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Name: Rågä†ðr
Country: United States
State: Connecticut
Metro: New Haven
Birthday: 10/2/1987
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Member Since:
12/9/2003
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| This is going to be a positive post, guys. You ready for this?
College is pretty awesome. Though frustrated with classes themselves and deciding what I want to do with my future, I've found my center. Though I still feel like an outsider, I don't have the ability to care. I finally feel like this is all adding up and getting somewhere.
All of this, because i'm happy.
If you don't want to know about my love life, skip this section and read on. (Oh, now you're intrigued. Whatever.) This is the one. I know I've found him. I haven't felt more secure saying that ever before. This is a good feeling. It helps me feel more confident (though I won't express it in words). I feel good. It's amazing to feel good. In a past life, I swear our paths have crossed before, and he must have had some sort of positive impact on that life. That impact must have given me that pull to gravitate towards him, for comfort, when I was feeling so alone when I first started at URI. Something like that. There's just something there that never fit into the puzzle before. It's different, and I enjoy it immensely. I roll around and relish in every moment like a freshly bathed puppy in the mud. :)
Biology is the hardest class i've ever had. Moreso than my chemistry class last semester. I wish I didn't love it so much. It is also the best lecture i've ever had. I look forward to literally running across campus from Italian in the morning, to sit in that auditorium and listen to Heppner freak the hell out of everyone. I swear i'd rather sit and listen to him lecture than watch my favorite movie (Men In Black) sometimes. I know, it's ridiculous.
It's too bad I won't make it to the next bio level. I'd need a C!!!
My mom is having back surgery in 6 hours and I'm a bit scared. Surgery, though hers is very routine and the surgeon is amazing (she's had him before), there's always that small possibility. So for moral support, i'm dragging my bro out of bed at 5 to come with me. She'll be staying over night, too. Wish her luck!!!
It's been a while and all, but I don't have much else to say. I'm finally getting to enjoy things I enjoy doing, and not alone!
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| Why is it that when I REALLY need to cry, it just WON'T happen. When was crying ever a problem for me? I just need a vent so I can recharge. Please, I just want to cry and get it over with, and maybe get some sleep tonight.
This is nothing new but i'm stressed out again. New girl at work and kind of ignoring her. Because shit, what do I care if she gets trained right? She's just another lazy ass anyway. Go figure.
Loans aren't fun, neither is crossing your fingers and waiting. I just hope we're not too poor. Too poor meaning we won't be able to take out the loan since we won't be able to pay it off in time lol.
The most fun i've been having lately...has been with my work buddies... outside of work, of course.We've had like 2 parties in the past week or so. I'm having one soon because my last day is the 12th. I'm gonna really miss my work mommy the most. She's my favorite :D
It's getting late and I want to lay down in hopes that i'll sleep
She's got hiiiiiigh hopes
She's got hiiiiigh hopes
She's got high apple pie in the skyyyy hopes
What does that mean?
I'm sure one of you smart asses know.
Cause I'll tell ya what...I don't. lol
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| This week's gonna be nuts. It's almost Christmas and i've yet to buy a few things, and i've got to wrap things, make them pretty, bake cookies, and decorate the chinese take-out boxes I bought to put the cookies in for the cookie swap at work on Wednesday. Getting my wisdom teeth pulled tomorrow morning. Skipping work for a few days to get things done maybe. I have my work christmas party Thursday night (BONUS!), and going to Josh's for a Christmas party Friday night. I'm also planning on visiting M-Dawg some time this week so we can talk before I leave for RI. I really need to get this loan business out of the way too. I just hope it's not too late. I really am excited and scared and nervous about going.
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! :)
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| To have someone stay up and WANT to stay up with you when you're upset or crying... to feel like there's somebody there for you deeper than just a friend... to feel like you're falling and there's someone there to catch you, to stop the tears... to let you really feel like it will be okay... to really feel like they'll hold the fort when you're gone and not betray you... to have someone go out of their way to put a smile on your face... to make you feel really special... to feel like you're not the only one putting in effort or taking the initiative... to not always have to take the first step... to hoping things were like they were... to not have to beg for what you used to have
I just hope that.... he'll realize soon that bare minimum doesn't cut it for me, and I don't think that's asking for too much. Real love is effort, too, not just sitting there and cuddling and falling asleep on the phone. I'm sick of talking to myself at night. Don't tell me to talk about what's wrong if you're going to fall asleep while i'm mid-sentence. It's FUCKED UP, and "sorry, I was just kinda zoning out" is NOT an excuse. Not on a nightly basis, because I'M tired, too. And at least YOU'RE not crying yourself to sleep at night clutching an inanimate object.
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| Soooo I just got my first tattoo :D. It hurt like crazy, but it was worth it and I "sat like a champ". I'll probly take a few pics when I get home tomorrow, because right now I have a bandage on it and it's all bloody (like REALLY bloody) so you can't see. I was sooooooo nervous. I held Josh's hand the whole time, more like GRIPPED his hand lol. Some parts hurt, but the shading/coloring wasn't bad at all. Anyway, it was great, and this is a good memory i'll have with me forever :).
On top of that, Josh surprised me with roses on Wednesday. My day sucked and I was so down and depressed. He said he was heading home with Steve after work as usual. He called me back a few minutes later and said "ring ring" and I opened my door, and he gave me a big hug, AND roses. I would've been happy with just him at my door, but the roses man, the roses were a mega bonus, and that made me giddy like a little school girl. I love him <3
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