It would seem the happy part of my adventure is coming to anotherqucik, sharp, painful end. It does truly hurt, And for the first time in as long as I can remember I feel myself dieing inside. Which, isn't an entirely horrible thing. For a short time at least, life flowed through this body. This body plagued by a mind thats always thrashed around at everything it sees and hears. Perhaps happiness is simply not something I'm capable of holding onto, truthfully I know no longer. As I've aged, the only certainity that has stuck with me is the undeniable fact that something is horribly wrong. Something, That I'm not sure of. But that is eating me away inside.

I suppose its time to grow up really, And get rid of my illusions.

I'm a little boy, and have been for far to long.

Its fun to play this game sometimes, And I enjoy it when I see people taking life far to seriously. ITs actually funny, Life is all we get. Its the little golden trinket handed to us, these fragile beings. What we do with it is all up to us, We can sit around polishing it staring at it trying to make it something its not. Or we can take it as it is, A little golden gift from something we cant fathom just yet. And rather than wasting it away, We can take it, and enjoy it. Life it as full and as fast as we can. It seems to me people have forgotten how to do this.

Im not going to let my life become another boring popsong

So I figured, for whatever e-people who are reading this journal for whatever reason I'd mention the closure I found in my life. You see, when I started this journal I was a boy-An Intelligent boy, But a boy to blinded by anger to see the world as it truly is. As you read through the entrys up to this point' You will see me go from my first love, To a broken heart, And a desperate effort to find that happiness in anything I could. Evantually only growing bitter, To find that my closest friends, Beloved family, All cared far to little. You see me growing up, and Realizing the people who I trusted most would leave as easily as they came about.

In the end this is nothing more than a teenage ramble, On an internet full of far more interesting things. But personally I find my life to be rather extraordinary. And seeing how it's one of a few things I will always have, I think it suffices to say that I'll be indulging in the egoistic experience of blogging about my life once again.

Everyone deserves to know my opinion.

HOLY SHIT MAN

I was fucking PISSED?

WOW

I was nuts guys

I mean WOWWWWWWWWW

Why didnt someone hit me upside the head?

Rereading some of this old shit it looks like I needed it yeah.

Kind of ironic though my last  entry was about moving

And so is this one

Except I am

Im in IL now and I fucking love it

And my bestfriend

Who a REAL bestfriend

And was before I ever even got here

BTW

FUCK SOCIETY

some sentiments never change

-jordan.