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wanna go away

Fri, 10 Oct 2008 19:22:30 GMT

smelled diesel fuel on the way back to the office and now i long for Korea. even as i listen to k-music i can't ignore the great desire to be over there.

2009, is korea in the picture?

back in the office

Thu, 09 Oct 2008 21:13:28 GMT

i'm tired. yesterday (2nd day of working at home) i spent my lunch hour cleaning our bathrooms and baking lasagna and cupcakes.

so today i have zero energy and zero desire to work and even MORE exhausted from starting at the million of things to take care of for work. so boo working. oi vay, please let me complain for just this moment.

now, on the flip side. Dinner was a success. Dono and Brother came over as guests and we had a nice dinner. We watched 007. Started this morning with a Caramel Frap from my co-worker.

Thas life isn't it? It's ups and downs. Glad this week is almost over. Praise God. hehe. :P

working from home

Wed, 08 Oct 2008 15:22:19 GMT

Been working from home yesterday and today because I'm taking a Quickbooks training course online. The class starts at 7:30am, boo. Working from home has been interesting.

First off, I love starting early because I get to end early! So yesterday I got to run some errands and hit up the market to start dinner AND finish just as A came through the door.

Secondly, it's more tiring. Yesterday I vacuumed the house, ironed A's clothes, cooked dinner, organized some papers....SOOO exhausting bc this was all ON TOP of listening to the training.

Third, when I finished I finally got to sit on the couch and watch tv. When I realized how hungry I was, one of those Christian Children's Fund commercials came on showing the starving kids in 3rd world countries. Felt moated.

My 2nd day working at home continues...

weddingbee/e-harmony update

Mon, 06 Oct 2008 20:05:41 GMT

So since the "union" of weddingbee and e-harmony there have been a LOT of changes. Mainly, a large handful of "bees" no longer wanting to be writers on weddingbee. some of whom i've enjoyed reading immensely. Secondly, the amount of backlash and stress Mrs. Bee seems to be enduring.

political drama aside.....actually, no, either way thas some mad drama. I hope the best for Mrs. Bee.

that strange gray area

Thu, 02 Oct 2008 21:08:40 GMT

I just found out (and still processing the info) that Weddinbee has sold their "website'' to E-harmony.

First off, e-harmony is an online source for finding a date/love for heterosexual singles. They were somewhat "christian" based organization which is now steering away from that and shifting to embracing all religion since the only pre-cursor to being a member is "heterosexual". They don't nor plan to support homosexual relationships.

Secondly, weddingbee is an online wedding planning website that caters to all men and women all around the US. The premise of this site is having engaged ppl post their wedding planning adventures online in hopes to get help and help others. I have spent many many a hours reaping the benefit of other creative planners. Since I have been reading the site there have been 2 gay relationships - 1 of which an acquaintance I know attended their wedding.

My personal stance is that I am a Christian woman who believes in hetero- unions. As of late, marriage/union of 2 people same sex or not has been an unbelievably large controversy in our nation. To this day, my hubby and I talk about how we stand on the politics of the issue.

So that aside, now a handful of weddingbee authors are upset that Weddingbee website has been sold to a company that does not support same-sex marriage. Though Weddingbee will still have full freedom to have same-sex engaged couples as authors, the thought that their postings will bring $ to a non-supportive company that is e-Harmony, upsets the current authors. (post on weddingbee)

I think what makes me feel unsettled about this is that at the end of the day, it was all about the benjamins $$$$. Bc, if I were e-Harmony and discriminated solely on homosexuals as a non-christian org. then thas just jacked. If i were weddingbee that stood for equal unions then selling to a discriminatory company is worth getting upset about.

Regardless, I was just a reader for the last 3 years and not even an author. I dun't know why this merger upset me. I guess I felt emotionally connected. But I do know anything that has to do w/ $ upsets me. Booo to these gray areas of stuff. What is your stance? Does everything really just boil down to business? Are we really a nation that no longer stands behind what we "believe" in?

flying solo

Mon, 29 Sep 2008 17:51:35 GMT

Soooo I did it. On Friday while chatting w/ A on the phone as he waited for his flight back home, I drove to the happiest place on earth for my very anticipated solo trip to Disneyland. Yes, perks of having an Annual Pass.

Perks of flying solo:
1. Walking at your own pace. I'm a really fast walker.
2. Riding whatever the heck ya want. I rode Big Thunder Mountain and Space Mountain.
3. Eating whatever you want without sharing. I ordered a Nestle Toll House Ice Cream Sandwich.
4. Being alone with my thoughts.
5. Enjoying knowing that it is ok to be alone.

Cons of flying solo:
1. Having to wait in line all a-lone. Luckily the longest wait I had was 20 mins but it's weird just standing there w/ no one to really talk to or play games with. You can only look at 1 space for so long before having to find a new space to stare at w/out looking like your neck has a nervous twitch. Oh, and its not fun trying to find a safe place to stare at without having all these lovey dovey couples to remind you that husband is million of miles away.
2. Enjoying a ride is only half the fun if you don't have anyone to enjoy it with. So there I am on the roller coaster with my arms raised high and squealing in joy....smiling like a dumb nut all on my own. Noone to look over to the side and laugh and scream with. Soooo that made me feel stupid. Yes, Sally, stoopid.
3. Paranoia of all the whispering around me. Thinking that everyone is pointing out how that weird Asian girl is all by her self at Disneyland. Strange. Especially when they look at me a lil longer than I am comfortable being stared at.

Conclusion:
I believe there are places that are cool to fly solo. ie) Movies. Disneyland however, was a bit of a challenge. I think it's meant to be enjoyed with someone because what's the point of being at the happiest place on earth if you have noone to share it with?! Now, if I were to go to Main Street to sit down and ppl watch while devouring a corn dog then MAAAYYYBEEE. But frankly, I don't think I could go to Disney w/out having the urge to ride something; which is where I faced all the cons of going alone. Anyway, agree/disagree?

question of the day?

Fri, 26 Sep 2008 16:10:21 GMT

is going to Disneyland by yourself stoopid?

disclaimer: i'm not talking about overweight men who wear MM t-shirts and short shorts, and socks with their sandals. i'm talking about me. and ppl who think Disney is stupid don't bother answering this. i think i'm still going to go after work?

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Wed, 24 Sep 2008 17:32:51 GMT

Saw "The Prestige" last nite with my family and A. "The Prestige" has Hugh Jackman, Christian Bale, and Michael Caine. Awesome line up. oh, then that blondie Scarlett Johanson. Very dark movie. Lots of subtle and mysterious twists in the movie that you don't think about till after the movie. cool. seriously, Christian Bale rocks....esp. since "Newsies". i heart newsies.

Monday, September 22, 2008

Mon, 22 Sep 2008 19:42:25 GMT

Saw "American Gangster" last nite w/ Denzel. He is very fine. The movie was also really great, A&I really enjoyed it. We recommend.

vroom vrooom

Wed, 17 Sep 2008 17:24:55 GMT

Last night A brought home his co-worker's Z Roadster. So guess what I drove to work?! (insert squeal) ....a Z Roadster!!!! (insert big smile here)

Gotta be honest w/ you tho, I felt self conscious and exposed. Driving top down to Costa Mesa...after so many years of staring at those young girls driving in their fancy cars....imagining people scrutinizing me likewise....knowing I had pondered heavily what to wear to be worthy of driving behind such a flashy car...allowing myself to give into a smidgen of vanity. Because cool factor aside, the Z is a flashy car and is a lil past my comfort zone. [Side Note: I'd rather be driving an Eos, teehee].

Anyway, it musta been the fact that I was driving towards Costa Mesa and surrounded by a handful of other uber flashy cars like the black Beamer that cruised behind me and the sun that glared into my face which inadvertently made me hideously scrunch my face the whole drive down; which all made me relax and stop thinking how exposed I felt (with half my car no longer safe to hide behind bc yes, we do find too much comfort behind the walls of our vehicles; thus leading too eating, cell phone talking, picking noses, etc.) and enjoyed my ride down to the office.

It's amazing: the purr of the Z and its power and the way the steering wheel makes you feel like you're playing a racer video game. And to top off a great drive...as soon as I got off the freeway, "American Boy" came on and I bumped it and I felt gooooood.

On another serious note, as I was driving the convertible I kept thinking to myself: "Esther, maybe since this is your 2nd time driving a Z Roadster, you'll get tired of it and won't have to have one for yourself!" But bumpin' to a good jam with the air in my face made me realize, "ahha, what was I thinking?! It's as awesome as you thought it was going to be silly girl!"

Well the day is still young, and I canNOT wait to go out for lunch so I can drive it again. And after lunch i will be SOO impatient to want to go home so I can drive it again. Oh convertible, why does my wild side yearn for you so?! *sigh*

Oh, and thanks to my hubby for giving me an opportunity to drive such pretty pretty things. :)