Yesterday night i talked to my baby on da phone....it was pretty koo....it was real good when we first started talkin to each other...she missed me a whole lot , jus like i missed her sooooo much......then we started talking about what we did that day...she tried talking to one of her friends from back in the day Darrell, but for some reason he wasn't interested in talkin to her at all...?!?!?!? ..what's that guys problem? ... Yoyo is one of the koolest ppl to talk to...esp. if you have something on your mind that you would wanna talk about... but....he's weird so yea lol...we talked about private things that i dont kno if i should type in here...cause ...it's about other ppl..and then we talked about Lorenzo, Desirae's (*i hope i spelled her name right ) bf .  Lol....i heard some funny stuff about him....he sounds hella coo...i wanna meet him someday and we could be homies, hopefully. Aww man...and then ...the weirdest things started comin up when we were talking....YOYO KNEW I HAD A BIKE!!!!!!! I was like, "how in the world did she kno i hd a bike..." and when she asked me about it...it came outta nowhere, i didn't tell Kelly ....or Lili...but i DID tell Lili about this Xanga...so i was thinkin that Lili told Yoyo about this xanga...this xanga wasn't really meant to be secret...jus not known about yet...but...Yoyo said that she was psychic...lol...so i jus went on with it... and then...she said that Lili said that "I" said something about Yoyo to her....(*which i didn't) , i didn't kno what was up with that...and then Jhaveena kept sayin sorry....., i didn't kno why she kept saying sorry...and she sounded so guilty,...i wonder what's up....she was saying sorry as if she cheated on me or something ...but lemme say this if she does cheat on me.....it's koo...i'll forgive her....i would be sorta hurt in the inside...but , everyone messes up....so...it's kool..., but she said that she was saying sorry because she made that thing up about Lili sayin something about what I said..., but it was weird....why would she jus outta nowhere jus try to get me caught up...., idk...idk at all...that was sooooo weird yesterday....the only way all of that would make sense is that she jus told me that she read this xanga b4 i told her about it....or someone told her about it....i need to read my entries again to she where she would be sayin sorry at.....cause she sounded madd sad you kno...so...i hope i didn't type anything bad about her...she's not a bad person at all...she's very caring...she'll call me stupid lol or say shut up to me everyonce in a while..lol....but it's all good...i like it afterwards...it makes me feel special......

At the skatepark earlier this morning at PECOS i almost switch BS 50-50 'd the long rail and almost Frontside too....it was tight...then Eoin , Cody , T-O-DD's , and i were jus messin around on it...doin cavemans and jus ridin down it....it's real tight not to get all serious about skating like everyone does...like ,.... "MAN...i gotta jump down this staircase or im not good enough...." idk why so many kids are like that these days , it's not all about that...i think it's about technique and originality...dont do what someone else is doin....do somethin else harder and put madd steez in dat shit nigga...lol...tha'ts why i like skatin with Eoin and dem fooz ... and most white kids like to act like theyre all gangsta when they skate with me... cause im black...lol and im hood... but...idk why ppl in the skate world or jus anyone would wanna be or act like that...if youre like that then youre jus like that ... dont change up your life style. Those kids talk hella bad...like " hey what is crackin"G" my dawg...and then they throw dey hands up.... man...i slapped a couple kids fo dat...being ghetto is another thing from whats on TV ... ..lol...i like messing with their heads...like....when i see roaches over there....and there all running...and im all koo with the roaches....tell'n em about that roach..like" it's a momma roach...she finna have like 80,000 babies tomorrow" lol...they be like...man...you real comfortable around roaches man... lol....i type to get things off of my mind...LOL..oh yea...and also at the skatepark these girls were tryna flirt in front of Eoin and I ... and telling her lil' brother than she though i was "HOT" lol...so..they kept tryna flirt...and she ended up spraining her ankle tryna flirt...lol...it was funny....but..then again it wasn't...we were laughing though...and then...she bent over...and i think she did it on purpose cause she was ALLL up in the way of what we were tryna skate....and i made this fart noise...and she was looking all suspect....lmao...dang...we were mean to them...*DIS IS A SHOUT OUT...."Flirt girl IM SORRY!!!!!!!!! lol...." .... n o t

You kno what else is weird....how everyone thinks black is the thing to be cool now...and b4 black was wrong and white was right...now everyone at the skatepark talks to me about that...jus stupid shit too...and they wanna be all koo wit me and wanna kno what songs are tight...and underground and jus dumb stuff jus so they can be hip...Josh , dis mix breed kid...koo as hell...he gets sick of that too when he's skatin...dat tryina be koo stuff... i can see if youre jokin or something like that...(*well...not making fun of the way i talk herr naw) but...not really tryna change yo game up ... and also how minorities are abusing alotta opportunities...and also how black ppl are abusing what our elders fought for....what do they think the Civil Rights movement was all about...jus to be having fun....it was so that we can have that equality as everyone else....that was a long fight to jus throw away...and most of them are jus abusing that so bad...ppl jus killin each other and mis-using education...and jus everything, and we have these rights now...to be doctors and lawyers and dentists ... but now everyone wants to go to da CLUUUBBBB and be baller and hustle even though they already have money....and be tough guy at da cluuuuubbb , and be a rapper do dey debut album will hit yo record stores soon holla at yo DJ niggggsggggg..., if you think about it...tha't's where basically the world is goin ....so music and baller ....and jus alotta material things...we still have ppl that have that ambition to be a lawyer or doctor or an architect....but there are more ppl that jus wanna be baller....most ppl are so drawn out by television...or muzik videos ....damn...alotta ppl "HAVE" to live that kinda live.... hustlaz have to hustle, deep down inside...they dont wanna do it... it hurts families and everything....it sucks to kno that you're selling crack to yo best friends mama and he doesn't kno about it....and most moms wont have money....so they jus end up having sex for the paraphenilia, ... i hope we still have alotta ppl that wanna change the  world....as in young politicians ....or judges , anything like that... tha'ts makin money right there....legally....  yo but most ppl can't lose that weight...cause if they lose that weight ...they can't gain any weight for their bodies ...and they can't provide for their families...and cause most ppl ca't get jobs cause they have a bad police record from dey childhood...so...most ppl gotta do dat u feel me...

I still wonder what's on my boo's mind right now ... i can jus tell she has somethin on her mind...cause she called me and i answered the phone....and she sounded sad...and guilty...(* to me...) she sounded really really guilty about something .... i feel bad again..cause last night i did it again.....i had to get off the phone cause i was sleepy again.... i wanna call her in a lil bit...it's 4:21 right now ... i think imma call her right now while it's Friday and quiet at work...see how she's doin u kno....well..i'll brb to keep myself posted....till next time , ... ~1~ Well...Brb

Today right now is pretty koo..it's goin good right now, for 2 days now i didn't go to class , i kno...im cheating myself..but i already kno the material...because im a child prodigy like that, lemme see...i went to the dentist with my friend Eoin, he had to get a check up ..and then we were gonna go skate some spots....but damn it's too hot, so we jus went to Taco Bell ....and then watched "Subtleties" this one Transworld video with Stefan Janoski...shit is tight....man SJ's got  hella tight style ...shit is crassy , i like it lol... and lemme see then...OH yea...guess what... I GOTTA BIKE!!!!! it's like a 18 speed bike....aww man i love that bike...i can get to school hella fast now... WARP SPEED lol ...and not break a sweat...and then soon i should be gettin da whip boooooooiii....man...everything is goin greaat....u kno what...i wanna name my bike a name....idk if i wanna name it Yoyo...lol...or Mayree, cause if i name it Yoyo, i can say everyday that i popped a willy on Yoyo  , or Yoyo's sooo good she takes me for hella great rides haha...im jus joking... and then if i name my bike Mayree, the thought of her will be with me even more ... and plus my bike is tight...and Mayree is tight too....so they both work out right u feel me, aww man

I'm a moron, i didn't get to talk to Jhaveena last night that much cause i was hella hella hella tired from all that work yesterday....man...i really wish that i could've talked to her....i get real mad at myself when i get tired and can't talk to her ...well i dont get mad at myself ,, but jus how my body gets weak and i wanna fall asleep...im weak, im soar,and i get lazy and heavy when i lay down... i feel old...man...i dont like this feeling ....but then again....when your like this, sleep feels so good...and jus relaxation feels great....i wish Jhaveena was with me then...so we could relax with no worries, and no SMOOTH JAZZ music.....Omg i dont like Jazz music anymore...i have to hear it everyday...and it's boring music....and tits' tooooooooooooooooo relaxing...damn if i keep messin with this muzik station imma end up gettin' fired cause imma be sleep....i feel asleep a couple of times on the job cause of this muzik but they didn't catch me...lol...but hopefully now i wont be as tired cause i have this faster transportation on my side... OOOOOO i almost fell on 16 st. and the light...lol...my bike started swervin and mess,lol i was crazy ...and it woulda been hella embarrassing if i fell....i think if you fall, you should be strong like it didn't hurt you...cause when a person see's another person fall...they get hysterical like it was sooooo funny.....but i mean...falling off of a bike is kinda funny lol but still , people make big deals outta falling, but people are nevere gonna change so....oh well...

         Tonite i have to go practice at church for the MEN'S DAY Musical at my church....every year we have this event goin on....where all the men and young men gather together in the choir and sing songs and take charge of the whole church ceremony....but dont think like our church is the only church that does that...alotta churches do that , and i want my drummin to be perfect this Sunday alllllll day.... so...i neeed to practice and be on durre every chance i can get you kno...i need to find out more about drumming....i have dreams sometimes that one of my talents is gonna take me somewhere....idk which one....but one will one day....that's why i wanna perfect everything i do....either its beat makin...or drummin'...or skateboarding....or doin porn (* i wannna be a smut star lol*) anything of that sort will get me somewhere in the big leagues on day i hope....i wanna be prominent in the world today...i wanna have an effect so big on the world it's crazy, i always think about bein a household name....to where the world can't go a day without sayin my whole name...that would be tight.....but then again it wouldn't cause with fame comes misfortune most of the time...and i wouldn't want that u kno....but the fame would be good. OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOoo Lemme tell you , ,.....

      I LOVE JHAVEENA a whole lot !!!!!!!!!!!!! Nobody has made me feel so good like her man im tellin you, i love the way how outta no where she will tell me that she loves me ... that makes me feel loved u kno....i do that too her alot too...and i mean it too!!! .... i did it alot back when she was in AZ ...  but now she tellls me that she loves me more than i tell her that i love her , Jhaveena we can "fight" to see who loves one another more lol ....yea we fight...but not like Ike and Anna MAY!!! u kno,lol...more like...Capoeira lol....she likes that kinda fighting....cause it's not fighting...it's dance fighting... so it's hella tight and good !!! I neva eva eva eva wanna break her heart in anyway...and if i do.....it wasn't my intention to break her heart....i will cut myself if i break her heart...oh dang...i almost forgot she doesn't want me cuttin myself or hurting myself...well.... hmm...i'll jus fall off of my bike lol ...yea that's it...i'll jus do that.....i'll ride so fast and run into some pricklies or a cactus patch....and then i could say it was an accident ....hopefully she'll believe it ....all i want is for her to be happy ...nothing more than her happiness....i think im gonna talk to her about that tonite...that's a good topic. Lol as you can see i think about her alot....i wonder how she's doing right now....(*right now is 7:25 pm) ....I always wonder what song describes  our relationship,...right now to me...what song i like that relates to us would be Alicia Keys "If I Aint Got You" cause i could have a whole mess of money and jus everything ...but if i can't share it with the people i love , then it doesn't mean anything u kno...so....i like sharing that feeling with her....that's a very rich feeling that she gives me ... I LOVE YOU YOYO !!!!...jus thinking about her makes me take a deep breath and it makes my heart fall....it's the good heart fall , not the bad one....lol...awwww i love that feeling ....and i love thinking about how when we can be together alone , how romantic that could be....how great it would feel...jus being with her....feeling loved by each other...i've never had that feeling b4 , being loved by someone like that upclose....i wonder how it feels , prolly hella good....strange....cause...if girls do like me....wouldn't they wanna get to kno me more and chill...(*this is b4 Jhaveena)  and another thing....idk what girls see in me...it has to be my personality...cause im nothing nice to look at... i mean my face is greasy and i smell and i look like Beetlejuice....(*ok im lying lol) ...but idk why they look at me....maybe they're jus messin with me...cause females do that , lol...any guy that thought some girl liked him...she was playin you maine...you'll kno when a girl likes you for you ... esp. to my nigga Jonny aka "J" aka "Playboy" nigga... idk why Jonny thinks he's so playboy and that he can get anygirl he wants...it's sad too...cause that's pretty much the only reason he comes up to the college everyday....is to try to talk to the girls, tryna be all super baller lol...but thats my dawg man fo really....even though he tries to act too coo, he's still coo....in a way....he jus tries to hard....funny how everyone tries hella hard.....like Josh...Josh tried hella hard to get with AnnaBrycia...and i was jus being myself....turns out that she came up to my job and harassed me to have my number and all dis stuff...and she jus ended giving me her number...and she wouldn't leave if i didn't take it....so i jus took it...and threw it away lol , welll..i called once ...jus to see what she wanted...cause it might've been somethin friendly you kno....so...i didn't wanna do her dirty like dat so i called....she didnt want anything ...jus to talk...but i still dont talk to her on the phone as much...practically never cause i dont want her to get all into me and everything ....that always happens  so imma jus not talk o her that much...or get on her nerves lol ... i think i kno that she knows i have a girlfriend , so she betta not trip u kno ...but...hmmm...idk...i mean about if she wants me to be her bf...maybe she jus wants someone to talk to dats real , cause she moved here from Cleveland, Ohio, and i dont think she has that many friends out here...so maybe she jus needed a buddy u kno... other than someone tryna hook up with her...,

OOOO well hey..i think imma end my log right about here....even though i can keep goin' and goin' and goin' and goin' ..but it's best jus to end it here ....till next time.....and be safe to everyone ...and plus anyone who HAPPENS to read this SECRET XANGA lol...1

Man....today is a good day for me right now....the weather is good....my money came through and jus  a whole lotta stuff is going good....it's too good to be true!!!! I think something bad might happen you never kno....tha'ts the way things are for me...when something good happens....eventually something bad will happen today or sometime soon...somethin kinda tight happened today , cause it tested me to see if i was a dog u kno....like 3 fine ass lookin girls were (*im sorry to say but dang)  walkin down the skreet , and i was comin up the opposite way on 16th at the Jump Market ....and they were checkin "me" out....lol it was funny..... i looked around behind me and everything ...and they were all like ..." OooOO baby boy what's yo name .... where you live and what school you go to , OOOooOOo you workin it... " i was laughing in the inside... and i jus said hi...and that's about it. i jus took off....the thought of Yoyo made me jus dip on dem breezies....and i didn't look back.....well maybe a couple of times but tha'ts about it...and they were lookin at me even then...i was like damn gurl...calm down wit dat shit u kno... haha i didn't say it....but i was thinkin that in my head....i didn't jus out in the open jus tell them that i had a gf....i jus left them...so if i run into them tomorrow...i'll jus talk as a friend ...and if they want more...they can't have more... u kno... so yea....i'll keep you posted up on that one....

Last night there was a terrible storm that ripped across tha valley and got ppls houses and everything ...it was tight..but crazy....and not good for some people.  Lol speaking of Jhaveena again i talked to her outside while that storm was in progress ...Damn Yo lighting was all strike my sidewalk and in the street...dat shit was hella dangerous...but i didn't care...i mean i didn't get to talk to Yoyo all day that day ...so i had to see wat was up with her.... i was willing to die jus to kno that she waas ok that night...cause i think she's going through some stuff right now....and i wanna be posted on that 411, she seems ok so far ....but i jus kno somethings on her mind ,,i can kinda jus sense it... but yea....we talked for a bit , before i talked to her i talked to Khalila aka Drummer girl...to see how she was doin...and how November is hopefully gonna be tight,...i think that's real koo to make a friend from another state....cause i always wanna know what's goin on in another country or state..like how the weather is and everything ...but....on the chatline or anything like that it's hard cause all ppl wanna do is talk about sex , or how much they like this and that ...so idk....

Speaking of sex on the internet....hey how many sex predators do you think youre talkin to onilne on any kinda messenger ...and of course youi kno youi dont have to be a girl to be talking to a predator...this one kid from AZ got kidnapped by a sex predator...and the guy raped the boy really bad ...that's horrible...and almost everyday they catch up to about 2 predators, shit is insane man.....i think im talkin' to one predator.....well...maybe 2..but i blocked him/her.LOL....cause i haven't been online in a long time on AIM ...and i told him/her that i had a gf , and that person started trippin talkin about how much they loved me and they wanted a relationship and how they wanted me to visit them...and how they waited for me all that time that we were talking...lol....WATEVA MAINE .... and plus dis nia send fake pictures and i've seen that picture on the internet about 80,000 times alreaady...and then she showed me her "Brother" ... but my cousin was talkin to the same guy on the internet....man....i was like WATEVA NIA!!!!!! lol...and then...she was all like....i dont wanna talk to you...i dont love you anymore....and then she gave her other sn...i dont get that .... but anyways...that doens't matter ....

I kno im always talkin about Jhaveena and our relatioship....i kno sumtimes it's not koo to do dat...but this i think is different....im thinkin about it alot...like if it's reall gonna go somewhere.....i really really really want our relatioship to expand....but...the age thing is really bothering me right now...esp. cause my niece is always spending the night at our house.  Kiki ( my niece) is gonna be 14 in September of this year, and Yoyo jus turned 15 this year in January....sometimes i think to myself that im going out with someone that's my nieces' age....and then at that point i think it's not right ..but the love is there... and if something ever did happened ... that i could get in trouble , like statuatory rape or anything like that ... there's alot that can happen....but she's really really mature... , i dont like thinking these thoughts, i dont at all...it kills me inside...but...i kno inside that things are gonna work out right , i jus kno they're gonna work out right....and i've never loved anyone like I love  Jhaveena man...i've never told anyone that i loved them ...and actally meant it ...other than m parents and family....but she's biologically outside my family ... shes' family ...but not like that...and also i jus love admitting it now.... that i love her....if anyone other than me happens to read this .... I LOVE JHAVEENA SO MUCH WITH ALL MY HEART and nothing is going to change that...

Right now at my job in the PAC (Performing Arts Center) there's a graduation for RN's !!! It's pretty koo....and theres alotta hot oriental girls up there...i gave 3 breezies a ride up there...they were kinda....egghhh....but...i guess everyones like that at times, they were hella rude except one....she was nice kinda so that's good... It's not that packed...not like my graduation ...damn...South Mountain always has huge graduations those graduations are tight...

I guess i'll end my entry here today....even though i have alot on my mind...til next time nuiggesss!!!!!

hey yo..whassup ...today is exactly one month from my b-day now!!!! Imma be 19 BABY!!! WOOO HOOO.. .. yea but..anyway...nothin much happened today yet....las night i got to talk to my boo Jhaveena on da phone ....she's in Cali with her cousins and everything so i have to keep the calls short sometimes or jus dont really talk. Sometimes i'll be tryna talk to her ... and she'll jus not hear it...or i'll be tellin her somethin and she'll jus blirt out somethin and kinda interrupt me when im tryna talk to her about somethings , it's ok i guess...she has to be with her family...but then there ARE times where she does that and hardly no ones talking to her... so idk ... it's koo though....it doesn't effect the way i feel about her inside...she's a great person...her love makes everything better too so it's real kool lol... it's gonna be a while until i can talk to her normal...i can't wait...but...the interruptions and everything are gettin in the way u kno.  I dont even  kno if she's talkin to me or someone else sometimes...and then when i do talk to her , she'll be like shut up ... lol....dont trip though...i mean....it sometimes hurts but..then again i like it ...it's kool really it is ... LOL idk why i like it so much even though it hurts me inside ...it's like a good hurt, it honestly makes me love her more and more...cause she fronts like she isn't pretty ....but....in the inside she's fine as hell you kno , so it doesn't even matter to me anymore, and knowing that she has a great and outstanding personallity and knowing that if i fuck up it'll be different makes me love her even more than ever ...it's weird that jus knowing that i can't have her... but i have her ....makes me cherish someone like her even more....i always tell her that i've never met anyone like her ... and i haven't ....she's somethin else once you get to kno her more and more in the inside, and how she thinks ....

 I kno sometimes ...well alot i sound pathetic...but....idk y sometimes at night or jus when i miss Jhaveena , sometimes i feel like crying yo....i mean....dat's not even koo i kno i kno this...but....these are my real thoughts .... and i've never ever loved someone so much that it hurts inside , ..i'll stay up and think about her until i go to sleep when i can't talk to her on da phone... idk...idk if that's good or not...it's jus somethin i havve to get off my chest u kno...and tell somethin about...

But even though it hurts sometimes that Yoyo doesn't claim me...or calls me names and other things ....it's koo...cause i kno that it's way harder for her in our relationship....i can sense that deep down inside she loves me alot...and that she wants to be with me... but...she has to hide all of her feelings ....cause of her dad and mom and family ....it's koo though...hol on...brb ....

Hey everyone...lol...why am i sayin everyone when this entry is private...and yea...i was spelling it wrong , i spelled it with an underscore... Alotta stuff has been on my mind about the relationship i have with Yoyo right now ...nothing bad...jus how I'ma be 19 in a month and how she's still 15 ...there isn't anything wrong with that..."Age Ain't Nothin But a Number" you kno? So why should it matter....i kno that I love Jhaveena alot alot and that's all that matters... and another thing that i've been thinkin about ...is that ....i dont think she loves me the way i love her for some reason....that reason bein that she said some of the things she tells me she's jus sayin it jus to be sayin it....Jhaveena has been on my mind alot ...that's all i ever think about lately all the time... i kno i sound sick ...like im obsessed with her but you kno what ...I think i am obsessed with her....i really and honestly think that i would cry if she left me or someone else , or jus any other reason , idk why...i jus feel real deep fo' her it's crazy ... alotta things that she does hurts me a lil... but ..wait hol on ...brb .,

Ok im back some girl was puking in the parking lot...and her lame ass bf didn't even help her out....he was tooo koo fo dat shit i guess...she was vomiting because she's pregnant...that's worse...if he didn't help her out and she's puking and pregnant what kinda person does that make him look like ....what kind of a father does that make him look like....tha'ts the thing , everyone's getting pregnant thinking that it's either koo, or they jus NEED a baby, i mean, yea, havin a family is koo especially with a person that you love a whole lot, but i mean consider what really might happen,  the guy might will leave thinkin that he's not ready and he would jus end the relationship meaning that now that baby is hers and he doesn't want anything to do with it...also if youre not financially stable that could cause problems tryna figure out where to live , what to eat , how youre gonna get by day by day , basically if you can barely take care of yourself, why are you wanting to have a baby at this point in your life, children are a committment. You can't jus forget abotu them and jus say i dont want it anymore as if it were a marriage or a bf/ gf relationship, you are stuck with the responsibility of taking care and making sure that the child is well and grand for the rest of youir life... not jus after they turn 18 or 16 , the rest of your life...or until that baby passes away , (and not by abortion) so in other words ... fo da fella's and da ladies ....think about shit like that b4 you fuck yo life up ... but back to my situation ...

Jhaveena is my world and she means alot to me....i neva eva .... eva eva eva ...eva eva .... meet a person as sweet and smart and not conceited and talented and jus brilliant as her....we've talked about IF..."IF" we broke up...that i would wanna still be in her life...She wants an older brother....and if she let me....i would gladly accept bein her older brother man....so i could watch her back or fuck up any dude tryna get bad wit her u kno .... cause that's how much i wanna be with her....if it takes that ...then that's what i'll do...cause i consider her a good friend as well as a lover ... i can tell her anything ....she's very understanding ...unlike most gurls...and unlike most couples ... Jhaveena and I rate other people...lol...it's funny....like...if i see a fine girl or a girl wit ass or anything like that ....she'll allow it ...isn't that tight lol...and she can look at other guys too....jus dont touch you kno...i can trust her ... but you kno how some people like to do that , ... look but dont touch rule...well alot of the time the significant other doesn't really pay attention to their bf/gf.  Im not finna do that though...its funny yet crazy , that i hardly ever look at any other gurls i see....i mean i look...but not in that way you kno...checkin out dey tits and ass and other sexual things, it feels weird looking at other gurls like that knowing that i love Jhaveena more than anything ... if i did do that...i would be like if i wanted that otha person when i dont ... im honestly satisfied where i am with Yoyo.

You kno .... i think Jhaveena doesnt trust me though...she always talks about me cheating on her and liking some otha girl...it hurts sometimes, i believe it always hurts knowing that someone you love alot...it could be yo mama or anyone ; someone that you love .....doesnt can't confide in you anymore or nether the less at that moment...tha'ts a killer ......but you kno imma love her no matter what ...

Damn...shit is crazy , i jus saw a girl that was my image of Jhaveena , this is crazy...and it's Destiny's friend , but anyway... Man...i wanna type so many things right now ...but alot is going through my mind as you can see ....well...im talkin to myself ..so yea... but...man...Jhaveena has changed the wa i look at life now... i mean...im  more comfortable with my sexuality and everthing , shit is crazy man...lol