well wut can i say ?? ever since my last post my life kinda turned upside down into a living hell and all ive wanted is to die ... and if rumor is correct i will be gettin ride of this site or at least not updatin it much more and yall can check out pyro_babe ... but its not offical yet so yea ... well lets c tues. andrew told me that we were on a break *long ass story* but main gyst is he said that we would probably b bak together lyk well yest *friday* so yea .... n then wed i went to diving and that wuz the best thing for me and i wish i could go every day cuz it relieves all my stress for lyk 2 or 3 hrs and then i just feel better and yea i get my mind off things and think more clearly at the same tym ... but yea ... so i did good for the first tym bak since lyk julyish ... ummm then thurs nothing big ... other than drama n shyt w/ the andrew situation which if u dont kno too bad im not explain nemore cuz it hurts too much and its all so confusing and idk nemore so i just quit ... ummm then yest. went to skewl really upset goin to first but refused to cry cuz i wunted to be better than that n then got kinda hyper/bitchy/pissed all at once for lyk the rest of the day ... then came home and packed shyt for mom and dad so they could go to the soccer tournament this wkend n shyt ... they left bout 4ish ... then steveo came over round lyk 10 n we hung out w/ me and his bro n his cuz n we were all just talkin then we watched a movie n they all just left a lil bit ago ... ummm talked to megan on the phone ... interesting shyt im hearin ... w/e ... dont give two fucks!! ... well yea idk wut else to write and im tired and i think im gonna go change the laundry one more tym and then probably cover the stressle for breakfast and head to bed ... dunno mayb lil hw ... havent decided ... tired ... stressed ... confused ... hurt ...

princess?? or aj ??
i have nothing to say to u right now cept we need to sit down n talk AS SOON AS POSSIBLE!!! and i dont wunna do it online or over the phone i wunna do it in person if possible so yea ... neway ...laterz .........................................

~ QUOTE ~

when you go, I'll let you be
but you're killing everything in me </3

lookin thru astorlogy shyt and this is wut i found bout me and andrew *im taurus and hes scorpio* .... really sounds lyk it fits huh? .... well probably more quiz results or sumthing in this entry too bored to do much else and dont wunna do hw ... too stressed ... dont really kno y tho ... w/e ... here it is ....

When Taurus and Scorpio come together in a love affair, their union is nothing if not intense, whether that's in a positive or a negative way. They are opposite Signs in the Zodiac, giving them a special, complex connection. They can combine to make a whole, each partner's strengths balancing the other's weaknesses. Their sexual attraction is likely to be off the charts! Taurus and Scorpio have tons in common, but because their personalities are so powerful, they often swing between passionate love and passionate disagreement! Taurus and Scorpio both have deep desires, Taurus for possessions and Scorpio for power. They're both concerned with wealth and resources, and they're both intensely passionate about all sorts of things. Taurus is a bit more self-focused than Scorpio, who is more concerned with their lover and immediate family. Both of these Signs have a great, deep-rooted need for security in a relationship, but with slightly different focuses. While Taurus prizes honesty and forthrightness and abhors infidelity, Scorpio loves to be mysterious. A Scorpio's need for security is more about the need to be constantly reassured that their emotional connection with their loved one is strong. The good thing is, Taurus needs this reassurance too--and is also willing to provide it for their Scorpio lover. Taurus is ruled by Venus (Love and Money) and Scorpio is ruled by Mars (Passion) and Pluto (Power). This combination is very intense, thanks to Pluto's influence, but it's an excellent balance of masculine and feminine energy. Scorpio and Taurus together form the basis of all love relationships--love and passion. Venus and Mars go well together; Venus is about the beauty of romance, and Mars is about the passion of romance. Scorpio is smoldering and intense (and intensely sexual), and Taurus, a sensual and tireless lover, is attracted to this intensity. In turn, Scorpio enjoys the devotion inherent in Venus-ruled Taurus.

Taurus is an Earth Sign and Scorpio is a Water Sign. Scorpio tends to be very deep--like an ocean, too much upset will cause a tidal wave! When Scorpio feels crossed by a lover, watch out for that Scorpion's tail, which can whip out and sting their lover without warning! It's a good thing that these two Signs are so strongly loyal to each other. But while Taurus is open, with everything laid bare on the surface, Scorpio is more secretive and inscrutable. They can both teach one another about their opposite views of life (direct versus complex). Another factor adding a tantalizing dimension to this union is the two Signs' mutual tendency toward jealousy. Taurus loves it when Scorpio displays their jealousy--it means Taurus is adored and appreciated! Taurus and Scorpio are both Fixed Signs. This means they're both pretty stubborn and resolute once their minds are made up. Let's hope their minds agree--if not, they're prone to fights the likes of which neither experiences with any other Sign. Taurus seems to prevail as the dominant partner, but that's not always the case. Scorpio can 'win' through more devious means, such as employing emotional manipulation to get what they want. These partners must learn to discuss their views and needs openly and to reach a compromise if they want their union to be lasting and happy. This largely depends on Scorpio's ability to learn to trust Taurus. The relationship will only fail if the two partners truly cannot overcome their opinionated, fixed stances. What's the best aspect of the Taurus-Scorpio relationship? Their powerful connection that can shine when obstacles to intimacy are cleared away. When Scorpio realizes that Taurus is there for the long term and won't create the misery that some Scorpios attract to their lives, this relationship can blossom.

wow ok sry i havent updated in forever ... ummm so my wkend wuz up and down and yea ... friday nothin much happened ... sat. went bowling for league didnt do great or bad just kinda ehh ... 129 - 153 - 139 so yea ... not horrible ... then came home n wrked my ass off kissin my bitch ass mom's ass then andrew came over around 6 n we hung out till lyk 10:30 or so ... and yea had a good tym ... i really love him so ... much ... and im really happy so yea ... then sun ... went to the church vball thing did ok i guess ... then choir n yf n that wuz kinda interesting to say the least ... then today ....

welll yea started out kinda ehh didnt wunna get up wuz really tired and shyt but got up and got my ass to skewl and go to see andrew ... which always makes my day n we had extra tym so he walked me the entire way to first period which wuz nice and it made things even better for me ... ummm then int. off. wuz w/e then went to span and got bak out test and I GOT AN A!! FUCK YEA !! i wuz so happy u dont understand then precalc bored me to hell then lunch got to see andrew ... talked to steveo a lil and i wuz just lyk ick he needs to stop ... then 5th got the shyt scared outta me cant really explain but yea ... and then 6th wrote andrew a note just cuz of the events in 5th but its all good then 7th i got pissed at the dumb fuck heads in my class ... go fuckin figure they r so stupid !!! grrr i wunna hit them !! then got to see andrew and that made things good then tonight nothing real big goin on ... mom gave me money to sign up for PSAT's and that shyt ... found out mom and dad are gonna b gone later than i thot on sun !! happyness !! lmao ... ummm yea open diving on mon and wed now ... may or may not b riding the bus depends if i can convince dad to pick me up for prac. or not !! but yea thatll b good ... i mean ill b sore as fuck and ill start gettin bruises again but hey w/e i love to dive so its all good ... ummm  yea dunno wut else to say .... get night tonight w/ the texts i had goin on ... not gonna post or nething but im super happy w/ myself and shyt thats happening cant wait to tell certain ppl !! otherwise im done ...

princess
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH !! XOXOXOXO ... god i cant wait for this wkend ... u mean the world to me and im so glad that we r gonna b together forever ... c u in the morning ... cant wait ...

well hopefully ill have tym to really update this later and all but right now i wuz takin a break from hw and cleanin and shyt and lookin at quotes and i found one that finially explains my past ... yea and a lot of u may not kno this past but here u go to understand it ....

It wasn't a suicide attempt ;; it was an escape from
everything awful. When we cut, we control our own pain,
& we make it stop whenever we want. Physical pain relieves
mental angiush. For that brief moment, the pain of cutting
is the only thing in the cutter's mind. & when the others come
back, they're weaker. Drugs do that too, & sex, but not like
cutting ;; nothing is like cutting

and thats exactly wut is is ... i mean idk how many tymz i tried to explain to ppl y i did it and how hard it is to stop and y it still crosses my mind when i get really pissed cuz all i could say is its lyk an addiction and i never knew how else to say it but i htink this quote explains it really well and yea just so ppl kno i havent cut myself since april or so ... which is a really really long tym when it comes to me so yea and i think its gonna keep goin cuz i have a few ppl who r really pushin to make sure im always ok and watchin out for me and stuff and my lyfs gettin bak on track and things r comin bak around so yea ... but real update later bout my wkend ... well sat. and sun. and my day and wut not ... till then laterz all

princess
babe u kno ur one of the ppl who really brought me to start to stop cuz u really really cared and were really really concerned and understood and yea u just knew me so well and u kno me even better now ... and yea ... well i love u ... and ill ttyl ... xoxoxo

Five reasons to date a skater
1-THEY WILL WEAR PROTECTION IF IT'S GONNA BE ROUGH.
2-THEY LIKE TO WAX THINGS BEFORE THEY GRIND'EM.
3-THEY WILL MAKE A NEW MOVE UP EVERYTIME.
4-THEY WILL GET DOWN AND DIRTY IF THEY NEED 2.
5-AS LONG AS THEY REACH THEIR GOAL, THEY WILL DO IT FOR HOURS AT A TIME.

found it and totally loved it so yea ... just thot i  would put it in here ... that update may end up happenin tom. cuz i still have a shyt load of hw to do ... *sighs* oh well ... laterz all ...

princess
i cant wait till all OUR dreams and plans start forming OUR FUTURE!!

whoot fun night ... hung w/ chelease and andrew all night and yea ... just a blast !! an i love andrew so much and yea i just cant believe its so great .... *grins* but yea ... we hung out and did dishes and luandry and took care of the kids and just had a good tym and it wuz fun ... then we went bowlin and i totally kicked his ass ... 155, 161, 163, 148, 202, 148 ... yea and i dont remember his scores ... i think he deff. got at least  a 120 so yea ... well then he decide this is our song ..

Artist: Kenny Chesney Lyrics
	Song: You Had Me From Hello Lyrics
	One word, that's all was said, Something in your voice called me, turned my head. Your smile captured me, you were in my future as far as I could see. And I dont know how it happened, but it happens still. You ask me if I love you, if I always will......... Well, you had me from "Hello" I felt love start to grow the moment I looked into your eyes, You won me, it was over from the start. You completely stole my heart, and now you won't let go. I never even had a chance you know? You had me from "Hello" Inside I built a wall so high around my heart, I thought I'd never fall. One touch, you brought it down Bricks of my defenses scattered on the ground And I swore to me that I wasn't going to love again The last time was the last time I'd let someone in Well, you had me from "Hello" I felt love start to grow the moment I looked into your eyes, You won me, it was over from the start. You completely stole my heart, and now you wont let go. I never even had a chance you know? You had me from "Hello" Thats all you said Something in your voice calls me, turns my head You had me from "Hello" You had me from "Hello" Girl, I've loved you from "Hello"

so yea thats my update cuz im kinda tired and shyt so yea ... well thats all till later

princess
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH !! thanx for a great tym and all  ur help !!