ok so i just got the new fall out boy cd. its amazing. i love it.

yeah so i am going to start with friday and then move on. this friday was amazing. first me and Courtney went to best buy to play guitar hero and thats it. we played for about 30 min and then left. after that we went to the mall and Tyler and Curtis and two of their friends met us there. we all hung out and played in the arcade cuz we did not get there early enough to play putt putt. it was all the guys fault for one, the girls were on time. lol. yeah part of the problem was that only one of them were sober. so you can only imagine how much fun the arcade was. yeah and the fumes must have mesed with Courtney's and my head because we were acting just as bad(if not worse) than the guys. so then at about 10:30ish we left the mall. me and Courtney went to the bowling ally to play pool. the people at the table next to us were talking about how they thought we were drunk.

so then all day saturday and sunday i was packing and moving and unpacking between the two houses. i cant wait tell we get moved in over there. plus my parents said Kalen and i might get have a party (where all are friends come over and hang) in the old house after every thing is out. but yeah about half my closet is over there now along with all my books movies and cd cases (i kept the cds here).

then this thursday is the TAKING BACK SUNDAY concert. i can not wait. i am so excited about it and i can not believe it is finally here. o and THE ACADEMY IS... new cd comes out april 3 but my parents let me pre-order it. so i got this package that gives me stickers, pins, a poster and the cd all for $20. so i am super exited about that as well.

ok and there is 1 month before our trip to texas. with all the people that are going it is going to be amazing. we all get to spend four days together in a hotel. yeah who knows what stories i will have to tell from it. i cant wait.

plus i wrote two new poems this past week. and i have learned that i can only write sad poems i can never write anything happy. no matter what mood i am in. but yeah here they are...

Who Am I?

Things come into focus

As I wonder what has happen

Thought this life was perfect

Just to find out it was all made up

These walls are bare

The streets stand empty

While all looking the same

Titled Hollow, Empty and Soul

I long for your touch

Just for you to hold me

Mascara streaks my face

My hands can only shake

I try to hold on

There is still more

I need to say…

Lost

You always had to make

All the first moves

Now I have to wake

To an empty room

I try to scream the word

That caused all the pain

But it can’t be herd

Over the silence all around

With out you here

I have lost all faith

Every thing is coming clear

We made a slight mistake

My world was set on fire

Then you left it all in ruins

I have become the liar

Who can only tell the truth

<3

OMG its been forever since i have been on here. so yeah school has been great besides all the work i have had to do. ok i like always put my poems on here but the last one i just put on myspace. i will let you all read it if you have not yet.

My Apologies

I have let my self slip

And picked up bad habits

I like the way I feel

When your hand holds mine

Yet I just don’t know

If this is right

My body says yes

My head says no

My heart is lost

And I just don’t know

Let’s start with the past

But there is none to tell

How can you sing

When the song won’t play

How do you speak

When they all walk away

Just take my hand

And kiss my cheek

Hold me close

Just don’t make a move

I am sorry but

I am just not sure

Are you mine like

I am yours.

<3

one thing i know is that guys are so complicated. god i get a boyfriend and like two other guys want me too. but like last year when i had no one, not one guy tried to get me. but i like the way things have been lately with steven and i. oh and here is some big news that is like amazing. memorial is 2-1 in football this year. so we are lots better and this friday is homecoming. it should be fun. OMG so snakes on a plane is like one of the best movies ever and Happy Feet(the penguin movie) comes out november 17 and i am so going. you all need to come with me. ok so i am going to go and maybe do my homework but yeah right like i am going to. lol. and i will try and get on here more. ttyl