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sorry if i repeated any of them.....
o and thanks for the comments guys
EDIT
ok. very sorry for dumping all this on you guys, but i really have no where to talk and i guess on an annonymous xanga, i can bitch even though no one is reading this.
so my dad comes home tonight, and he's drunk. i hate it when he's drunk. he acts like an ass, and it brings back really bad memories from when i was younger, and his problem was worse. of course i don't tell people this stuff, because i'm "not supposed to". then my friend who i once considered...one of my best friend. and whom i was the best friend of. doesn't talk to me anymore, we're not close at all, and it's completely akward. she tells her problems to other people, and even though this is so stupid and sounds childishly envious, but she used to talk to ME. i don't know what happened. wtf did i do?
and then the whole grade is emerging with cutters, and their friends care about them, and actually help them. i had to fucking TELL my friends, and no one cared. only a select few....i told. and they just don't give a fuck. god. and my mother.....a fucking mess. and it's a mystery to me whether or not half my fucking family is gay i mean the way my dad talks and acts......and my mother. its fucking scary. i mean i know this sounds extremely messed up but sometimes i feel like she's fucking molesting me! i mean, god! disgusting, i know...
oh and also. i catch my uncle watching porn, couple days later, my dad spills all my problems about how i was cutting to my UNCLE - without my permission, and was probably drunk then too - uncle tries to be so fucking understanding but just comes off as creepy since all he does now is try to talk to me. he's fucking scary.
ok. whatever. this is stupid and thanks if you read all of it....even though no one probably did. but ... oh well. ttyl.. | 
