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Saturday, July 19, 2008

Sat, 19 Jul 2008 13:30:08 GMT

This may never start, tearing out my heart, & I'll be your memory.
Lost yourself to fear, feelings disappear.
Can I be your memory?

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most? Saying something & wishing you hadn't, or saying nothing & wishing you had? I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say. Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them. Have you ever decided not to become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person? Your heart decides whom it likes & whom it doesn't. You can't tell your heart what to do, it does it on its own. Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you? Have you ever denied your feelings for someone cuz you feared rejection? We tell lies when we're afraid. Afraid of what we don't know. Afraid of what others will think. But everytime we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger. Life is all about risks & it requires you to jump. Don't be a person who has to look back & wonder what they would have done, or could have had.
What would you do if everytime you fell in love you had to say goodbye?
What would you do if everytime you wanted someone, they would never be there?
What would you do if your bestfriend died tomorrow, & you never got to tell them how you felt?
What would you do if you loved someone more than ever & you couldn't have them?
(Its true, I Love You.)

By the way,
Sarah heah is my number one priority!!!

Saturday, July 19, 2008

Sat, 19 Jul 2008 05:54:20 GMT

It was raining just now & a stranger walked up to me at the traffic light & sheltered me with his umbrella all the way to the bus stop. I thought he was really sweet

Friday, July 18, 2008

Fri, 18 Jul 2008 09:10:07 GMT

Tim got injured during his match against Sji yesterday, but Inde still won 62-0.
He told me there were no broken bones, but a slight dislocation & torn foot muscles so he can't walk I don't think he'll be playing so soon but he has a match against the saints next week. Grah, love you baby.
Racial Harmony!

!!!!

Mattress sliding in my house is a popular pastime
(No srsly if you love mattress sliding @ my house then comment on this post)

The 7 things I hate about you;
You're vain, your games, you're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy
Your friends they're jerks
And when you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

Compared to all the great things
That would take too long to write
I probably should mention
The 7 that I like

The 7 things I like about you;
You hair, your eyes, your old levi's
And when we kiss, I'm hypnotized
You make me laugh, you make me cry
But I guess that's both I'll have to buy
Your hand in mine
When we're intertwined everything's alright
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I like the most that you do
You make me love you

Don't regret anything that used to make you smile,

Tue, 15 Jul 2008 06:57:42 GMT

An update on my life:
1. I've self-confiscated my phone & given it to my mom to stay away from distractions.
2. I've self-grounded myself for two months till after Eoy's.
   (Which means no social activities at all. & Yes, that also means no going for bob3)
3. I make it a point to pay attention during science lesson now.
   (something I've NEVER EVER done)
4. It started with "No more buying sweet drinks from the drink stall",
   But now its "No eating anything during recess except fruits".
5. Since me & sw can't run on sundays now I have to think of something else.
6. No phone calls after 9pm.
   (Eh yeah you heard that right, quit calling me bitches)
7. I'm really determined to complete all my work/ essays I have been neglecting.
8. I don't watch Tv now.
9. (Jus is ditching me for prefects invest tmr grrr)

As you can see, I really, really, badly want to lose weight.
& I badly want to do well for my Eoy's too.
So fuck distractions lah.

Sunday, July 13, 2008

Sun, 13 Jul 2008 00:48:43 GMT

Couldn't sleep the whole night, hoping he'll be alright. Hoping she was alright.
The tears just couldn't stop flowing, my heart was breaking.
You don't know how important the both of you are to me.
Right now all I want to see is the both of you.
It pains me to see her like this.
She told me that I shouldn't have gone for her party.
But you know what? If I could turn back time, I would still go.
Wouldn't miss your birthday for anything else baby.
He shouldn't have gone. & Where is he, I miss him.
He told me not to worry, but how can I not?
Why hasn't he texted me yet. She hasn't either.
My phone has been right with me the whole night, told him I wouldn't miss his call for the world.
I don't want anything to happen to him, I don't want him to get hurt.
God, please don't let anything happen to him. After the ceremony, after the ceremony

Everyone, Yeah everyone <3

I'm flyyyyyy :D

I loveee justin & his blazer. Jus jus jussss

To Caz/ Sherri/ Rach/ Anna:
Thanks for the coffeebean tissue notes & the tubs of Ben&Jerry's icecream for me & sw <3

Sc Dance '08

Yesterday made me realise what awesome friends I have. Really, AMAZING.
Everyone who was here with me & songwei; Rach/ Caz/ Ariel/ Sherri/ Anna/ Jona/ Justin,
& those who called and tried to care, I'm sorry I couldn't talk much ;
Cullen/ Jelly/ Ethel/ Junhan/ Srah.
I WOULDN'T REPLACE YOU GUYS FOR THE WORLD.
I don't ever ever want to lose you guys.
& You know what? I have the bestest Mom ever.
Mommy, thanks for helping songwei. You & Jona's mom were amazing. <3
Happy birthday Rach, our 10 year friendship still going strong. You're the best, I've said it all in all the texts I've sent to you. I love you more than anything really.
Happy birthday Jona, our big dreams & futures. Friends since forever eh, you're the friend I know I'll never lose. All the silly promises, hahaha I love you for the rest of my life.

Thursday, July 10, 2008

Thu, 10 Jul 2008 11:35:00 GMT

I NEED TO GO ON A DIET, NOW!
Oh yes didn't go to school today cuz I'm coughing non stop & mommy decided to be a bitch & not let me go out the whole day- which means no getting presents with Justin + getting racial harmony costumes with c.l.i.c.h.e + ijtp drama concert with Ariel/ Jona/ Calvin!!! Wtf! (this post really doesn't show how angry I am). As usual Keane/ Jelly didn't go to school either woohoo stayhome palz ftw! Well at least I ain't that bored. Anywayz, my youth day was pretty productive. Math tuition then met Ethel for shopping at taka + 3 whole hours of studying & lunch @ Delifrance and she left. Then Songwei/ Justin ee came over to my place till 7. (Saw so many disgusting people in town btw, & Angie!) My tuesday was spent lunching @ Yoshuku & Island after school with Ethel/ Abby/ Angie! Gosh miss you guys already, rah. Then yesterday went to do something important/ secretive (haha not telling), then I decided that I missed baby (actually I'm kidding tim forced me to) so I took a train down to yio chu kang & went to his house to look for him.
"Timmm where are you come out!"
"Okay okay I'll be out soon k wait!"
-After 5 mins I call again-
"Omg baby its drizzling I'm getting wet!!!"
"I know babe, so how?"
"SO. WHERE ARE YOU!!!"
"Hahaha look behind you babe, I'm behind you!"
Ooooh the love

(Heehee spot abby!)
I ♥ Abby & Angie!

She's going out to forget they were together,

Sun, 06 Jul 2008 02:43:26 GMT

Guest performed @ the hwa chong institution choir concert on Thursday night,
Skipped school on Friday. Saturday was the bomb! Hah
1. Novel from 10-1pm with ethel the great <3
2. Met disgusting polo people/ Cabbed to catholic high carnival with bestf.
3. Lunched with chiu yang/ 3 of us cabbed to united for tuition/ Cullen baby came.
4. Met rach after tuition/ She came over/ We cabbed to Taka @6pm.
(Something amusing happened in between shhh woah scandalous)
5. Bought my belt from Mango/ Macs for dinner/ Met celine!
6. Headed down to Vch for the dance concert @7pm.
(Omg I'm so proud of Sc dance k you guys were AMAZING )
7. I met. Ian hotness peh! Woah he makes me melt k
8. Hugged caz & tallie!!! Omgwtf love them please -Hyperventilates-
9. Took a train home with rach/ Reached home @11pm.

Chiu yang did the sweetest thing ever ytd k,
He went to get tickets for me for his concert & gave me thig huge surprise awww
Dance concert pictures are with cel so I'll put them up when she gets her camera back.
Hah I woke up at 11 today cuz Ian's text woke me up. Sunday= Studying day.
But anyway I want you guys to click on the link & watch the video,
http://www.godtube.com/view_video.php?viewkey=13a4a045cd290bc2ae2d
If you were that man, Would you pull the lever?
You've only got 2 choices- Your son, or the people.
Frankly, If I was in that position, I would kill the people & save my son.
Would you also do that?
Many of you may say No, I'm willing to sacrifice my son for the people.
But deep down, is it true?
Knowing that pulling the lever would kill your son,
Would you still pull it just to save strangers you don't even know?
Well I know one person who did that. God.
He sacrificed his one & only son for the sake of mankind.
For the sake of you & me.
Who in the world would be willing to do that?
The love of God, the amount of love he gives us, is PRICELESS.
Think about it.

Wednesday, July 02, 2008

Wed, 02 Jul 2008 08:15:20 GMT

Hey sunshine,
Nothing will ever replace you, cuz you're so special & I don't want anyone else but you. All the best for your match, you'll own them & I know it. My #1, my superstar! Shhhh, our secret

1. Sorry I have been dao online/ on phone calls, I don't have the mood to talk to anyone.
2. I don't know who to trust & who not to trust anymore. I'm afraid.
3. I think I exceeded my calls/ texts so I'm sorry if I didn't reply anyone.
4. If you love me you'd stop texting me so I won't be tempted to reply you.
5. Went back to school today, 2 whole days of awesome good rest.
6. So much for being enthu about school; New seating arrangement. I'm right infront of the teacher's table, wtf.
7. Caught up with Tim today, made my day superdiiiiduper!!!
8. Lunch with Jona/ Keane/ Darius @ burger king.

Girlfriends for a lifetime;

Tue, 01 Jul 2008 01:06:42 GMT

Okay omg I can't take this any longer.
This post is not meant for one person but quite a number of people.
Why do people think I'm unfriendly? I can assure you I'm not, I can be really awesome if you know me. Okay get this straight. I'm not one who goes around adding people on msn/ friendster, simply because I don't really believe in making random friends. I mean if I go out with my good friends and you happen to be friend of theirs, I wouldn't mind knowing you. If you add me on msn/ friendster, I wouldn't mind accepting either (But if you're a guy, forget it. Cuz I don't really like guys. I'm happy with my current guy friends) But I have to admit I really can't stand people who read my blog/ view my friendster all day to follow my life, then question my friends about me/ my friends, or talk about me in your school, even if its good or bad gossip. (Don't get me wrong, I don't mind people reading my blog. After all, that's the purpose of having one right) I mean don't expect me to try to know you when you're not even making an effort to know me? If you want to know what happens to me everyday, I'd really appreciate it if you'd stop going around telling your friends like "Omg silyn had a party that day... etc" and just like add me as a friend or something. And if you hate me, so be it. I mean everyone has to hate someone, right? I hate two-faced people. If you hate me stop acting like we're good friends and all. Honestly I'll know if you're acting in front of me or not. And most times, I chose to ignore it. My friends do not belong to me and if you want to know them, go ahead. You don't have to cling on to me just to get to know them, gosh. You don't like me being with Tim? Okay, you've made your point. You think I'm a slut/ I'm just so damn fucking ugly you just can't stand me? Okay, I get it. So you've told Tim that millions of times, but he's still with me. So why won't you stop? Isn't it obvious he doesn't care? Okay yeah honestly I don't know why Tim likes me anyway okay, but I know that I love him a hell lot too. But he's already made it clear to you guys and our relationship is none of your business so please just back off. You like Tim? Okay you can have him, sheesh. I don't believe in losing friends to relationships. If Tim likes you too, I wish you guys the best together.

I just don't get you guys.
My life is already screwed up enough as it is,
do you guys have to make it any worse?

Sunday, June 29, 2008

Sun, 29 Jun 2008 09:11:12 GMT

Grrrr I'm so annoyed I'm not allowed to go for Deathcab with Tassia
(which I have been waiting forever for!!!)

I've been really busy & tired with choir everyday this week from 2-6. Except friday went for dental then walked to wisma to meet Terry, Keane, Jasni & a few other disgusting people like Darius & Winfred. Tim couldn't meet me cuz he had a match against Unity sec, yeah wtf lousy lah baby totally owned. Then yesterday was awesome cuz Cullen, Ariel, Angie, Ethel, Keane, Ryan chang, Terry, Clarence, Songwei, Jona, Chiu yang, Ryan wee, & Gerry came to support me. & So did others like Amelia, Mattias, Kenneth, Michelle, Vanesaa, Antje, Caz, Sherri, Xm, Tallie, Sandra, Nat & Lex. Tim couldn't make it again cuz he had to have dinner with prime minister Lee. Disappointed but yeah we've both been really busy with our priorities, me with choir & him with rugby so I don't blame him. But anyway thanks for all the flowers/ balloons/ gifts everyone! You guys are so amazing. Then supper around 10pm at serene with Rach, Cel, Ariel, Cullen, Jona, Mich, Ants, Sherri, Sandra, Lex & Nat. Then Rach, Jona, Ariel & Cullen came over. They left around 1am & baby stayed over. We woke up around 11pm today & ordered macs, then she left at 12pm & Ethel came to do work/ study. Went to yoshuku around 5pm for food/ study. Then she left from there & I still felt productive so I walked home to do more essays & work. So that was my day for you, I'm really proud cuz i really did work/ studied for once. Btw for those who care I'm really weak & sick so I doubt I'll be in school for the next two days. Enjoy the pictures xxx

I'd chose her over anyone else;

(:

:D

Triballlllll

Baby sleeps like that. (: