well i am really bored rite now. so i thought i would write this entry. i really want to leave this house. i can't living one more moment. all i get from this house is heartbreak. i don't want to make her happy anymore. i go out of my way to make her happy all she does is yell at me day in and day out. i pretend i am asleep so she would leave me alone. why doesn't she do that for me. just leave me alone. i stay in my room minding my own business. why does she have to pound at the door to yell at me for. what have i done to her to deserve her treating me this way. well those people that said that they would be there for me. all i hear that they have better stuff to do or is talking to their bf or someone else. when i want to talk they don't answer no matter how many times i call. so when i need someone to listen to me cry or anything at all. where were they there. nope. so why do i need anyone anymore. when i need someone the most. they were never there. to me if i ever leave this world. no one would ever care or even go to my funeral. in this world, i am always alone. i don't have anyone but myself. there is nothing in this world worth living for. i am not gonna commit suidcide anymore. it won't make anything go away. the best thing i could do is leave this house. i am planning to leave this house one way or the other. if i have to be out on the street is better than living in this house. but its really scaring out there in the streets. i would go a friend's house but i have no friends. i don't know when to leave. it could be today after this entry. so byebye. have a nice life everyone. to the people that would read this entry of mine. this might be the last time you  guys hear from me. byebye.

Sincerely,

Helen