well hopefully ill have tym to really update this later and all but right now i wuz takin a break from hw and cleanin and shyt and lookin at quotes and i found one that finially explains my past ... yea and a lot of u may not kno this past but here u go to understand it ....

It wasn't a suicide attempt ;; it was an escape from
everything awful. When we cut, we control our own pain,
& we make it stop whenever we want. Physical pain relieves
mental angiush. For that brief moment, the pain of cutting
is the only thing in the cutter's mind. & when the others come
back, they're weaker. Drugs do that too, & sex, but not like
cutting ;; nothing is like cutting

and thats exactly wut is is ... i mean idk how many tymz i tried to explain to ppl y i did it and how hard it is to stop and y it still crosses my mind when i get really pissed cuz all i could say is its lyk an addiction and i never knew how else to say it but i htink this quote explains it really well and yea just so ppl kno i havent cut myself since april or so ... which is a really really long tym when it comes to me so yea and i think its gonna keep goin cuz i have a few ppl who r really pushin to make sure im always ok and watchin out for me and stuff and my lyfs gettin bak on track and things r comin bak around so yea ... but real update later bout my wkend ... well sat. and sun. and my day and wut not ... till then laterz all

princess
babe u kno ur one of the ppl who really brought me to start to stop cuz u really really cared and were really really concerned and understood and yea u just knew me so well and u kno me even better now ... and yea ... well i love u ... and ill ttyl ... xoxoxo

Five reasons to date a skater
1-THEY WILL WEAR PROTECTION IF IT'S GONNA BE ROUGH.
2-THEY LIKE TO WAX THINGS BEFORE THEY GRIND'EM.
3-THEY WILL MAKE A NEW MOVE UP EVERYTIME.
4-THEY WILL GET DOWN AND DIRTY IF THEY NEED 2.
5-AS LONG AS THEY REACH THEIR GOAL, THEY WILL DO IT FOR HOURS AT A TIME.

found it and totally loved it so yea ... just thot i  would put it in here ... that update may end up happenin tom. cuz i still have a shyt load of hw to do ... *sighs* oh well ... laterz all ...

princess
i cant wait till all OUR dreams and plans start forming OUR FUTURE!!