, 5 years, 5, five, FIVE!! WHOOT WHOOT!! I had no idea that it was my 5th layout, but since it is, I'll have the whole special-meaning-behind-the-title-but-not-really kind of thing XD; Whoah, did that even make sense?? haha Anyway, their 3rd Japanese album is titled 'T' which can stand for anything. T-rex as Junsu once said XDD; To me, 'T' stands for Tohoshinki, which stands for these 5 fabulous talented members, and I could go on, but I won't bore you :P
DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN THE IMAGE I USED!!! IT 100% BELONGS TO SM ENT. SO PLEASE DON'T SUE ME DD:
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Songs uploaded by me, hosted in filden.com. You steal, you die!! Go buy your own copy, and support these talented artists!!
OH MY 'EFFFIN GOSH!!! I was really excited, but for some reason I'm extremely worried. I mean I really want to take HQ pics with that snazzy camera, but at the same time I really want to record all the performances on my digital camera T___T; UGH!!! I don't know what songs are going to be played, dangit... if I had the playlist, I could easily pick which songs to record and which songs to take pics of. It would be seriously awesome if I could do both, but then I realized the whole glowstick/balloons cheer thing we do and I'm all ugh... I need more hands T____T;
To top that off, the t-shirts didn't come out like I wanted. Ugh, and it totally killed my mom's iron. The icing on the cake is my retarded haircut. *rubs scalp like crazy* I mean, honestly, I think DBSK has longer hair than me ;o; I mean it looks vaguely like Jaejoong's hair, but I didn't do this on purpose!!!! Plus, I totally forgot to take a pic of myself for my art project... so now I'm brushing and rubbing my head to make my hair grow faster ROFL I'm just worried people might mistake me for a guy ha ha heh ehhh uh..... *sulks*
The good thing is, I finally got off my lazy butt and I finally got around to drawing my keychains. So far, I have 8 out of 9 girls of SNSD finished (I just need to do Yoona. I can finally tell her apart from Yuri ^o^), but I haven't gotten around to working on DBSK. In fact, I still have no idea what to draw XD; Like I said before, TRICK is a possibility, but I realized that I don't even have any pics of 3 of the members' singles.
Why do I bother? I know it's a slim chance, but if that chance does happen like this miraculous chance of being able to go, then it doesn't hurt to try. Plus, I need to get started on it anyway for my shop. Man, it feels like forever since my last visit to LA. It will be my first time riding on a plane since I came here from S. Africa, it's crazy... 15 years.
Spanish SAT IIs went better than I expected. The first couple of pages were surprisingly easy. On the other hand, US History... ugh... Please don't talk to me about the colonies or whatever junk that happened before the 1900s. Seriously, I didn't even study/review for those topics, and my test practically consisted of all the events that happened during that time. I was like SHOOT, what the heck?? DUDE!! I never even learned about American artists and their wonderful artworks. Ugh... stupid Hudson River question *tears and rip paper out of frustration* I seriously wouldn't be surprised if I get low scores, that's just me.
Ugh, and I really dislike my typography teacher. Seriously, what the heck?!?! We're the typography class, how the heck was I suppose to know that the quiz links were in the FRICKEN Business Practice website? I'm not taking that mother 'effin class, gosh... and I really hated how he told me to look more carefully and all that stuff, and I should read his fricken emails more carefully. WHAT THE HECK!!?!?!? I checked all the emails he sent me, and not one mentioned a gosh dang thing about where the quiz was. UGH!!! I'm so pissed that I really don't want to go to class on Monday. I'm afraid that he might give me that look. I hate those kinds of look. haaah I feel like I've been on the edge lately *swt* I should go and meditate or something.
Countdown: 13 days ->
In other news: OH MY GOSH!!! *spazzes like there was no tomorrow* *hyperventilates* KMF... ugh ugh... 14 days... WHY CAN'T I GET AROUND TO MAKING THOSE GOSH DARN KEYCHAINS?!?!?! *sobs* I seriously can't wait. I'm planning on making an SNSD keychain set and DBSK set. The hardest thing is how and what to draw. Though, I came to a conclusion to make the SNSD keychains be similar to the MV of Girls' Generation, while the DBSK keychains be similar to... I don't know, either TRICK or AADBSK Season 2. Speaking of AADBSK, man, the menu on the dvd (the first season) is gorgeous. hahah I'm a weird-o like that, and I can't leave out the beautiful glossy photo cards. I miss their Rising Sun hairstyles T____T; I really hope their hairstylists dye back Yoochun's hair back to all black and chop chop a little bit of Yunho's hair. Sorry to those who love their current hairstyles *shot*
I keep on telling myself everything will be okay. I endlessly daydream of a perfect future where I have finally made a name for myself, and... I know it'll never happen to me because I'm not the girl who stands out; I'm the person who lurks in the dark, who will never be noticed.
I seriously hate trying to put myself out there, or my so-called "talent" on the line, and end up being rejected. WHAT THE HECK? What is the point of being an artist if you cannot be accepted into "the circle?" Like music, art has a wide range of style, every artist has this certain uniqueness in their art that attracts many. I, myself, love a variety of music: pop, rock, r&b, ballad, acapella, alternative, etc. So why can't art be the same? More specifically, my artwork.
People say it doesn't matter what others say, but seriously, it does. This is whole reason why I left dA (I don't want to go into great detail.. ugh, I hate the system over there). Anyway, I applied for a graphic artist position over in some community (I'm not going to say the name) at LJ, but I have been rejected twice. First time, it was because my style was too complicated, and not simple enough. Second time, the same reason. WHAT THE MOTHER 'EFFIN HECK!?!!?
There's a fine line between too complicated, complicated, simple, and TOO simple!! DANGIT!! I'm seriously getting pissed off (and not because my package was lost in the mail/stolen), but I hate how one person's opinion is crucial in being known or being left in the dark. It's the same mother 'effin thing with portfolios!!! Who has the 'effin right to judge your artwork, and determine whether or not a student is good enough for their art school!?!? IT'S BULL!!
Anyway, this is what I was talking about the whole too complicated -> too simple (in the order shown below). My own perspective of this, your opinion is probably different from me, so please don't bash me. CREDIT: made by happypenguin44; images from dbsg comm, ninjacatherine@ dbsg comm, roselit@LJ
TOO COMPLICATED: Several textures used, exclusion, border: 3px, text: Times New Roman
COMPLICATED: Texture used, exclusion, brush used, border: 1px dotted, text: Times New Roman
SIMPLE: Exclusion, border: 1px, text: Trajan Pro
TOO SIMPLE: FRICKEN MADE THIS IN ADOBE ELEMENTS, and more than half of the icons I see are something like this (except cropping is sometimes better), and they probably use Photoshop (THAT'S NOT THE ONLY THING PHOTOSHOP CAN DO!!): color alteration, exclusion, brightness&contrast alteration
Ugh, it seriously pisses me off. 98%. I kept a strong face, and asked the mod what I needed to do. Obviously she said something simple because this kind of "style" is in. WHATEVER. I give up trying to be accepted into that DANG community. 100% denied. Seriously, if you have Photoshop, use it to its full purpose. GOSH!!! I refuse to make icons extremely simple because it's basically altering an image and saying you made this. I'm not saying that the hundreds of icon makers in LJ aren't talented because honestly, their cropping and use of color is amazing, but I hate how this type of style is only accepted in that comm. Also, just because an icon maker, such as myself, often makes complicated icons, it doesn't mean I or any other can't make "simple" looking icons. It's my own option not to do something like that.
On a lighter note, I finally got around to uploading my brushes. Click here. For all you designers out there, these are for you. Enjoy!
Sorry for a stupid rant, I seriously need a place to just... well, rant.
EDIT // o4.26.08
Ugh, I regret posting this up, and at the same time, I don't. I'm sorry for those who are/were offended by this post *bows* Please forgive me!! MY EXCUSE: lousy spring break and school in general. I overreacted and I really am, ahhh, seriously, I am REALLY SORRY!! No one has flamed me, but I have this guilt looming around my head haha How can I live with myself?
I literally cried when I saw this skit being performed today (not by the same people of course), it's powerful to see it right in front of you. Just wanted to share :]
// Raindrops falling from the heaven, I couldn't remember They take away my misery. It's raining in my heart, my stupid broken heart Baby please, don't go... no light... no sound
ROFL I love Yunho's rap in DARKNESS EYES XDD; Hilarious!! Anyway, I'm officially done with Winter Quarter at De Anza, and now I have SPRING BREAK!!!! HECK YES!!! Though, it sucks that I still have to go to school (and when it's our spring break, I have De Anza classes, WHAT IS THIS INJUSTICE?!?!?!). Anyway, I'm so excited for next quarter cause I signed up for TYPOGRAPHY!!! WEEE!!! Now, I'm definitely prepared for building my "empty portfolio." Anyway, back to spazzing!!! My gosh, I seriously can't wait for May. I'm going down to LA (hopefully, Wendy can come with me) to go to KMF and scream my head off when I see DBSK HAHAHAHAHA jkjk I'll stay sane, for Wendy's sake (if she's going). I can't wait... I need to work on my keychains and up my work speed....
Oh yeah, I realized my xanga layout was screwed up in Firefox and Safari. I finally got off my lazy butt to fix it, and now all is good :] I still don't really know what was wrong with the music player code, but whatever XD;
I'm off to watch Saturday Cartoons <3 YOU ARE NEVER TOO OLD TO WATCH CARTOONS!!! ^^
DARKNESS EYES - THSK || lyrics from tvfxqforever.com
EDIT // 0804o3
Ah, I'm finally a little at ease. Not really, ugh... I seriously need to focus more in school. Seriously, my goal for a 4.0 FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT!!! >]
Oh my gosh, Beautiful You -THSK is sooooooo *inhales* ooooooooo mother 'effin HOT!!! Though, it's eh... at the same time. I seriously hope they don't become to "westernized" and start singing about sex and all that CRAB half of the American singers I know sing. Seriously, I have a horrible impression of them, hence the reason why I listen to Christian songs ROFL A few alternative songs haha In other news, I finally got more than half of the stuff done for the trip down to LA. My brother is coming with me, and we're planning on staying with his friend. Ugh, I feel so horrible troubling my brother's friends T___T; One of them is planning on taking us to the airport, and another is picking us up and letting us stay with her and she is letting my brother borrow her car and everything DD: Ugh, I feel bad about this... Hopefully, I can make it up to her. The only thing I need to worry about is my plan on Saturday cause there's two groups, but I don't know which group I should go with *swt* CRISTY TELL ME WHICH GROUP YOU'RE GOING!!!! :O Yeah, it's a very hard decision. Ugh... I need to work my keychains and t-shirt design.
SUMMER QUARTER IS OPEN!!!!! DRATS!!! I just finished signing up for Spring. KOREAN, BABY!!! Ugh, I want to retake Japanese T3T; Man, I want to take the class for web designing (using Flash), but the times conflict with each other (Web Design and Korean), so I'm planning on taking American art history. Oh, the joy!! XD
It would be seriously awesome if I could do both, but then I realized the whole glowstick/balloons cheer thing we do and I'm all ugh... I need more hands T____T; 
I never even learned about American artists and their wonderful artworks. Ugh... stupid Hudson River question *tears and rip paper out of frustration* I seriously wouldn't be surprised if I get low scores, that's just me.
I seriously can't wait. I'm planning on making an SNSD keychain set and DBSK set. The hardest thing is how and what to draw. Though, I came to a conclusion to make the SNSD keychains be similar to the MV of Girls' Generation, while the DBSK keychains be similar to... I don't know, either TRICK or AADBSK Season 2. Speaking of AADBSK, man, the menu on the dvd (the first season) is gorgeous. hahah I'm a weird-o like that, and I can't leave out the beautiful glossy photo cards. I miss their Rising Sun hairstyles T____T; I really hope their hairstylists dye back Yoochun's hair back to all black and chop chop a little bit of Yunho's hair. Sorry to those who love their current hairstyles *shot* 
I keep on telling myself everything will be okay. I endlessly daydream of a perfect future where I have finally made a name for myself, and... I know it'll never happen to me because I'm not the girl who stands out; I'm the person who lurks in the dark, who will never be noticed. 
People say it doesn't matter what others say, but seriously, it does. This is whole reason why I left dA (I don't want to go into great detail.. ugh, I hate the system over there). Anyway, I applied for a graphic artist position over in some community (I'm not going to say the name) at LJ, but I have been rejected twice. First time, it was because my style was too complicated, and not simple enough. Second time, the same reason. WHAT THE MOTHER 'EFFIN HECK!?!!? 
