So yeah it has been a while since I have updated this. I have just been a busy person, and it seems as though Im always working...working...working. But thats what you have to do to get the money I guess. But yeah Harper is starting on Monday, and Im not going this semster....I decided that Im going to take a semster off, and make as much money as I can now, because when I go back, I dont know how many days a week Im going to be able to work. My parents arent too happy about that, but there really isnt anything that they can do about it, because Im over 18, so they really have no say in what I do.

So Daniel and I are offically over. It seems as though he wasnt getting the divorce, and he just said that so that he could have some time with me. Boy did that fucking hurt when I was told that. I was pretty pissed when he said that, but I stood myself back up, and figured that Im not going to let this little thing get into my way of letting me live my life the way I wanted.

So yeah I was single for about 3 weeks, and now I have a new love of my life. He works at Bahama as well, and is also a cook. I never thought that we would date, because I only thought that I would see him as a good friend, but now we have taken our friendship farther, and now we are a couple. We dont want Daniel or anyone else at Bahama to know, because once one person finds out, it seems as though in 2 minutes the entire resturant knows, and thats something that we dont want.

So Im sitting here watching my favorite movie of all times....the Notebook, and waiting for my baby to get off work. only about 2 hours to go! Yay! I never thought that I would love again after Daniel, and boy was I wrong. He makes me happy or happier then when I was with Daniel, and thats pretty hard to do.

Okay, Im done updating this for awhile.....until the next time that I ever decide to update this thing.

Rachel

Currently Listening Scientist / 1:36 / I Ran Away see related

As I sit here, listening to "the scientist" by coldplay, I realize that Daniel and I are over. I wish that it wasnt, but I cant help the way that his heart goes. "Hes still in love with her", keeps playing over and over in my head. I cant belive this. When he told me that hes going to think of me as something special that happened in his life just about killed me. He told me that I will always be on his mind as someone he loved but couldnt have.

Great, now Im crying again. I love him so much. Im not ready to give him back. Hes mine, and Im going to fight for him.

Im back for now.

Im still on the other sites...even though I kinda like havent even been to blogspot in like a million years.

New layout....enjoy.

Rachel

Im offically done with Xanga.

Find me on myspace:
    http://www.myspace.com/crazy_bout_you

Or on blogspot:
    http://www.pinkobession01.blogspot.com

Goodbye to the Xanga world.

Rachel

New York Here I Come :D

So, tomorrow I leave for New York. I have to be at the airport at 5:30am, since our flight is at 7am. Yeah I know, could we have gotten an earlier flight....I dont know lol. But I know that this is going to be a lot of fun, even though Im going to miss so many people here. I mean Im going to be gone for 5 days, and Im going to have a blast there, but its just going to be hard. Ill have my friends with me, but I wont have Jay, Tiffany, and Daniel with me.

Yesterday was my last day at Fuddruckers. It was actually sad kinda. I got off a half an hour early and then when I came out from changing my clothes...Kay was like Rachel you cant leave. There was a lot of hugging, and there were actually some tears. I told Kay not to cry, that I will be back to visit, and she has my cell number, but I had to go, because it was for the better.

I talked to Katie Oldberg yesterday. I was so happy because I havent talked to her since I left Iowa, and I havent heard from her since then. She told me all about the Tornado and how there was pratically nothing left of her room, and that the Inferno was the room that was the worst in damage wise.

I still have to pack for New York, clean my room, and I have a concert tonight. So Im going to be one busy person today, and I have like no time to do it all. Go figures, everything has to happen when Im trying to get ready to leave for New York.

I think that the hardest thing that I have to do is say goodbye to Daniel. He said that I prolly wont think of him because Im going to be with my friends and everything. Well he has it all wrong. Im going to be thinking about him all the time, even in the concert while Im singing. Hes going to be the hardest to be away from. He knows it too, and he even said that hes going to miss me, and not being able to see him for 5 days is going to literally kill me, but I know that Im going to have to do it. I told him that Im going to call him everyday, and he even said thats fine. I said if he doesnt answer that Ill leave a message, but when you call me back Im going to be an hour ahead, but I will more then likely answer it if its his ring tone...Ill always have my phone with me...next to my ear just in case.

After the concert tonight I have to say goodbye to him. Ill end up crying knowing my luck.

Well Xanga world this is goodbye for 5 days since I wont have a computer there to update. I'll take a bunch of pictures though so you all know what I was doing there.

Xanga Love

Rachel