Good Bye

So, this is going to be my last post, on xanga.  First i just want to tsay to the xanga world thanks, you have been great and wonderful to me.  Second i just wanna post an apology to certain people(there are no names on xanga) that i hurt or annoyed.  First off, I am truly sorry to all i have lied too over i guess the last two years, and recently it has been brought to my attention that i have been changing over these two years, and the change is for the worse.  I have been obnixous, and sometimes down right rude.  I am truly sorry for that and i am going to try to change. But to let everyone know i am going through alot right now and in the last year.  I have no direction in my life, i feel like i am  just wandering along, i  am having to many family issues going on, i am  trying to connect with my bio mom and get to know the family i never knew, i am putting my dog down on friday, and all those things comes with emotions. I do not have an outlet for those emotions, i just keep them bottled up until i feel like i am going to explode, and i end up lying too and hurting and pushing away people that i  need the most.  And the whole thing about me being critcal to others, is really me being critcal to myself. I do not like the person i have become, like i am some kind of  monster and i  can not stop myself. So, instead of getting to know new people, i push them away with looks and attitude, and comments that really do not need to be said. So, i am  really sorry to those i have hurt and hopefully you can forgive me.  I can understand if you do not want to hang out anymore.  I am going to change, just to let you know, its going to be hard but i do not want to lose any of your friendships. Because you all mean the world to me and i would do  anything for you.

Love,

Rachel

Steffans neck is fixed, thanks to Ethan

Currently Watching Beetle Juice see related

Hey people i am ALL BY MYSELF< DONT WANNA BE ALL BY MYSELF ANYMORE>  I can not wait till everyone comes home, i was alone for one night an i could not stand it, i played uno with my sister, all night long.  I enjoy playing uno, but it is not what i want to do on a friday night with my grown sister. I felt like i was 8 again, playin uno, drinking kool-aide and watching TGIF. UHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, so anyways there is a survey going around i and i wanna do it. So fasten your seatbelts and HERE WE GO!

1. What's your opinion on sex without emotional commitment? sex was designed for marriage and thats where it should be taken place at and without emotional commitment then it wont b as enjoyable cause its also suposed to have an emotional part too(BOBBYS on the right track)
2. Do you bite your boyfriend's/girlfriend's toenails? no

3. Are you a jealous person? yes, depends on the situation
4. What are you allergic to? banannas
5. What books, if any, have made you cry? alot of books made me cry, But iwould have to say a Walk to remember

6. Does it annoy you when someone says they'll call but never do? no not really
7. What is your favorite ice cream flavor? oreo and cookies and cream

8. If someone you had no interest in dating but expressed interest what would you do/say? ummmmm i dont know, why dont you ask Paul! Thats Juicy!

9. What would you rather be doing right now? taking a safri in africa
10. What song lyric, if any, is stuck in your head at the moment? Baby i got your money dontcha worry

11. Do you enjoy giving hugs?Yes, and it depends  on the person

12. What did you dress up as for your fist Halloween? raggedy Andy

35. What is your favorite salad dressing? blue cheese
36. What movies do you know every line to? Robin Hood Men in Tights
37. Have you ever dated one of your best friends? no but i will never get the chance too,  bummer right?

38. Has anyone told you a secret this week? no
39. When was the last time someone hit on you? walking downtown
40. Would you rather take the picture or be in the picture?both but if i had to pick i would take the pic
41. Do you wear slippers (flip-flops) even when its cold outside? yes thats always a good time( i agree with bob)

42. If you could eat one meal for the rest of your life, what would it be? pasta and no im not coping off of denise or bob its the truth
43. How many siblings do you have, and where are you in the rank?  I have an older bro Scott 31, Sis Claudia 28, sis Lisa 27, sis Stephanie 25, A lil bro quinton 6, and a lil bro max2. So far i have six brothers and sisters, but who knows how many children my bio dad had.
44. What's the sweetest thing you've ever done for someone? burned some cookies
45. When was your last road trip? alton
46. Name 3 schools you went to:  gotch, meniser, and Rogers middle school
47. Name 3 things in your purse/backpack: cell, lip gloss, and a pen

48. Three names you go by: Rachel, Raye, and Rach(only Paul)
49. Who is in the house with you? Mom, Daddy, Tettie, and Shane, and JAn
50. Who are you thinking about right now? Paul and Helen keller what an amazing woman
51. Who's house did you last go to? D
52. Who do you wish you were with right now? paul

53. Where do you live? South County
54. Where did you get the shirt you're wearing? My bro Scott
55. Where is the last place you took a ride to?the library
56. What was the last thing you ate? beef strognaff
57. What kind of cell phone do you have? sony eccrison

So everyone should be thrilled to know that i am bringing my sister Stephanie to Impact tonight.  Just a warning she is very crude, and she is ummmmmmmmmmmm  just  a lil out of it.  But hopefully she will listen to the message and trust the lord as her savior, we have talked about it in the past, but i think she might be ready to hear it now.  She just got out of rehab and is very emotional she does not know what to do with her life, so keep her in your prayers. I will see yall tonight, for some cold football and fellowship. 

Rachel Fairchild Agnes Willis

[ x] my fingernails/toenails are almost always painted
[x] during the summer pretty much the only shoes i wear are flip flops
[ x]my favorite color is pink or purple
[ ] i did Gymnastics
[ x] i love skirts
[] hollister is my favorite place to shop
[x ] tight jeans are the only jeans i'll wear
[ x] i love chocolate
[ ] i've never had a real job
TOTAL:6

[ x] my hair is straightened
[ ] i have at least 8 myspace pictures
[ x] i usually go shopping once a week
[x] i love to hang out at the mall with friends
[x ] i have a real diamond ring or diamond necklace
[x] i've gone to a tanning salon
[x] ive gone to the beach to tan - not to swim
[ x] i have at least 10 pairs of shoes
[x] i watch either the OC or Laguna Beach
[ ] i change my icon weekly
[x ] i wear a shower cap
TOTAL: 9

[x] would NEVER step foot into Hot Topic
[x] my cell phone might as well become a part of me
[x ] i wear mascara everyday
[x] i've been or am on a diet
[x ] bathing suits are adorable
[ ] i dont know the difference between a sheep and a goat.
[x ] big sunglasses are hott
[x] i have gotten my nails done
[x ] i own over 10 purses
[x] MTV is my one of my favorite channels
TOTAL: 9

[x ] all i want to do at sleepovers is talk about boys IT'S TRUE!
[ x] i love to have other girls do my hair
[x] i give and receive hugs from all my friends
[x ] i hate bugs, snakes, lizards, spiders

[x] carnivals are so fun!!
[x] summer is THE best season
[x ] my swimsuit has 2 pieces
[ x] im waiting for my knight in shining armor
[ x] musicians are so hot
[x ] you write me a poem and tell me im beautiful and im all yours
TOTAL: 10

[x] i am self-conscious.
[ x] i cry often
[ ] my car smells like vanilla

[x] my dishes get washed more then once a week
[ ] i dont do sports
[] i HATE to run
[x ] i squeal when i am surprised or angry
[ ] i eat dried fruit as a snack
[x ] i love romance novels
[ x] Drew Barrymore is so cute
TOTAL: 6
[x] i dance a lot.
[x ] i usually spend over an hour to get ready to leave my house
[x ] i only have like 5 billion hair products
[x ] i love to get dressed up.
[x] every part of my outfit needs to match
[x] i talk on the phone at least once a day to a few of my friends
[ x] i would love to have a photo shoot of myself
[x] price on clothes hardly matters

[ x] i apply lip gloss 50 times a day
[x] i wish i were a model

TOTAL: 10

[x] i wish i could meet Paris Hilton
[x] i have been something that was semi slutty on halloween

[ x] i own Uggs
[x] Hip Hop is the best music
[] i pop my collar
[x ] i like to be the center of attention
[ x] guys with Mohawks are crazy
[x ] horses are beautiful
[x] i'd rather not pay attention in school
[ ] cats are adorable
TOTAL: 9

[ ] i write my own music
[x] i would love to visit Hawaii
[x ] VALentine's day is so cute!
[ ] white is better than black
[ x] i wouldn't be caught dead in all black
[x] my closet is STOCK FULL of clothes
[ x] i hate the grunge look of a beard
[x] i love to read gossip magazines

TOTAL: 6

[x] i love to gossip but only the true good kind

[x] I had Lisa Frank folders, posters as a kid
[x] i love Celine dion
[x] My bubble baths are 2 hr long
[ x] my wedding only needs a groom because it's already planned
[x] my friends and i are in a strict group. we mostly only hang out with each other
[x] i like kids
[ ] diet drinks are the best
[ ] im all about being vegetarian
[ ] i refuse to eat at McDonalds
TOTAL: 7
[x ] i check myxanga everyday.
[x] i LOVE life!
[ x] i have a lot of jewlery!
[x] claires has cheap jewlery
[ ] my screen names have x's in them
[ ] either one of my myspace names has/had <3/?'s in them
[ x] i would never want to be the opposite sex
[ x] it's not what he/she said it's the way he/she said it
[ x] i have more than 3 pillows on my bed
TOTAL: 7

ADD UP ALL OF THE TOTALS AND REPOST WITH I AM 83 PERCENT GIRLY

Is that bad?