| i havent written in this thing for months...almost a year hehe...just have been lazy/busy more so lazy than busy prolly..lolz
theres so much to say, so much to tell but i dont kno where to start.
this semester i set my ambitions high with 6 classes and working 20 hours a week. It funny because to me thats a crazy sch yet there are people who have schedules like this and they manage just fine. Its only the second week and i am already feelin overwhelmed and super stressed. I should work less and focus on my studies but i realli just want to prove to myself and motivate myself that i can do it. The semesters before i just sat around and wasted my time doing who knows what, so this semester i am trying to manage my time better, do my homework, keep up with classes, and i think by fittin work into the schedule i would force myself to study because i wont have time later...i guess i ll have to see how thats gonna go....
i also want to apologize to certain pplz because i have given them unnecessary attitude that they do not deserve nor have to put up with but they do. i realli love them for that. they are always there for me even at my worst. thank you guys  and i m sorry for bein harsh and a bitch...i am gonna be the friend that u guys r to me
theres still so many pplz i havent visited or seen so i better get on that! i m livin at richardson apts so come visiiiit loves!!!
i think thats a good enough update for now...
再见
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| happy thanxgivin everyone!! |
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| gahhhhhhhhhhh
so i was kinda glad to go home this weekend just to get away from RU and stuff for 2 dayz....nd guess wat i come home to? somebody frikin used my car nd now there is a dent in the back left side...like wat the fck...i honestly didnt wanna leave my car here in the first place but nooooo i had to...nd now i come home to find dents on it? wat the hell is that all about...i dont mind if you use my car but treat it rite...geez first u drive it everywhere nd then makes me fill up the tank nd now u frikin dented it...just frikin pisses me off...ajdajdksajdksajdiwjwih!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
my patience level is runnin low... |
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i dont understannnnd...how do i get stuck in these situations...realli i dont...yes i m flirty and outgoing and extroverted but so are a lotta other girls...how is it that i always attract the nice guys...dont get me wrong i mean the nice guys are the guys there ll be there for you from beginnin til end...they wont cause you heartache, they will treat u rite, be there for you every moment...so how come knowin all that i still cant settle down nd just open my heart to a nice guuy? why must i torture myself and go for the pplz that will cause me heartbreak?? then i complain nd whine nd bitch bout how i can never find the rite guy....i just dont understand why i do this...
as i have said...i wont consider a nice guy in that way until i know i can settle down and be totally faithful....i cant open my heart to a nice guy unless i kno that i wont hurt him....that i wont cause him n e heartache....i dont wanna waste n e one's time....break more hearts....nd most of all i dont wanna lose n e more friendships...i m srry if it takes me forever to get to that stage...i m not askin you to wait for me ...i m not askin for n e thing at all...for your sake i need to let you kno where i stand...no ambiguity....straight up honesty...this is how i feel |
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| i gotta learn how to resist temptation
thats my biggest weakness nd it gets me single everytime! 
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