| It's usually not my thing to write personal entries in Xanga, but this time I'll make an exception.
I'm glad I got to see everyone today. There are lots of things I remember of being friends with the group and I really liked it then. Perhaps things haven't changed, perhaps they have; I wouldn't know, since I'm terrible with these things. I stick to myself most of the time -- if I feel antisocial, it's simply because I /am/ antisocial. That's just how I am... and I don't blame anyone else for being who they are.
I was so happy to see everyone today, I feel like crying. I'm so sorry things came to be this way, and I wish they weren't... but I don't know how to make them better. I wish I /was/ better at this sort of thing, and then maybe I could somehow tell Su-them that the last time they might ever see her is tomorrow, at the karaoke studio, before she goes to Seattle for good. Even if they don't stay, I wish I could give them a gift for coming...
To say I've been busy this summer is sort of an understatement. I've been working almost 40 hours a week along with making sure that I don't fall out of touch with absolutely everyone I know... although now, I'm even busier now (but I quit my job), trying to even out everything I owe or repent for. I have four back-to-back classes, all in a row, so if no one sees me outside of class, that would be why. I spend my time studying or sleeping, eating, reading, etc.
I wish I could explain everything I feel. I wish I was someone with more courage to hug them when I first saw them, like I wanted to. |
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| I want to post more pictures, but I'm too lazy right now. |
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