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Wednesday, October 03, 2007

Wed, 03 Oct 2007 21:21:36 GMT

soooo tired.....4hrs sleep and i have to get up and go out with sis for the day, then tonight go to work...i am going to be so dead tired arghhh

how people survive on such little sleep is a mystery to me i need at least 8hrs to at least function! lol

Monday, October 01, 2007

Mon, 01 Oct 2007 12:06:40 GMT

what am i doing???

i've only smoked three cigarettes in my life, and here i am, just placed an order online to purchase a 5packet carton of the things.........am i going insane?

for some unknown reason i feel maybe these will occupy me through my lonely depressing nights??? meanwhile i'll have to keep this hidden from my family, let's hope they don't see the package when delivered.

Saturday, September 29, 2007

Sat, 29 Sep 2007 12:53:59 GMT

She feels alone. She feels sad. She feels lost. She feels neglected. She feels like she is dead in a living body. She feels insignificant. She feels no purpose. She feels ugly. She feels used. She feels lost in everyway. She feels ashamed. She feels lifeless.

She is me

Monday, August 27, 2007

Mon, 27 Aug 2007 06:32:02 GMT

went to shops got two bags of lettuce, tuna in water, eggs, tomatos

so i hope to onli consume these things for 4months till xmas

Saturday, August 18, 2007

Sat, 18 Aug 2007 04:09:48 GMT

depression, self hatred, how do you overcome these? it seems almost impossible when you feel so much self hate?

xoxo

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Tue, 24 Jul 2007 01:30:06 GMT

Back from my holidays. FAT FAT FAT

DEPRESSED!. Weight gained alot of it.

Feeling low.

Monday, July 02, 2007

Mon, 02 Jul 2007 05:47:23 GMT

God Bless xo

Thursday, June 07, 2007

Thu, 07 Jun 2007 15:10:15 GMT

Sunday, June 03, 2007

Sun, 03 Jun 2007 09:07:48 GMT

Friday, June 01, 2007

Fri, 01 Jun 2007 16:20:19 GMT