ohhh the joy of Christmas Break..

got a lot of fun stuff for christmas..like my cute new digital camera.. so now im gonna be taking pictures like crazy and you guys can be the ones to check em out.  the cruise was AMAZING and it woulda been better if the ones i left back home would of been on it....but im with them now and thats all that matters.

i hope everyone had a good new years by the way..

2006..so much oppurtunity 

i never update anymore...and idk why

tonight was a lot of fun..cornhole has to be the best game ever. and me and kett....we are for sure the best at it..we just didnt wanna pull out our game and make everyone else look like fkin losers...so your welcome.
actually im pretty sure it was just the ppl i was with. loves of my life...well except the true love of my life which in reality isnt my "love of my life" bc thats of course mattchew allen..but the love of my life wasnt there which i went to see afterwards..right. and he was all pissy but i cheered him up hopefully..and i love him.  yes im bragging.

and i just found out the the champs really suck in reality..and masons form didnt pull through in the end..although it was cute watching the little pop thing he does..and probably no one cares or noticed like me.

and thats about it for my night...oh!....i didnt get touch of gold food which i was told i was gonna get.  im pissed

i cleaned my room today and i feel so much better...

i was going through things and found notes from 6th grade and they were from leah. she was thanking me for breaking her and josh up and said that shes gonna tell craig for me during study hall...i remember being pissed cus i always saw craig before studyhall and it would be awkward cus he wouldnt know what was coming...haha..but i completely forgot we had eachother do the whole break up thing for one another...lame..but cute.
i also saw a picture of lukey bakus...he was my bestest friend in 6th grade...my absolute favy redhead to ever breathe on this earth...and now idkwtf is going on in his life..
i didnt get to watch one tree hill OR lost last week..so tomorrow im gonna be so confused on whats going on in both of my shows...wtf...
our video in english was funny..jacob and jess kelly are identical when jacob has makeup on...and bry's and mattchews commercial def beat ours..<3

ohyea..my familys completely insane..so ive decided that im from now on Adopted

ive been thinking a lot lately about love..
theres so many different feelings i have about it i just dont really know what to think..
am i the only one who gets scared when your so close that everything is perfect every minute your around him? i start to think that its gonna end sometime and how hard and painful that will be and if im just setting myself up to be even more hurt by staying with him and being even more comfortable..or then its like..what if i get so close and dont do anything about it that one day i want out and i cant get out bc i love him too much to hurt him...
i wish i didnt think ahead and i just went with the feelings i have right now...being so in love that you miss him when you just left his house..its so pointless to even think about the future cus i dont even know if i have a future tomorrow..
or how about when your on the other side and someone can just cut you out of there life in like..an hour.. when you thought that no matter what you can make it through anything bc thats how much they mean to you...and you try everything you can but you know theres nothing you can do but just sit there and watch it slip farther and farther away from what you once knew..is love really something you can control?..or do the hard times come with it so the good times seem that much more special..

deep?...

me and paige def carved the best pumpkins ever tonight...haha..theyre on my porch all lit up and its worth the drive by to see em  i am so proud

i had a very good weekend..a lot of fun with my betests..
brick left this weekend and im gonna miss him...but he knows i love him and he will be home soon

homecoming is so exciteing ...this weekend is def gonna rock..even if we lose to greenon..haha

AND paiges halloween party...goin as little bo peep..thats right..