Ok...for the last 3 days, I have been home because FIRST SEMESTER IS OVER!!!!!  I'm pretty sure that Im gonna be bored as hell for the next four weeks unless I find something good to do...I've heard a few rumors that the school will take freshman as substitute teachers so tomorrow mom and i are going to the district office to look into that.  If I don't do that, theres a good chance that I will: gain 10 pounds, get sick of christmas cookies, spend $100 too much, have my cell phone turned off for lack of funds (because I spend $100 too much), read 12 books for next semester before it even starts, cry because my gpa is too low to do anything i want, get pissed off to the point of screaming, die of computer deprevation because I left mine at school and maybe a few more things that are unmentionable at this point...

This semester has been crazy fun, just hanging around the dorm with Katie Mae and Biddy..nothing new happened at school really except my favorite, bestest roomate Cassie moved out and is transfering to Nazareth so now Im pretty nervous about Roomate #3 who may be living there already when i get back...hopefully she'll be nice and sweet like Cassie was.  Im actually alittle worried that I forgot to more stuff back to my own side of my room....hmmm maybe Jamie moved it for me when she checked all of my outlets...

Today around noonish mom and I decided to go to our family christmas party which was okay, not really as fun as it used to be but it was nice to see everyone again.  I think i may have a babysitting job when I get back to brockport, and a few of my cousins want to get together and hang out, maybe go shopping or something...weird that we never had that type of relationship before. 

Well, now im gonna head off to be dumb and check for grades...just ONCE more and then Im heading to bed...

*missin my Bport girls*

wow, is that the truth or what?!?! It feels as if I havent written herefor real in forever, and even now it seems as if I might not have enough time for that. The girls want to go to dinner soon...

So...I have been a college student for two months and five days!!!! I know crazi...I'm not really sure whats been up...I met some people, got involved in some stuff...blah blah blah....If you wanna see the midsemester grades check the other journal. I haven't been completly successful in college but goodness knows Im not a failure. I've been home like 5 times or something and Jenny and I are just as close as we were before, and hang out in excessive amounts when Im home and she comes here to see me, which is fantabulous...speaking of which, she's coming on friday. Wooohoo!!!! Im pretty stoked about that! Umm...oh yea Jenny got into COLLEGE!!!! yay for her and yea for Keuka for knowing she deserves such a great school!!!!

Oh mom was in the hospital for awhile, she was having some problems with her Bipoler-ness and that was kinda upsetting, but she came home a few days ago and now seems to be doing better. ALicia might be moving h0me soon, things with her living in the city have been alittle crazi I guess and if moving home is the answer than so be it.

I went to Canada for the first time last weekend when i went to visit Stephie G at Niagra with Miranda. That was soooooo exciting, and it was such the perfect day to be there just simply exploring, I couldnt ask for anything better. We walked there and took loads of pictures, and we spent the entire weekend with Stephie and she is prolly coming out here next weekend to see us! Yay!!! College is treating me well...no honest to goodness complaints...some people piss me off here and those people seem to be the ones dismissed the quickest, and some people I complelty feel comfortable around and that makes me feel great...

well I'm outtie...Hope everyone else is having such a blast in school!!!

Needs, and insists on having, a close and understanding relationship, or at least some method of satisfying a compulsion to feel identified.

An existing situation or relationship is unsatisfactory, but she feels unable to change it to bring about the sense of belonging which she needs. Unwilling to expose her vulnerability, she therefore continues to resist this state of affairs, but feels dependent on the attachment. This not only depresses her. but makes her irritable and impatient, producing considerable restlessness and the urge to get away from the situation, either actually or, at least, mentally. Ability to concentrate may suffer.

Clings to her belief that her hopes and ideas are realistic, but needs encouragement and reassurance. Applies very exacting standards to her choice of a partner and wants guarantees against loss or disappointment.  Willing to become emotionally involved and able to achieve satisfaction through sexual activity, but tries to avoid conflict.

Pursues her objectives with intensity and does not allow herself to be deflected from her purpose. Wants to overcome the obstacles with which she is faced and to achieve special recognition and standing from her success.

Anxiety and restless dissatisfaction, either with circumstances or with unfulfilled emotional requirements, have produced stress. She tries to escape by intense activity, directed either towards personal success or towards variety of experience.


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So this weekend was the one year anniversary since Dave died, and it was sad- just not as sad as i would have predicted.  Jenny and I got through it together and I'm positive we can make it another year.  On friday i went home early and saw all of the teachers and stuff and that was really nice because everyone had such nice things to say and its crazy to see how much thins in High School have changed so much...

Last night I met this guy and he was great...super cute, and sweet and really nice...I hung out with him for a very long time...when it was actually time to come back to Brockport I didnt want to leave because things at home had gotten sooo good.  Last night and today I have never been so happy with a relationship I dont think.  There were times that I was happy but those times were different.  I'm hoping that this friendship grows into something more because I feel as if we could be a good couple- and did u notice that I'm not using names so that you can't pass judgement?  This one will be different from the rest....i know his heart is in the same place as mine...he said so..and after seeing him a few time and only chillin once, i trust him- i really do!

Well that was my only big news...Im alittle sick and i need it to go away before this weekend because I have some plans....well I'll write more on wednesday I think when Im not so busy.  Sweet Dreams!