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| A Glimmer of Hopegood news has arrived! i found a second job! the likelihood
of me paying my rent has gone up significantly. so in a week or
so, life will balance between a food service job (but a good and fun
one), retail, practicing, rehearsals soon...spending half the week
looking like crap in a hot kitchen environment to dressing like i'm
wealthier than i am and sucking up to people who are actually wealthier
than i am. it's going to be great! 
in other news, yet another john mayer concert is coming my way in july,
and i'm super-stoked about both the concert and the company. it's
fun to make new friends now and again!
oh, and look at me blogging two days in a row. maybe the sometimes boring real world will aid my blog time. hehe
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| Huhso i just found out that another one of my high school friends is
engaged. and once again, i'll have absolutely nothing to do with
the wedding. it feels very strange for that to be true of people
who 4 years ago were with me almost daily. things change so
rapidly at this stage of our lives. and while my relationships
with people i was once so close to become more and more distant, i find
it hard to feel motivated for the here and now. i should be
excited to start my life, but instead am so frightened i can hardly
think of anything else. i know what my ultimate goals are...it's
the getting there that's the problem. so as almost everyone i
know moves on to the next stage of their lives, i remain here,
stagnant, seemingly without purpose. let's hope the Lord shines a
light on my life soon.
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| today, i am graduating with an bachelors of music degree in vocal
performance from a four-year liberal arts institution. wow.
i know i don't blog often, but i felt like i couldn't let this day get
away without saying something before it starts. i have been
dreading and waiting for this day for four years. i can't wait to
say that i've earned my degree, but i also don't want to say it's
over. the last four years here have changed my life in every way
possible. my relationships have changed drastically, and so have
i. did i get everything out of this experience i wanted?
no. did i enjoy every minute of it and look back on nothing with
regret? without question. the good lord works in mysterious
ways, as the song goes. it's definitely been true of all our
lives. not everything has been good, but so much has. me
staying here for the next year has made it hard to come to terms with
the fact that most of the friends in my class aren't. they're
moving back to the city to work, or leaving to state for grad
schools. and i'm here, albeit with a few friends, and all the
people left at school that i love. but everything is going to
change come june, and i'm sure when august rolls around i'm going to
wish i was getting ready for school again. but, one step at a
time. for now, i cannot wait for two hours from now, when i am
sitting among so many people i care about, taking that next step in our
lives, truly just beginning them. that's what this day is.
not an ending...a beginning.
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| the break-down point is coming soon, i can feel it in my jaw. 
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|  | Currently Listening
Falstaff / Verdi, Gobbi · Schwarzkopf · Moffo · Karajan
By Giuseppe Verdi, Herbert von Karajan, Tito Gobbi, Elisabeth Schwarzkopf, Philharmonia Orchestra and Chorus, Nan Merriman, Anna Moffo, Rolando Panerai, Fedora Barbieri, Tomaso Spataro, Nicola Zaccaria, Luigi Alva
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i can't wait to be done writing papers...why am i in 2 classes this
semester that require me to do so? ok whatever, i'm a senior in
upper division classes. poor excuse. really me writing
papers is just a waste of hours of my life, and also of the professor's
time because i will rarely write something worth reading.
everyone would benefit if we could just have a nice discussion about
the topic and call it a day. if you can't tell, i'm trying to
write a paper. i've spent the last 2 and a half hours trying to
start it, and have nothing but a thesis, 3 sentences of an intro, and a
couple of bullet points about the body. it just isn't looking
good. 4 more papers until graduation...
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