this is the moment-that you know-that you told her that you love her but you dont....
you touch her skin...and then you think 'yeah, she is beautiful, but she don't mean a thing to me'.

[[edit]]:
embrace my imperfections...
love me reguardless...reguardless of anything.
i'm still me..i always have been.

it's time to move on, and you know it..
dont make this any harder than it has to be.

im tired of crying,

tired of sleeping alone

if this is how you want it i am moving on.

ive been really thinking about the things that are important to me. i need to get my priorities straight before my life turns to shit and i lose everything and everyone i love.
that sounded more pleasant in my head...

in any case, its a good thing.

so my dad turned my phone back on...and i get all excited and shit and then the next day, i call him to thank him, and he tells me i'm not aloud to use it...
thanks dad.

the show tonight kicked all kinds of ass. saw all my girls [and boys].
delightful.

[[i dont want you to go. i'll miss you way too much.]]

i love my friends. all of them. you guys are a bunch of crazy ass holes, and i love you, each and every one of you.

nina, the late night talks are glorious. as are you. i love you.

meg, you know i'll be here for you no matter what, dont EVER think differently. we will always always be 'jen and meg...they're inseparable.' i wouldnt have it any other way. you help me keep my head on straight and thats what everyone needs...everyone needs a friend like you. haha but they cant have you, cause you're MINE!

mal, you're my little bundle of joy.

and as for you....well...you know.

that makes # 2 within a 5 month period.

this one was MUCH scarier though...and made me think a lot more.

well i spent 5 hours in the hospital and i had to wear one of those stupid neck braces the whole time, but im okay cause i got my trusty pain pills and muscle relaxers. i'll be juuuuust fine.

im sorry about your car though meg...i love you so much. and everything will be okay.