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Tuesday, November 22, 2005

Tue, 22 Nov 2005 00:20:08 GMT

Saturday, November 05, 2005

Sat, 05 Nov 2005 23:54:21 GMT

Heyy<3
i haven't wrote in here for a longg time. Well in two days it will be me and Igors 2 month anniversary! omg yay! i love him so god damn much !

So school is pretty hard plus in a week im switching cycles so that means whole new classes, and new people in my classes, and harder work! i hope i do good on this report card! i really do. Im so scared.

I believe im getting an Mp3 player pretty soon
either this one-
or this one-

YAY!

i miss igor, and all of my friends.. i can't wait to see them on monday!
i wish i had an opta on monday@!!11 GRR!

im well i'm out niggas<3

Peace

Friday, September 02, 2005

Fri, 02 Sep 2005 00:41:13 GMT

THE USED CONCERT

WAS THE ABSOLUTE

BEST!!

PICTURES LATER<3

Friday, August 26, 2005

Fri, 26 Aug 2005 20:41:24 GMT

01. When you look at yourself in the mirror, what's the first thing you look at? Face

02. How much cash do you have on you? umm like $500

03. What's a word that rhymes with "TEST"? Mest.. just like the band.. heh

04. Favorite plant? Roses

05. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone? Esme

06. What is your main ring tone on your phone? Brand New

07. What shirt are you wearing? pink and black striped shirt.

08. Do you "label" yourself, could you? No labeling is frigin retarted.

09. Name brand of your shoes currently wearing? not wearing shoes.

10. Bright or Dark Room? kind of dark

11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you? um, i don't know.

12. Ever "spilled the beans"? uhh?

13. What were you doing at midnight last night? On the computer.

14. What did your last text message you received on your cell phone say? it said ok from igor.

15. Do you ever click on "Pop Ups" or Banners? haha no but i always miss on purpose when it says to like hit the dude and get $500, which is total BS.

16. What's a saying that you say a lot? Oh Snap!

17. Who told you they loved you last? Miriam hehh

18. Last furry thing you touched? My pup<3

19. How many hours a week do you work? i don't work, but i needa a job.

2o. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed? about 9 or 10

21. Favorite age you have been so far? thirteen and fourteen.

22. Your worst enemy? hmmm...

23. What is your current desktop picture? a collage of everyone band i love.

24. What was the last thing you said to someone? uhhh, "here mom take my steak" haha

25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to change a major regret? hmm, that's hard but i guess $1,000,000.

26. Initials: ALA

27. Name someone with the same birthday as you: No one.

28. Where was your first kiss? movies

29. For or against same sex marriages? FOR.

30. Are you homophobic? NO WAY.

31. Are you bisexual? nope

32. Do you believe in God? yes.

33. How many US states have you been to? haha like 4.

34. How many of the US states have you lived in? Brooklyn since i was a beb.

35. Have you ever lived outside the US? nope

36. Name something you like physically about yourself? i guess my eyes.

37. Name something non physical you like about yourself? many things.

38. Where do you want to go to college? UCLA.

39. What is your dream car? umm convertable.

40. If you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go? California.

41. Have you ever had someone of the opposite sex over at your house while your parents were gone? nope, my parents are seriously like always home. ugh.

42. How many concerts have you gone to? like 3

43. Do you download music? yep

44. How many illegal things have you done? hmmm, let me think......

45. Where would you want to go on a first date? somewhere fun.

46. Describe your perfect date: group date, then laying on the ground and watch the stars.

47. Has anyone ever sang or played for you personally? well it almost happened to me.

48. Ever been kissed under fireworks? Nope.

49. Have you ever had sex with more than one person at a time? nope.

50. Do you like president Bush? NO.

51. Have you ever bungee jumped? that would be awesome.

52. Have you ever white-water rafted? Does rides count?

53. Have you ever crashed a car? nope.

54. Has anyone more than 10 years older than you hit on you? mmhmmm sick.

55. Have you met a real redneck? mm i don't think so.

56. Are you interested in anyone right now? mhhmmmm.

57. What song are you listening to right now? free fall without a parachute.

58. What is your current favorite song? I don't wanna know.

59. What was the last movie you watched? the 40 year old virgin.

60. Where was the last place you went besides your house? Miriam's yesterday.

61. Have you ever seriously vandalized someone elses property? hmm, i don't think so.. oh my and my friends wrote our name all over this stores wall once.

62. Have you ever hit someone of the opposite sex? yes?

63. Have you ever sang in front of a large number of people? Yeah

64. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? physical? Face and hair.

65. What really turns you on? heh.

66. What do you usually order from starbucks? Dunkin donuts is better.

67. What is your biggest mistake? ALOT.

68. Have you ever hurt yourself on purpose? .

69. Say something totally random about you: you like to tickle leafs?

70. Do you have an i-pod? nope, and im not planning on getting one.

71. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity? yeah// avril lavegne.. and like 3 other people.

72. Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows? lol sometimes.

73. Do you have braces? no.

74. Are you comfortable with your height? kind of yeah.

75. Do you speak any other languages besides uhh im pretty ok with spanish.

76. Whats ur favorite color? Green.

77. Ever been to a tanning bed? No.

78. Do you think these surveys are stupid? uhh kind of.

79. Do you have a hidden talent? Not that i know of.

80. Have you gone farther than kissing? .
81. Have you ever ridden in a limo? yeah, at a funeral.. so it wasn't a fun feeling.

82. Has anyone you were really close with past away? yeah, my grandpas.

83. Do you watch mtv? my cables out, but yes i used to all the time.

84. What's something that really annoys you? many things.

85. What's something you really like? music and boys.

86. Do you like Michael Jackson? he's scary.

87. Can you dance? hahahaha nope.

88. Have you ever surfed? boogie boarded?

89. Do you know how to pump gas? nope.

90. Do you drive? i can't wait to.

91. What's the latest you have ever stayed up? till about 8 in the morning

92. Have you ever thought that you were honestly going to die? hmmm, i think once.

93. Were you ever rushed by an ambulance into the emergency room? Nope.

94. Have you ever been dared to do something you didn't want to do? YES!.

95. Did you do it? Yeah hahahahaaa

96. Do you actually read these when other people fill them out? sometimes.

Sunday, August 21, 2005

Sun, 21 Aug 2005 08:22:42 GMT

Got bored and took a survay

--Goth--
Do you wear black eyeliner?: yeah
Is most of your clothing black?: No

Do you think about death often?: not really no

Do you want to die?: no
Are you a social outcast?: nope
Are you pale?: not really
Do you like Hot Topic?: yes

Do you enjoy Tim Burton's Movies?: Yes!
Are you nice?: well yeah

Are you fond of a fair complexion?: kind of
Total YES: 5

--Skater Punk--
Can you skateboard?: no
Do you wear Vans?: yes
Do you do stupid stuff with your friends?: yeah haha

Have you gotten in trouble with the PIGS: what??

Do you listen to punk bands: kind of

Do you have any piercings?: yes
Do you like/wear mohawks?: well they look ok

Do you wear Band t-shirts: yes

Have you called someone a poser?: yeah

Do you think punk rock is awsome? mmm kind of
Total YES: 8 :O

--Prep--
Do you say the word "like": yep

Do you shop at Abercrombie and Fitch?: nope, but i like there cloths

Are the A&F models hot?: some are
Do you pop the collar?: no?

Do the people in Hot topic scare you?: no?

The only nerd you like is Seth Cohen: no

Do you watch LAGUNA BEACH?: i love that show, but at the moment I don't have cable.
Do you like pop music: some

Do you want/have a little dog?: mm i kind of want one

Do you spend your money on expensive clothes: no

Total YES: 5

--Hippie--
Is your hair long?: yeah it kind of long
Are you a vegetarian/vegan?: no
Do you own a tye~dye shirt?: no
Do you want peace?: yes
Do you want to save the animals?: yes
Do you think the war is unneccesary?: mm kind of
Violence is bad: yeah
Have you smoked pot?: nope
Do you go long periods of time without shaving?: NO

Total YES: 5

--Gangsta--
Are you from the ghetto?: haha no
Do you own "bling bling"?: nope
Do you wear do-rags? nope
Do you like hip-hop?: some
Was Tupac truly the greatest rapper in the world?: no.
Do you believe he's alive?: no.
Do you like afros?: they are funky
Have you ever said 'fo shizzle'?: mmhmmm but not alot
Do you like to dance?: yeag
Do you call someone your homie?: haha sometimes
Total YES: 5

--Emo--
Do you cry often?: yes

Are you emotional?: mm kinda
Do you like soft music: yeah
Do people not understand you?: some don't
Do you write your own songs?: no
Is your hair dyed dark?: no
Do you cut?: no
Are you lonely? sometimes
Is Ohio for lovers?: no?
Do you own haggard shoes: yea

Total YES: 5

--Jock--
Do you play sports?: no.
Are they important to you? no.
Do you pick on the geeky kids?: no.
Do you like football?: no.
Were you considered a bully by anyone?: no.
Was the person you bullied a total dork?: no.
Do you like to eat meat?: yes
Do you only hang aroung other jocks?: no.
Is exercise important to you?: no
Are other people jealous of you?: i don't know
Do you think your hot? um no

Total YES: 1

--Surfer--
Do you surf?: no
Do you wear flip flops year-round?: no?
Is your hair shaggy?: no wavy
Do you wake up at 6 or before every morning?: no
Do you own any pairs of shorts?: yes
Are you tan?: kind of
Do you have alot of patience?: not really
Do you want to be at the beach right now?: yesss
Do you hate tourists?: no?
Do you have good balance?: .. not sure

Total YES: 4

--Geek--
Do you wear glasses: yeah but only to see far away
Do you get good grades?: kind of
Do you use an inhaler?: no
Do you stick pens and calculators into your shirt pockets?:no
Does your mom pick out your clothes?:no
Are you on the computer often?: yes
Do you ever get picked on?: no
Do you look forward to go to school?: noooo
Are you shy around the opposite sex?: yeah.. :(
Do people laugh at you?: haha yeah
Total YES: 5

Thursday, July 28, 2005

Thu, 28 Jul 2005 03:58:34 GMT

mmmm
im taking a break

meanwhile go on myspace

click

<3 <3 <3

Friday, July 15, 2005

Fri, 15 Jul 2005 05:12:07 GMT

BORING.

:::::: knowing nothing is better then knowing at all ::::::

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

Wed, 06 Jul 2005 05:24:08 GMT

So the school year is over for me
Well graduation was.... hmm.. it was sad/ funny/ depressing/ boring.. and thats pretty much it..
wow the last day of school was HORRIBLE because i thought that i would still have a longer period of time to say goodbye to everyone but i really thought wrong.. i just wish i could of said goodbye to everyone.. i hardly got too

well that day we had a half a day and i went to Esme's after school and we just hung out and cried ALOT.. well i did mostly
we just kept thinking that we had school the next day...
yeah and then the nexy day i went back to Esme's house and Sam came and we cried and laughed and took pictures.. it was swell
Then wednesday= nothing
Thursday went to Sam' house and we hung out/ went in the pool/ went out to apple bees.. slept over :)
next day we did pretty much the same thing and had so much fun
I <3 sam
thennnn.. sunday my mom and dad had their friends come over and i just ate and went online the whole day haha
Monday= 4th of july :) i went to my grandmas house and we had a bbq
thenn Tuesday i went to Miriams and we went to the bech and dug holes and collected sea shells and ran like we where on bay watch haha
Sorry about your toe hun :-/ OwWWWWWW!! then we drilled holes in all the shells and i made a necklace and she made a braclet.. hers was so much better then mine haha.. then we went for a little walk and went to dunkin donuts and we got boston creams, yummmm and i got a latte.. haha i told the guy i didn't want ice in it and he put it in there anyways grrr! then my mom took my home.. and im bored like gah!
yeah this same day Esme left to Atlanta for 2 WEEKS!!!
she will be gone practicly for the whole summer.. lucky her!
i miss her already!!

well i hope i can do something tomorrow
if any one wants to hang out CALL ME!!

                         A lL i So N</3

I miss my class so badly!!!

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Thursday, June 23, 2005

Thu, 23 Jun 2005 03:34:10 GMT

Graduation is tomorrow
sighhh..
this year went by SooOoO fast that it's not even funny
I will miss EVERYONE soo much
( well most of them ) haha
Class of 2005.. i love and will miss you all<33

Haha its amazing how emo we can look<3

haha

Yeah im a camera Whore..
Woo hoo?
ok well its off to beddy bye now
I will be prepared to cry ALL my makeup off

A lL i So N</3

Thursday, June 16, 2005

Thu, 16 Jun 2005 06:24:45 GMT

the past week and the past last week have been the absolute BEST for me<3333333

i will sum it all up in bullets
prom was the absolute best ever, i just wish i could have it again
going home and spending the night at esmes and not going to school for two days
bike riding
walking all around park slope with Esme and Wanda
trying to get the bikes out.. but it never worked
eating ice cream and then giving it to the dog
doing hardly any work in school
Breanna's pool party
some one got their friend and we tried to make things work
hiding in the tent
looking out the door and realizing we notice some little kids
harassing them
Esme sleeping over
seeing Anthony for literally a milli second
didn't do much that night
Dorney park was the best day so we had to wake up UBER early
woke up at 6:30.. " Me- Esme it's 6:30, Ez- ohh, ok... ,Me and Ez- ITS 6:30!!!! we nearly busted our heads because we jumped out of bed and went insane trying to get ready quickly
got ready, and Sam tells us that half the people are there
recieved another call from Sam saying many people are NOT here.. and Sabrina ( The one who planned this all) was not even there
nearly wanted to die after we heard that
went into walgreens and got "something"
went into dunkin donuts and got bagels
went into some store and got a mammoth sized water because some one said a little bottle of water was not enough..Esme<3
get there and still no sign of Sabrina and no sign of our bus
Wait and wait and wait
finally the bus comes.. and it was so awesome
the whole time me and sam just talked and watched I. Robot... dont ask we got bored
listened to music and then esme took it and had to listen to Heaven Sent ( thats what she calls it) over and over again
it took like about 3 hours to get there
3 hours later we get to dorney park
we go outside of the bus and start freaking and saying what we will do.. and we went in groups.. Me, Esme, Sam, Liz, Rebecca, and Ksee.. and some chaperones
waited for about 15 minutes for sam to change into her bathing suit... SO we didn't want to waste time so we left.. HAHAHAA i know it was mean but she was with her mom and everyone
went to the water park and went on almost every ride
died because there was SOOO many cute boys there.. like omg.. sooooo many
ate some nasty food.. but it was OK
had to change into dry clothes, so we waited again for Sam and Liz and Rebecca and everyone.. so it was just Me, Ksee, Esme, and Ksee's sister
it was about to rain.. so we all got so pissed off because we wanted to go on more rides.. so i couldn't wait anymore and i went to the bathroom and yelled at them and they said for us to just go if you can't wait
we where JUST ABOUT to go on the mouse rollercoaster when it rained
we all where about to literally throw a temper tantrum
so the rain cleared up and we waited on the line in the hot and humid air and we were 1st!
almost thought we would die on that ride
we were going to go on these swing ma-bob rides but it was so dangerous.. you only had a little leg thingy holding you and you had to sign a contract saying if you get hurt on this ride it's not the parks responsibility..L-A-M-E
it rained AGAIN.. so we waited for atleast 1 1/2 hours because they closed down ALL the rides
nearly died when we all saw this really hot kid.. all we could do was stare
got mixed up times as to when we had to be back at the bus
got excited because it stopped and we had to face our fear of extreme rollercoasters
soo we waited on the line for it.. and it was those kind of rollercoasters with the loops and twirls and all that kind of stuff
we went on with Esme, and Ksee's sister and we nearly wanted to die when we went up the stairs
so Esme was like.. OMG i can't do this and i just kept saying omg stop it... i really wanted to do this
we got strapped in and almost had a hemmorrhage as we went up and read the signs that said "going up" "almost there" "no turning back" "GOODBYE".. OMG the drop and the loop was the best!! haha all we did was scream..
it was the ABSOLUTE best.. haha went it ended we where both so shocked and like amazed that we just did that..
LETS DO IT AGAIN!!!!!!!!
convinced Ksee to do it.. and she did!
we tried to make her not panic but we felt kind of sick and had headaches.. but all we did was omg i feel great it was soo much fun when inside we where dying
we went on it again and IT WAS HISTERICAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i glanced at Ksee and at the drop she cried and through the whole thing.. but later on the ride we were laughing screaming
i felt so much better doing it a 2nd time and the Ksee wanted to do it again but we didn't
haha the picture it took of us was soo funny.. i was screaming and my hair was like all bizzare.. Esme was looking at ksee and screaming and laughing.. and Ksee was scared but she was still laughing..
went on the swinging ship andand they wanted to do it again
i felt so sick after the second time.. my head was killing me and i felt sick in my stomach
saw a bee the size of my fist
discovered a WHOLE new side of dorney park we did not go to
got upset and realized it was 7:15
didn't finish the water we brought, so i threw it out
we where the last ones out and kids started to go and look for us
on the bus ride home i was so sick and felt like dying
i disliked it... alot so i just watched shrek 2
got home and took a shower and did stuff.. don't remember
Sunday did nothin really but clean up around the house
Monday did nothing really at all but i took my doggie for a walk
Father + Son moment
Tuesday did nothing really at all but go to the mall
got shorts, 2 skirts, and 3 pairs of earings
Today... well Yesterday we had a half day and our little senior breakfast thingy
we all went around and signed eachothers year books.. it was upsetting because there is only about 2 days of school left for me
i will miss everyone so much.. i hate it.. i don't want to leave everyone</3
went to Ksee's after school with Esme
had to walk around the bay to get to Kingsbourgh.. to get Ksee's sister and get driven
took uber amounts of picutures.. and we acted like idiots
got to ksee's house and ate.. and we went outside
Seriously.. Ksee lives by a cute place.. shes like right by a park and a board walk.. if i were her i would go there everyday to just walk on the beach in the nice hot sand and looking at the rapid crashes of the ocean hitting the rocks.. but we said that it could get lonely
that would be so cute holding hands with the one you love walking on a beach..aww!
went to her cute little park and swung on the swings
our contests!
that video!!! omg i <3 it
wanting to ride the sexy elephant but couldn't! so i rode the sexy turtle
started to scream "You Raise Me Up" .. then Ksee joined in and everyone looked at us.. i <3ed it.. Esme was so embarresed of us.. so i started to do little dance singy moves to kill her more
Esme saw these 2 hot guys.. soo i started to sing and they looked at me like i was insane.. <33333
walked on the board walk.. boy was it cold
went to the skate park and i died when i saw these 2 really cute guys
went back and tried to get candy and saw a HUGE cockaroach on the floor
then they had to tell me to look up and inside the lamps where cockaroaches.. i wanted to die
bought cookies and a baby ruth.. YuUmmM!
my dad did not come for a while so we went back to her park and went on the swings again
then we left and found out my camera was alittle broken...GREATT!!
aubrey had to get popeyes so we stopped there
dropped Esme off in front of the school and her grandma took her home
not going to school tomorrow
And friday i dont know what im doing
thursday is graduation.. its basically our last day because no one goes back after that
i river i shall cry that day
a black river it will be from my makeup haha
6th- 2003, 7th - 2004, 8th - 2005
i will miss everyone next year</3333
Bay Academy was surely the best ever.. it's heartbreaking knowing im almost 4 years away from being 18!!! :-O
sighhhhhh.. SUMMER VACATION IS SOO CLOSE!!!!

ps. ill will post pictures later<3
god its so late!

haha

A l Li S oN</3