| ahh its almost Christmas....
the presents...
the love...
the moments...
haven't even started my shopping yet. I have got to see Blade Trinity yet. Im so over school right now...Shea...G...we gots to go tonight. Then we can hit the hot spot at Lolli's or Cha....The year is coming to an end..another year is gonna come and go..Nearing that High School reunion that we all dread going to...
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| well another week has gone by.....almost christmas....man time is going by fast....just in a blink of an eye...the year is 2005. and still questions linger in my head of what my purpose in this life would be. Am I meant for greatness....i doubt it...i have not the desire or the ambition to have fame or just to have everybody's attention. Ive always pictured my life to just be right...in the middle...not too much...but also not too little. You know how sometimes people desire to win the lottery....well most of us would be ecstatic to win the lottery....but I say that I dont think Id want that much money in my life...I mean sure it would make my life a lot easier and a lot smoother....but again....Biggie is right when he says..."Mo Money...Mo Problems". I know money cant be that gratifying to someone's life because even if you have a lot of money....you always seem to want more because your desires have gone up knowing that with more money...you can make attempts to satisfy temporary cravings of happiness.
Well let me repeat....I wouldnt mind winning the lottery and having a lot of money...but I'll take a good companion in life over that any day....
-J |
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| well its been an interesting weekend...nothing much really happened....just a whole lot of food.....hahaha
well what can I say....in this point in my life...there is only one thing that matters most to me....
-J |
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| Well the parents are gone....its just me and the brother...weird feeling coming back from the airport to an empty house and to think that I would be soo happy not to be answering to no one...but it gave me a strange feeling of loneliness....a feeling that cannot be truly deciphered...its a mixed feeling of happiness....anxiety....lonelinesss...and serenity...
I guess when you've been living in a house with 9 people strong....and down to 2...seems so quiet and just so...lonely...I guess im not used to being this alone...I guess I have loneliness to add to one of my fears in life. I thought I'd feel relieved...but I guess the responsibility went into my hands because Im in charge of a wild horse in my brother and everything else here that my parents left behind. I guess just trying to do a good job is what is keeping me up this morning...its 3:09 am and I dont know why or how I even have the strength to be up and just be staring at the wall.
well this week will most definitely be interesting...we'll see how it turns out..
well im gonna go and try to conjure up a plan on how to sleep cuz I really want to get some rest...
and G.....I called you twice...you didnt pick up man!!! it was like 11:00 when i got back....so much traffic man....and going through LAX was not fun at all...and just LA drivers in general are just soo damn reckless its not even funny..so if you're reading this the next day...you best be comin over!!!
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