"I Love You" she said wrapping her arms around his body. The only thing that prevented this from being a perfect moment is he didn't say he loved her back. Though at the moment she barely noticed, She was so wrapped up in the moment that for some reason it didn't really seem to matter to her if he said it back, because she had finally after all this time gotten it off of her chest, finally she told him the truth. In case you were wandering her name is Aubrey and for the past two years she's been completely and totally in love with Jason, her best guy friend. As she let go she looked up at him, looking him square in his ocean blue eyes, "I have a girlfriend Aubrey, you know that" he said in an airy breath. "I know, I'm sorry" she said starting to look down, tears beggining to develop in the corner of her eyes slowly she turned and began to walk off. She didn't want to be seen crying, not now not ever she had worked so long trying to look strong she wasn't going to let anybody make her look differently. After a few small steps away from him she began to start running, I'm not going to be seen like this she told herself. Once she began to feel safe she finally stopped running, slowing down eventually to a point where she was practically shuffling across the sidewalk. I don't know why this keeps happening to me, every one I fall for tears me apart, why? what have I done wrong? she begins to cry again grateful that she hadn't put any make up on this morning. She finally gets to her house and as she steps through the front door she hears the phone ringing, not wanting to get her hopes up she doesn't let her mind wander to who it may be and just goes ahead and answers it. "Hello" she says timidly into the receiver of the phone, "Hey, Aubrey?" a voice says on the other line, "I'm sorry about earlier, I just don't want to lose my girlfriend" he says calmly "Jason, to be completely honest with you. I don't want to have this discussion right now" she says putting the phone back in its place and walking up the stairs to her bedroom. She jumps head first into her bed putting her hands under her pillows and finally just letting it all out, crying non stop until finally she dozes off. "Hunny, It's time to wake up" Aubreys mother says knocking on her door. Aubrey looks at the alarm clock 6:30 it read. She was running a bit behind her typical schedule but she didn't have the strength to pull herself out of bed at full speed. Finally she slips her feet off the end of her bed the cold wood startling her for a second. She glanced at the mirror on her dresser and rememberd that she hadn't changed out of her jeans and tee shirt that she had worn to school the day before. She shuffled over to her closet grabbed a pair of jeans off the hanger and looked through her tee shirts most of her clothing was in the clothing hamper so she was left with a very small selection, so she grabbed an older soccer tee she had hanging on a hanger. She went over to her dresser and grabbed a new set of under garments and went to her door opened it and walked to the bathroom right across the hall. She grabbed a towel and started the shower not to hot but not to cold slipped off her clothing took her shower dried herself off got dressed and went back to her room to blow dry her hair and get ready for school. She brushed through her thick blond hair trying to figure out how she should wear it today, finally she decided on a pony tail grabbed a hair band and put it in her hair. Put on a pair of sandals grabbed her stuff for the school day and started walking to school. Jason was already at school, his bus dropped him off pretty early usually, he sat at the front of the school waiting for her, in hopes that he could talk to her in person, that way he knew for a fact she couldn't hang up on him that atleast than he'd have her full attention, he really meant it when he apolagized but he didn't want to screw things up with his current girlfriend. Amber was so gorgeous hair midway down her back in a dark brown color that in the right amount of sunlight shined and gave her golden highlights, eyes greener than grass during the summer skin so soft that it was like rubbing against silk. The only thing she lacked was an outstanding personality, no joke she really could make him laugh but that was typically because she was acting so stupid it was just hard not to laugh at her about it. But they were so close he didn't want to screw it up, 8 months with her he couldn't screw it up everyone would hate him and he didn't want to do something he'd later regret. Yet at the same time he really did like, maybe even love Aubrey he was so confused his feelings all jumbled up in his head that he started getting nauesous sick to his stomach. Aubrey still hadn't shown up for school yet, he was beggining to get worried but the worry quickly faded when Amber snook up behind him and gave him a hug. He turned around smiled at her and gave her a peck on the cheek, "Hey babes! How are you?" Amber said in her typical sing song voice. "I'm doing fine, how about you?" Jason replied grabbing her hand. "I'm doing great, what are you doing out here? You never sit out here in the morning I couldn't find you at your locker so I started to look around for you" she stated "I was just getting some fresh air, thinking is all" he replied "Thinking about what?" She questioned, "oh, nothing just things" he trailed off she glanced up at him knowing fully well that she shouldn't push it any further that it wasn't going to get anywhere that he'd just tell her later if it was that important. They went into the building and he walked her to her class. Aubrey finally entered the school building about 5 minutes before the bell was supposed to ring for class to start, so she went straight to her locker dropped her stuff in it and walked to her class, not saying a word to anybody the entire time. She sat in her first hour class, Algebra the one class she was completely terrible in no matter how much she payed attention in it or how hard she tried she always failed, it just didn't matter, it was a given she was going to fail. Already in a bad mood she plopped herself into a seat took out her journal and began taking notes on what the teacher had on the board. She began to start dozing off when somebody touched her back. She turned around to see who it was and than quickly turned around when she realized it was just Antonio a kid that had done a great job of driving her insane since the 6th grade rolling her eyes she ignored him for the rest of the class. Finally the bell rang and she stood up and left her class. She got to her locker and to her surprise there he was, leaning against her locker she questioned his motives and began to walk slower, what does he want? she thought Did he not hurt me enough last night? Does he have to do it daily now? she thought about turning around and making an excuse for not having her book. But decided against it and approached him he shifted his body as she grabbed for the dial on her locker put it in and opened it. No words came from either of them, "Aubrey, I" he began "You're sorry right? you didn't mean to completely tear my heart out and stomp on it than walk off, Jason, she doesn't look at you like she loves you. Fuck she barely looks at you at all" she said to Jason as he stood speechless for a moment than finally gathered up the courage to speak again "Aubrey, I didn't come here to apolagize, I've done that already, I came to tell you that if I wasn't with Amber that I'd be with you" he finished "Jason, my goodness! you're with her, that's the point. Don't make any type of foolish attempt to mess with me, I don't need it I don't need anything, and I don't even need you" she lied regretting she said it as soon as the words slipped out of her mouth "If you don't need me than you don't love me" he replied and began to walk off.

me and andrew broke up. and I don't have the heart to change my page around and crap. so i mean whatever, i still like him alot which is hella sad but i don't know things could get better.

one of those things, when you dont have internet, and you have to use your moms wireless laptop it gets really hard to do much of anything internet wise. last week i started my first day of highschool, oh my gosh i love that place, even as a freshman it's totally rad. and I hate being a freshman because i mean upperclassman are so mean sometimes but oh whatever they can jump off a cliff if they don't like me. uhm lets see i totally am crushing on a kid, he's great i can't wait til the next day i have classes with him. oh my gosh

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