Update

I love Master's! It's changing my life, so it kinda sucks sometimes, but it's soooo good! I recommend it to anyone. I'm doing so much stuff and I'm so busy, it's kinda annoying at times. But it's just so good. I drove down to Biloxi, Mississippi last month for a week to help with Hurricane Katrina Relief. That was such a great experience! Over there God showed me a lot of stuff in my heart that I didn't know was there and didn't want to know was there. That wasn't fun, but I got rid of it. And we made a huge difference in the lives of the people we worked with. I also did the most dangerous thing I ever did in my life! We went to the beach (Gulf Coast) at night, and apparently the sharks come in at night. About  five of us, including myself, knowing this fully well, had this great idea that we were gonna go into the water just because there was a 90% possibility of sharks swimming around us. We went only about 100 yards in, so that was pretty fun! In May I'm going to Guatamala on a missions trip. I'm so excited!

So, we definately get a lot of experiences at Master's. They say that 1 year of Master's is like 7 normal-people years.

Okay, so I don't know when I'll be able to go on Xanga next cuz I don't have internet at my apartment and even if I did I don't have time. If any of you have my cell number you can call me anytime after 5:00 and I have unlimited texting. I miss all you guys!

TTYL!
~*Becky*~

Six More Days!!!

I leave for RMC this Saturday. I'm really excited! This week is gonna go by so slowly just because I'm anticipating Saturday. I hate that.
Please pray that the money comes in!

Oh! We got a new cat! Her name's Nina. She's very talkative and can be quite demanding, but she's very sweet. She didn't get along with Fritzi at first, but their doing a lot better now.

Good things are happening, I'm pretty happy! I haven't even started packing.

God bless everyone!
~*Becky*~

Lately God has been showing me more and more the power of music and the spiritual presence within it. Music has the power to heal or destroy, bring joy or sadness. It feeds every part of the human being. Physically, through the ear. Mentally, through picking apart the different pieces of a melody, or figuring out the mathematics behind the notes. And spiritually, our emotions feed off of music. Music is a phenomenon, blessed by God. Every country, every nation, every culture, has it's own form of music, whether it be a simple drum beat, or a complicated symphony. It's another thing that separates humans from animals. Animals don't understand rythm, or pitch, but most people have a sense of beat, a sense of rhyme. Music is a gift from God, a gift that I take for granted way too often, a gift that is, a lot of times, morphed and twisted into something it wasn't supposed to be. Music was given to us for our pleasure, to challenge us, make us think, bring us joy, and a tool used to release emotions. And most importantly, it's a way to communicate our praise to our Saviour. And a lot of times He uses music to communicate to us, or at least to me. I think music is one thing that's helped me the most during the past 2 weeks with Sassy and all. It's calmed me, brought me peace and joy, and helps me release emotions I've built up. Thank You God, for the gifts You give to Your children.

Lessons

I guess this whole thing with Sassy has taught me a few things. I've seen how people mourn for different animals. Like, when I eat a hamburger, I don't cry for the cow. And I'm pretty sure the other cows don't even notice that it's missing. That's because animals like that are meant for us to eat, God ordaind it that way. But then God made cats for our (humans) pleasure, as well as other domestic animals. There seems to be a natural bond between humans and domestic animals, even when you just look at it. And when one pet is gone, the others notice. My other cat, Fritzi, is so sad. I didn't think he'd take it this hard. He really misses her. It's just cool how God made different animals for different reasons but for people.

I've also come to comprehend the fact that death was never part of God's plan. I keep telling myself that this wasn't supposed to happen (Sassy's death), and that's true. God never intended for her, or anyone, to die. That's why we get so sad. And I honestly believe that while I was crying for Sassy, God was just as sad, if not more sad, than I was. I'm pretty sure He cried to. He never wanted it this way.

I miss her a lot. She used to sleep on my chest at night before she got sick. I thought it was annoying, now I'd give anything to have her there again. When I was afraid, or sad at night, she would usually come to sleep with me, like she knew. She was such a comfort during so many hard times. She was so affectionate. Always rubbed me as I pet her, and would always run to greet me at the door. I really hope pets go to Heaven. I know I'd be just as happy without them, but I would really like to see Sassy (and all my other pets) there.

Please pray for my family and me that God will give us all peace. Also, I feel kind of guilty. She didn't seem to communicate that she wanted to die, but that she wanted us to make her better. And we couldn't. When we put her in the cat carrier to go put her down, she tried to fight it. She didn't want to go. It was so hard to see that and then take her to be put down. And then I watched the vet inject her with the poison, and I didn't do anything to stop it. I know I wasn't supposed to stop it, but I just watched him kill my kitty, and I let it happen. Please pray that God will take away this guilt and give me peace that it was the right thing to do.

Thank you so much for your comments, support, and prayers. You're great friends. May God bless you all.
~*Becky*~

We put Sassy down a little over an hour ago. I watched. It was very quick and painless. I handled it better than I thought I would. We put her in our back yard by our pine tree.

We couldn't make her better.