Currently Reading Lullaby: A Novel By Chuck Palahniuk see related

goodnight.

i've been having trouble falling asleep lately.
then, i have even more trouble waking up.

i wish that being awake was as certain as being asleep. what i mean by that is that i wish that finding the true calling on my life could be as certain and feasable as being asleep. after all, finding one's true calling in life is a result of following ones dreams, right?

well, maybe what's keeping me up at night is the unrelenting fear that i missed my true calling: that's right, death metal. lead vocalist. i mean, helloooo.

earlier tonight i was suddenly overwhelmed by the desire to go back to seattle. i don't even know what brought it on.. maybe it was a but of an inkling towards greener grass. or grass in general... not you know, concrete.

this just in: jesse's so cute.
cheers!

ummmmm

in the past week i have:

1)  thrown up 3 times
2) skinned my left hand and my right knee
3) coughed up blood
4) sliced open my right index finger with a knife

how xXxhardcorexXx am i?

in other news, i've been experiencing academic withdrawl. anybody in any interesting classes that i could sit in on? 

and in other, other news,  i've also beein experiencing lack of new music depression. i'm in a rut. i need to be pulled out. i need to go to a show, need to dance, need to learn new songs. 

jesse and i have been looking for appartments lately. we've seen alot of crap and alot of fun stuff too. we looked at this one place called "the fortress". it was crazy. the landlord put a façade over a normal appartment building that looks like a mideival dungeon. we thought... "how fun and quirky"... turns out it was over priced and a huge disapointment. no dungeon for us!

right now we're trying to decide between two places.. one is a $695 all bills paid kinda boring looking complex. the living room has one bright yellow wall and one lime green wall.. which i love. aaaand it would be really nice to be able to leave the AC on and not worry about it. the other option is a place that i love but i'm not too sure about. it's the upstairs attic of this 1920's house. it's awesome.. $600 a month.. but it's an effinciancy so it's just one room. the kitchen is enormous though.. and has a huuuge patio deck that overlooks downtown. the probem is that the livingroom/bedroom is about the size of my current bedroom.  both however are in montrose and within walking distance from work.

its a though desicion. it's fun though. cheers!

ben folds with the houston symphony was AMAZING!!!

"a classical musicians job is to make something that's actually very hard look easy. a rock musicians job is to make something that's actually very easy look hard."
- mr. folds

the cool thing is that i've been in bed for about the past 3 days with a 100+ fever, but there was no way in hell that i was about to miss out on this concert. i'm really glad i went. music is 1000 times better that any doctor.

<3

Currently Listening I'm Wide Awake, It's Morning By Bright Eyes landlocked blues see related

sometimes, i am the crappiest girlfriend in the world. maybe it comes from lack of experience.

and yet, he still loves me. wow.

fruedient typo

so i was planning to drop 2 of my nightmarish business classes that i found out don't actually need and just now i was writing an email to one of my proffs to see if i could set up an appointment with her.after quite a bit of typing i realized that this was the introduction to the email that i had typed:

hell, my name is rebecca connor and i am in your 1pm TTH class.

it's funny cause it's true.

cheers