Shoobeedoobeedoobaaah

It's summer time!  I feel relaxed and happy at the moment.  I know that in about an hour that will change and I will feel stressed out again because I'm in the process of studying for BEC (a section of the CPA exam).  Oh, why am I always a crammer?  Why couldn't I study everyday so that I'm not stressed out by the time the exam comes?  .... ok let me stop.  This is supposed to be about how I'm happy and relaxed.  haha...

I am happy.  I never thought I'd be one of those happy in love people.    I think it's always been in my nature to be happy so I can't say I was a crabby person all this time.  But I'm happy because somehow I know, somehow I am positively sure that life has led me to my pot of gold.  I am going to be rich beyond my wildest dreams and I'm excited about it!  Ever feel that way about life?  Well if you get there let me know.  It is such a good feeling.  Now, I am not so deliriously happy that I think nothing bad will ever happen, I expect that...  I'm from New Jersey... of course I expect that.  But there is security in the wealth I've found, so I'm not too worried about the tribulations of life. 

on another note...

It'll be 2 years in August since I've moved back up to NJ, the state I never thought I'd ever move back to.  I used to stress about how much I miss my friends in MD and how out of touch I am with them.  I used to think, "who will want to know how I am besides them and my family??  and how will they know if i don't keep up with them?  and what if we grow apart and they don't miss me anymore."  But I realize, now, that I had to grow up and do the things I needed to do.  I still miss my friends there and I still wish that I lived around the area but I'm ok with where I am in life.  I am sure they think of me every now and then.  I may not hear from them but then again they don't always hear from me.  That's ok.  I think if i were to live there again I'd become part of their lives all over again.  Hi Maryland/DC/Virginia!  Heather misses you all!  I do hope that you are well and happy! 

Instinct

Life is good

i haven't written in this thing in ages.  i wonder if people still read this at all anymore or have they all moved on to facebook, myspace, and/or friendster... or is friendster not hip any more.. hahaha...

anyway... i thought my mood warranted an entry.  I feel alive once again.  not to say i've been down and out the whole year but i definitely feel happy again.  a different kind of happy.  it's kind of amazing... 

everything happens for a reason...  God does have a plan.  I'm glad I didn't question it along the way...

Cheers to all my xanga people who are still kicking and writing in this thing...