Currently Reading Gossip Girl #7: Nobody Does It Better: A Gossip Girl Novel (Gossip Girl) By Cecily von Ziegesar see related

Ok Well nothing special has been going on. I am well into my lovely summer. I am so happy to be home. Morehead is a lil out of my comfort zone. I am not sure how I am gonna handle next year, but I guess I will figure that out later. I got a new ball and I am in love with it. hopefully it will do what I need. I get to go to Buffalo, New York and bowl in Jr. Gold. I am kind of excited about that. My boyfriend and I have been together for an entire year. I am burning the hell up in this house because my grandma and the air conditioner aren't friends. I have the worst headache. Basically I see my boyfriend my best friends and go watch my sister play soccer. She is pretty good. I like her new team. Anyway life is life. A few days I went to a Dragon's game. 1st real time and 1st real baseball game. Um today is father's day. I wish I had a real father to wish a Happy Father's day. Instead I have a lying father who makes me feel like shit and doesn't give a damn. He is even fuckin up my sister. That is really fucked up. She is to lil for this bull shit, but she handles it better than me. I am trying to just forget it but it's hard to just act like it's no big deal since it's the only dad i have none and he should never have came into my fuckin life. How can u just decide to be a father when ever you want. Ignore me then except me only when he feels like it. Forgot my birthday and Christmas 3 times straight. Makes up some fucked up lie, as usual. I guess I need to just get over it and learn to deal with it. People have worse problems and I got a mom and a lil sister and my friends. I only have one dad that I know and my grandma always tell me you don't get to choose ur parents and you gotta love and find a way to deal with the ones u have because sometimes that's all u got. Gotta do the best you can because you don't get anymore. So here I am and I know what to do. Now all I have to do is figure out how to do it. Well now that I have all that out of me I feel a lil better even though my dad's a jack ass. i gotta an awesome boyfriend, the greatest best friend and a family who loves and supports me minus a few people.  Well until the next lovely bitch fest or writing sessions. Peace Out

~Dee~