| >>swirling thoughts
it's 3:40am on a Saturday morning, just 3 hours away from me jumping onto the apexbus enroute to new york. I'm going to be staying at my dad's place for a few days, see if I can catch up with him. the last time I saw him was last summer, and at that point I had not seen him for over 14 years. I kind of feel bad that I did not visit him once during my school year, but hey it's been 9 months since the last visit so atleast the period between visits are getting shorter :) from 14 years to just 9 months...perhaps I should've gotten him something? spend a good amount of money on an awesome gift. a nice triple-blade razor would be a nice gift, he's a hairy guy like me. nono, the quadruple blade with electric shaking action, he's very hairy. MAN i should have gotten him something. I wonder what he would like from me. what DOES he want from me?? after all these years of not knowing where he was, I wonder why he decided to contact me before I left for moody. there were a lot of questions on my mind: Was there a reason you wanted me to know you still existed? What do you really want from me?
hmmm for father's day, I think I know what to spend on. I think I'll spend time with him, time that we should've had over those lost 14 years of our lives. I wonder if he likes the same food I do, laughs at the same dumb jokes, had girl trouble like I've had, does he like VIDEO GAMES? why'd you go and where'd you go, what happened and how can a son like me make you proud? how can i bunch up the past 21 years of my life into something I can talk about over lunch? i can't even speak chinese properly! hope you don't mind english. he probably thinks i'm mad at him or holding something against him. i don't have time for that, i just want to catch up and be happy with you! omg i think i'm going to have to visit several times so we can really catch up. i hope he doesn't get sick of me. hope he likes me.
off to ny<<
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