Currently Listening A Santa Cause Vol. 1 & 2 By Various Artists see related

My Heart Shrank

This year's Christmas snuck up fast!  All this college stuff is killing my warm, cozy, "Happy Birthday, Jesus!" feelings.  Not the same this year...maybe a Christmas program might do...with lots of people filled with the holiday cheer, "Merry Christmas to you and you!"

Currently Listening Failure On By Beloved (US) see related

Pollute No More 2004!

   Well, I've realized that why I'm not going to drive. It is because driving is bad for the enviornment...also, I'm not going to have kids because kids are hazardous to the enviornment... The more kids, the more consumption of McDonald's.  The more consumption of McDonald's, the more rainforests get cut down.  The more rainforests get cut down, the more carbondioxide, the more carbondioxide, the warmer the globe, the warmer the planet, less people will catch colds!  just kidding. 

Wish me luck on my driver's test!  ....that I might take next year...

Currently Listening Act of Depression see related

Can't change the past

I hate my xanga because it is just so retarded and superficial, etc., and I don't know how to delete it so don't read any posts before this one!  lol

But I'll still try to blog some more.

Currently Listening I'm Only a Man By Emery see related

I Don't Feel Like Posting Blogs

Today, my mom took the cat to the vet, and our cat has this respiratory illness that could be serious or not.  Kitty always had teary eyes since we got her, and we thought that she cried often, but that's one of the side effects of her illness.  Now the family treats her as a hospital patient.  Pets are too fragile.  

Yay, I can finally say that I'm seventeen now, and I feel very different...I think I'll go climb a mountain.

Currently Listening Thrill Seeker By August Burns Red see related

"Brutality and the Beast"

     I guess this is the point of my life where I realize how fragile and delicate our lives are.  Lately, I've been having night terrors (like when I was a little boy), but I haven't had this feeling for quite a long time.  The other night, when I was brushing my teeth, I heard noises like gunshots so I got kinda schitzophrenic (however you spell it) about the gunman/gunman breaking in or something.  Anyways, I realize that I have been living a care-free life just thinking that nothing is going to happen; I'm just going to get good grades, transfer to a university or something, get a job, (hopefully) get married, have kids, and etc., and not thinking about the darker aspects of life.  Not only my own comfort and security that I am anxious about, but also wondering about others who are in this fear constantly.  These fears or insecure thoughts are good for looking back to seek God's presence and rely on His care.