it's all because of you I'm feeling sad and blue.
you went away, now my life is just a rainy day...
and i love you so, how much you'll never know.
you gone away and left me lonely...

untouchable memories seem to keep haunting me
of a love so true that once turned all my gray skies blue.
but you disappeared, now my eyes are filled with tears...
and i'm wishing you were here with me.
soaked with love are my thoughts of you,
now that you're gone, I just don't know what to do...

if only you were here, you'd wash away my tears.
the sun would shine, once again you'll be mine oh mine...
but in reality, you and I will never be...
'cause you took your love away from me.

girl, I don't know what I did to make you leave me,
but what I do know is that since you've been gone
there's such an emptiness inside...
i'm wishing you would come back to me.

if only you were here, you'd wash away my tears...
the sun would shine, once agaaaiin you'll be mine oh miiinee...
but in reality, you and I will never be
'cause you took your love away from me... aww baby...
you took your love away from mee......



yeah, been stressin' a lot lately. fucked my knuckles up, but it doesn't swell as hard now, I suppose I've grown an immunity. :D ehhhh... just want to say she's really got a hold on me and I could never see myself letting her go. hell, I've never wanted to nor will I ever let this female go. I still believe... even after all this shit, I still believe she's my meant to be. heh, and now I must admit, as Boyz II Men have said "a fool's what I am", that applies to me very well. you can't blame me, I'm just one of the few very hopeless romantics. nothing's ever gon change that. well, fuck this, I've said too much already.

I gotta take it, though it's heartbreaking.
It's something that I have to do...

Another sleepless night... damn, what am I doing to myself? I put an old song up... I was thinking of putting gone, but I figure everyone else probably has it up so I decided not to. I thought I was doing alright... I don't know whats come over me, I've been so damn down this past week. "I can't even bear to mention the very sound of your name......" heh, love that line. I might get my two huge bottles of Henny this Friday. :D I need my Henny; alcohol is my only release from this pain, even if it's only for a short amount of time. Got a fuckload of thoughts in mind, but I ain't gon type it out. Those days are long gone. Ain't no one gon know how I feel but me, and that's just how it's gon be now. Sometimes I feel as if all of this is just a bad dream... that one day, just maybe, I'll wake up and none of it would have been reality... that none of the pain existed, because that's how it works, you can't get hurt in dreams/nightmares. I'm covered in scars and open wounds that never seem to mend. I'm just a simple man tortured by these complicating thoughts--these thoughts, they never leave my head... "I know that it's kinda crazy but I... feel like I'm falling apart..." heh, love this line too. I gotta stop listening to this song. "I should've never turned my back on my lady..." Sigh... a fool's what I am. =] I ain't even feel like typing no more, fuck this. I'm out...

I fucking miss you...