posted the below in Nov. 2004...Been thinking about it...so I loooked it up...to see if my thoughts have changed any...

"What is the root of unhappiness?

Is it insecurity?

by knowing the cause. . . can you find a cure?

Is it better to know the cause..but be searching for the cure your whole life and never find it. . .

Or is it better to never think about the cause, and accept it for what it is?

Is accepting it for what it is. . . the same thing as giving up?

Why is there a negative connotation with "giving up?"

Is "giving up" the same thing as "settling?"

Is settling the same thing as contentment?

Is contentment the same thing as happiness?"

I like this article alot.

http://www.nytimes.com/2007/12/04/health/04mind.html

I went home yesterday ...

and my Mom asks the usual questions..."how's work?"  "how's life?" 

I respond...work is blah blah blah...pretty good...life is boring...all i do is work and do the same ol things outside of work.  

My Mom goes... "life is boring?  so what is NOT boring?"

To which I respond...I dunno...seeing and experiencing new things...all the time...

My Mom goes... "that is not life...that is an adventure..."

For whatever reason...this conversation stuck to my head...

anyways...fighting boredom. 

c-ya later.

Feeling sentimental...my hs doubles partner wrote on my facebook that we were the greatest doubles team ever in the history of our hs ...hahah...its prolly not true...but we were up there.

made me think thou...what if i played singles?  no one would remember the awesome matches...except myself...

its like having a "life partner"....no one will remember certain shit....if u play singles ur whole life.

ok..saap is over...later...

Hi guys! 

I have a story for you.  Here it is

- went to Kanye's concert on Friday

- waited in line to get a good table seat

- got the table seat

- hot chick came to ask to sit with us in middle of concert (boyfriend soon followed)...hahaha

- hot chick is totally hot and "classy" (at least i thought so...tall / skinny / blonde / and ordered the guy around pretty well)

- 4 hours later...Kanye finally comes out

- next thing I know...hot chick is totally smashed . . .(we had random free drinks on our table for some reason) some meat head is trying to dance with her...she's all over the place

- boyfriend trying to contain her

- security guard comes and stands in front of hot chick to calm her down

- boyfriend starts giving me hot chick's drinks (I accept and pound eagerly)

- boyfriend half carry/half drag hot chick out of concert early.

Moral of story?  None whatsoever...