where am i?

my 5th year abroad is counting down and what's left behind now is a 2 months gap in between my naive and juvenile medical school and a real- world, harsh final year and work. My ambition to come back, or my hope, has been diminished to a secondary priority. Maybe i shall admit that i have not that ability (ro return home).

And maybe i shall be saying to myself that my whole life is a holiday-school-trips-abroad and coming back to hong kong for a month or 2 is just to rejunenate myself so i won't get to dry and lost in directions. I dont' blame anyone for this misfortune. But i do found regrets as I have lost a lot of things that my parents have given me. tangible items can be found again, but never opportunities be regenerated. my failure to get into a better sch has resulted a waste of 4 years of my bloody precious youth. I don't recall anything that i have done in particular importance, apart from that marathon which gave me a fucking rash.

Shall i continue to day dream or head the hard way and go away from home forever? there's nothing that i can look forward too in my tunnel.

難度我一直都在完地自轉,
沒有想過辦發再進一步嗎?

自己不中用, 無力再上,
但我已付出了很多很多搏chun100%
為何結果只是別人我三分之一?
是我春, 定係我一直都走了一條錯的路?

我不容有夭, 青春已過了70-80%
醫學院的快樂時光迅速流逝
機會不再!
我希望從li一刻曙機再度出現
可令我從往日行屍走肉的日子猛然驚惺過來

我真的很害怕再有差池, 因我感到我是快樂幸福的而我不想再度夭去.
希望所有事也不會太早chi