| | ListsI have an unhealthy fascination with lists. I'm the only J (remember the Meyers-Briggs personality tests from college?). And when I get busy my lists hit an all time frenzied high. I write them everywhere. Copy them over. And take GREAT JOY in checking boxes. Like I said, its unhealthy. Especially in a culture where the common shared wisdom given to N. Americans is to plan each day to get ONE thing done. Now then, there is very little joy in checking one box per day. So, my lists have gotten more detailed, include more smaller things I CAN control. E-mail Grandma. E-mail office. Write prayer letter. Call contact A, B, C. With these small, manageable lists, I can check more boxes! But my perfectionistic, type A, box-checking tendencies are far from conducive with Bolivian culture. My husband kindly (although I sometimes interpret it as tauntingly) reminds me that I tend to make unnecessary stress for myself around these things. I don't always respond well and just a couple weeks ago, we had a discussion around such themes, after which I stopped by Cara's who was meeting with her Servant Team in time for a Lectio Divino reading of the Mary and Martha passage.
"she has chosen a better way... it will not be taken from her." I'm trying to loosen my grip, sit longer with Jesus even if it means I can't check as many boxes and the meal isn't as complete and my house remains cluttered and dusty.
I'm still not as okay with it as I'm pretending to be, but the therapeutic process takes time.
Yesterday, I had an incredibly successful day yesterday. My most proud check was finding a new bathing suit for our Chile beach vacation (10 days and counting!) in the only landlocked country in the western hemisphere. And its cute!
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| | Posted 3/28/2008 2:11 PM - 3 comments
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