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There are some things you wouldn't want to hear.
I think of them , never speaking it all.
I tell you happy things to hide the fear.
Not wanting your heart to take a big fall.

Why did I seem so happy long ago.
With nothing to worry about but me.
I was always crying for someone though.
Now all I want is for you to let me be.

I'm always thinking about hurting you.
Though I can't bear to see you in any pain.
When everyone has hurt you, now me too.
I'm trying not to but it's all in vain.

If only we could have seen this before.
Could have kept me from walking out your door.

Happy New Years!!!!!

Last night was pretty fun. David came up amd stayed the night. It was cool. We rented a bunch of movies and watched them and drank alittle bit, not to much. We watched that Emily Rose and Deuse Bigilow. It was pretty funny. Half way through the movie david like picked me up and layed me down on the couch and i cracked my head on the wood on the side of it. So my head hurt for awhile. Then I got hungry, so we ordered food. It was pretty good. I barely made it until midnight. But we were all awake when the ball dropped. So that was fun, I got kisses, but when don't I. Then my cousin called, completely drunk. He was crying and everything. It was funny, but really sad at the same time. Then we all went to bed at like 12:30.

Got up this morning really early. Everyone was already up. So we watched the end of Emily Rose and then Daivd went home about 10. I then went to sleep again and then finally got up and took a shower. Then I think I probably went to sleep again. I've been sleeping all day today. I'm trying to get alot of it in before school starts again.

I guess me and David are going to do something tonight. I don't know what. He just wants to do something. And since his dad's home I can't go down there. So we'll see what we end up doing. Hopefully something good since this is probably the last time we'll actually do something before he goes back to work.

Until later....

Hey all, guess what its Christmas Eve. And everything is not well!!! Nope not at all. Everything is just falling apart in front of my eyes. One minute you think everything is going to be alright and the next you just want to die. Aint that funny how things are. Oh well, thats just the way things are. You can't help it, no one can. Life just plain sucks.

Until later....

Hey, bitches! Haven't wrote on here in awhile. Basically because I've been really busy with David. Oh well! I love hanging out with him, and being around him. Well thats because I love him. So I've been really happy and busy.

He's gone now, though. He wont be home for 25 days tomorrow. I miss him so much. It really sucks. He works different times from last trip, so I don't really get to talk to as much as I did last trip. I just can't wait till he gets home.

I know your all reading this like "why the hell is she putting this on here, i really don't give a shit". But oh well, just don't read it. Cause I'm happy now, and I don't care who knows it.

Until later.....

Well it's 2:00am. Just got done talking to Daivd. Now I can't sleep. Thats just flipping great. Cause last night I only got 3 hours of sleep. I don't know when I'll end up going to sleep tonight.

School hasn't really been that fun. I thought working in the library would be fun. And it is sometimes, but kids that come in are assholes. I really get  sick of them. Oh well. I think I'm failing algebra. Well actually I know I am. Thats my only bad class. All the others are going really well.

Jordon is moving this weekend. I've decided that this sucks balls. I don't want her to move back. I was just getting to know her. I feel like she didn't get to experience Jackson and all it had to offer. lol.

I haven't really been feeling well lately. Friday night I fell backwards in a chair and landed on my shoulder. It hurt. So my shoulder has been hurting for awhile. Then I'm pretty much tired all the time. I don't know what thats from. It's just crazy. Man on the weekends I sleep all the time. It's like I can't get enough sleep. Well except for now, when I can't get to sleep. I don't know.

The Apple Festival is this week. I think I'll probably go up Friday or something like that. The only  reason I really go anyway is the food. I love the food they have up there. It's so good. Jess and Jade might be coming down for it.

I've decided that while typing just now, that if you type in constant pattern, that the sound of the clicking is rather soothing. Oh the things you find out at 2:00 am in the morning.

Well I'm going to go and send emails to people that are sleeping.

Until later...