| So, I went back and read over my old entries, and needless to say i was sort of embarrassed at how my life was back in '04-'06. It's really funny looking over comments people left and realizing how many people just aren't friends anymore. Of course I'm just going to leave all of them set to 'private' since there's really no need in bringing back old drama that was so prevalent. I think most of my entries centered on how sad I was because of my relationship. In a way I wish I would have just nailed the coffin shut back in September 2003. That would have certainly saved two years worth of crying and whining through blogging. Everything was just so petty and stupid then. It made me feel sad/happy/angry/nostalgic/confused/and relieved all at the same time. Gary and I were so close, I looked at him like a brother bear. Doom affectionately named me Heather "Spears". Jacqui and I actually spoke. It's just bizarre. I also feel bad about all the drama, all the guys, all the tears...but life goes on and people move away.
In a way I sort of wish everyone still posted, just to see how things have turned out. Half the people just shut their site down altogether, and the other half haven't written since 2005. I said it best on May 22, 2004: "My poor xanga is bipolar."
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| sleepless in tallahasseeI can't sleep. I keep hearing weird noises. I hope no one is trying to break in. I really hate sleeping alone! I've got to wake up in 6 hours...
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| =)The Perishers
"Trouble Sleeping"
I’m having trouble sleeping
You’re jumping in my bed
Twisting in my head
Leave me
I’m having trouble breathing
You’re sitting on my chest
I sure could use the rest
Leave me
It’s you
Why’s it always you and never me?
I’ve never dared to let my feelings free
Why’s it always you and never me?
I’ve never cared too much about honesty
I’m having trouble sleeping
I’m thinking of what you said
About the tears been shed
Leave me
It’s you
Now and always you but never me
I’ve never dared to let my feelings free
Why’s it always you and never me?
I’ve never cared too much about honesty
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| Nine in the AfternoonBack to the street where we began
Feeling as good as lovers can, you know
Now we're feeling so good
Pickin’ up things we shouldn’t read
It looks like the end of history as we know
It’s just the end of the world
Back to the street where we began
Feeling as good as love, you could, you can
Into a place where thoughts can bloom
Into a room where it's nine in the afternoon
And we know that it could be
And we know that it should
And you know that you feel it too
'Cause it's nine in the afternoon
And your eyes are the size of the moon
You could 'cause you can so you do
We're feeling so good
just the way that we do
When it's nine in the afternoon
Your eyes are the size of the moon
You could 'cause you can so you do
We're feeling so good
Back to the street
Down to our feet
Losing the feeling of feeling unique
Do you know what I mean?
Back to the place
Where we used to say
Man it feels good to feel this way
Now I know what I mean
Back to the street, back to the place,
Back to the room where it all began, hey
Back to the room where it all began
'Cause it's nine in the afternoon
Your eyes are the size of the moon
You could 'cause you can so you do
We're feeling so good
Just the way that we do
When it's nine in the afternoon
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| Passed out in our school clothes so we'd wake up in our Sunday's best
I never asked for your opinion, I just got it and I get it
You move slow like daytime drama
And I'm boring like his songs
So while I'm taking you for granted
We'll be humming along
Well cross my heart and hope to...
I'm lying just to keep you here
So reckless (so reckless), so,
So thoughtless (so thoughtless)
So careless, I could care less
Well cross my heart and hope to...
I'm lying just to keep you here
(So reckless)
Well she's so heartless,
And I could care less
So paint your face up something elegant
And this town maybe a darker shade of red
Cause a long night means a fist fight
Against your pillow and my pearly whites
I want to hear you scream you like me better on my knees
So let us pray
(we don't believe in second chances)
So let us pray
Don't you ask me
Don't you move (anywhere)
Cross my heart and hope to
I'm lying just to keep you here
So reckless (so reckless), so,
So thoughtless (so thoughtless)
So careless, I could care less
Well Cross my heart and hope to
I'm lying just to keep you here
(So reckless)
Well she's so heartless
And I could care less
Well cross my heart and hope to
I'm lying just to keep you here
I'll keep you here, I'll keep you here
One of us never did it but we're taking it all. (Well cross my heart and hope to)
And tell me why you never promised that you wanted it all. (I'm lying just to keep you here)
And her eyes never batted when she said it
It's a long night, open, know it...
This glass house is burning down (open all night, know it...)
You light the match, I'll stick around (open all night, know it...)
I'll give you everything you want (open all night, know it...)
And wish the worst of what I was (open all night, know it...)
This glass house is burning down (open all night, know it...)
You light the match, I'll stick around (open all night, know it...)
I'll give you everything you want (open all night, know it...)
And wish the worst of what I was (open all night, know it...)
Tonight won't make a difference
Tonight won't make a difference
Tonight won't make a difference
Well tonight won't make a difference
Well tonight won't make a difference
Tonight won't make a difference
Tonight won't make a difference
Well tonight won't make a difference
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