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Karen's bf's birthday party was pretty fun, even tho I didnt' drink. It was fun just watching ppl get buzz/drunk. I wish I weren't driving so I could've drunk some alcohol.

They are such a cute and lovely couple! When I see them being so husband-and-wife, it makes me feel that I want a significant half too.

one reason I like to write here is that no one really uses this anymore. LOL. I have a wish: PASS ALL parts of the exam by Dec. Actually, i have another one, but this ain't happening. I want to see someone so bad ='( It's been a year and half since I last met with him. Why is he being so...(i don't know how to describe)? I am not even asking for anything! Why did he stop replying my emails? He used to write back to EVERY single email that i sent him. It took as long as two days, but he did reply. I really want to ask what's going on now or if I did something wrong, but i can't... .

I'm still behind in studying, and my test is in 5 days! Oh well, "The boat will become straight when it arrives the bridge."

No email response from a couple of friends regarding my visiting their areas. I should really call Izzy, since I haven't heard from her for months. She wouldn't take that long to respond, I would think. I hope she's doing fine. It would be great if I could hang out in Dallas for a couple more days after the training. As for the other friend, I am not expecting a response, but I'm hoping to get one.

2008

It's that time of the year again. Last Christmas was good; I watched Leehom's concert. Last year's firm holiday party was even better, esp. the hour after that. Can time go back?

This year, I won't get to go to the firm's holiday party because I'll be in Hong Kong. Hopefully it will be fun, altho I will have to study (what a bummer that I failed Regulations the SECOND time).

This year, I won't get to see someone for sure. Honestly, I don't even know if i'll ever get to see him again. Why do I always have to ruin the friendship by doing something stupid?! Can I take back whatever I did? It's too late now. It was going well last year at this time, but I totally destroyed it! When I think about how much of a loser I am, my tears begin running like a waterfall. Why can't I let go of it even though it's been years?

Stalker me

I need to stop stalking people and focus on my studying instead!

Where is my soulmate? When will I find out neh? Whenever I think about this matter, I become somewhat disgruntled. Ivy will have no fun weekends until she's passed at least one part of the CPA exam =(

Some people around me are doing so much better in life than I. Why don't I do something about this if i'm feeling like a loser? Such as pursuing an MBA, or passing the CPA exam (this will happen, but it'll be at least a year from now). Why am I never motivated to do anything meaningful? Had I been more self-disciplined, I might now be working in one of the top investment banks on Wall Street, making a lot more money than I am now, and be more confident in myself. More importantly, I would be able to retire early and simply be a happier person.