hollow_cries's Xanga

Monday, January 29, 2007

Mon, 29 Jan 2007 22:41:25 GMT

hey just in case anybody ever checks this thing to see if i've written anything....i temporarily moved to wellington.

Sunday, July 30, 2006

Sun, 30 Jul 2006 03:56:06 GMT

GO TO MY MYSPACE:

www.myspace.com/vanesssakay89

that is all.

Friday, July 28, 2006

Fri, 28 Jul 2006 16:46:34 GMT

okay im back on this thing. my myspace isnt working due to the blackouts in california? i dont know....whatever.

anyway i got a new car. its a white toyota camry. its pretty cool. it drives real well. i like it.

Sunday, February 19, 2006

Sun, 19 Feb 2006 20:25:20 GMT

just to let everyone know im still alive...i just dont ever have anytime to get on here anymore. so im pretty much done with xanga. atleast for awhile. love you guys!

Sunday, November 27, 2005

Sun, 27 Nov 2005 02:23:44 GMT

blah...

leave comments...

i keep hearing your voice in my head.

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

Wed, 23 Nov 2005 11:30:52 GMT

my grandma died on monday...

i have never experienced death like that before or been up that close to it before. me and my sister christina cried on her shoulder for what seemed like hours. her body kept getting colder and colder and stiffer and stiffer. but i didnt care. i didnt want to ever let her go! shes been my everything in my life. me and my aunt took care of her in the last couple of months. we really didnt know that it was this close to the end, it was a huge huge shock. she was only 49. but even though she was young in my opinion she died of old age. shes lived the life of an 80 year old. she was very very worn out. trying to raise my mom and my aunt and me too (my mom had me at 14 so she had to help raise me too.) she had to deal with way too much in her lifetime. but everything she did was not in vain. shes the greatest woman i have ever known...

Sunday, November 20, 2005

Sun, 20 Nov 2005 13:32:39 GMT

yesterday they gave her 12 hours. shes still here.

Friday, November 18, 2005

Fri, 18 Nov 2005 00:27:09 GMT

today i found out that my grandma only has two months. i really dont want to lose her. out of all the people in this whole entire world and in my whole family she is the person i have let myself get close to. im going to miss her soo soo much. it was so hard seeing her in the hospital today obviously suffering from all the pain shes going through. im sick of all this dieing. it seems like all the people in life that i love the most end up leaving in some way. they either just leave me in many different ways or they die. it really sucks. and i wish that i could be more affected by things or things could phase me more. alot of things have happened and i've seen alot. so when other things happen now, when everybody else is all in aww or shocked im just like 'okay...' i dont know whats wrong with me...its like im becomeing...lifeless.

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

Wed, 16 Nov 2005 22:53:15 GMT

Ground Rules: The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "5 weird habits/fact of yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a xanga entry about their 5 habits/facts as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 5 people to be tagged and list their xanga IDs. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "You are tagged" in their xanga and tell them to read yours. ...aight?

Dang it Grace! why do you do this to me?

1) I try my hardest to never ever step on cracks and when i do step on a crack my other foot has to step on a crack as well to even it out or sorta 'cancel' the last mistake out. (dont question my logic behind this)

2) I count the cracks i step over til i forget what im doing and loose track.. i also count everything i can count as much as possible. i am very bothered when i end up with and ODD number! arrgh! (for example: in the chapel room in the east campus at kansas bible camp there are only 149 tiles in the cieling...why?..because one is missing! arrgh! btw does anyone know if they fixed that yet?)

3) I am very very tickelish....sadly, more tickelish than most...

4) I like boys...ALOT! (very boy crazy) lol

5) The only TV show i watch is that 70s show everynight monday thru friday at 9 o clock and then again at 9:30.

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

Wed, 02 Nov 2005 08:28:20 GMT

my grandma is in the hospital. shes got lung cancer please pray for her.