current mood:  exhausted 

current music:  none

Ack, I totally have forgotten to update lately. lol. So here's what I've been up to...

I just started school today at Front Range. College so far, despite it being only a Community College, feels like high school still. Eh... I don't feel accomplished or proud of myself whatsoever. I don't mean it in a way to put those who go there down, I just feel that I could have done better. Anyway, today I found out about my English and Psych classes. They will be fun, even though I know I will probably be a loner all year. Tomorrow I will check out my math class, which will completely suck, so thank goodness that's my only class. I worked after school on my new permenant shift for weeknights, today. 4 - 10:30 is good hours, even though you are stuck closing and it's really late when you get out. Let's just say that a ton of homework on certain nights will really suck! lol. I also feel so bad for my poor mom who picks me up after work. She is a gem, a doll, amazing, I swear! Well, that's about it. I really should be reading my English book, but I felt the need to update because I need at least some time to check my sanity. Nighters, and I love you guys!

current mood:  indescribable 

current music:  none

Well, I finally have my classes picked for school. Thank god! It shouldn't have been that difficult, but unfortunately, it was. But now I'm happy, because I can go to my boss and finally figure out a permenant schedule of work when I start school. I'm hoping for a 4:00 to 10:30, closing, shift during the weekdays. I know it sounds odd that I'm hoping for that, but I still want to work a good amount of hours, plus, have time to do other stuff. On the weekends, I might want an earlier shift so I can go out and have fun after work, you know? But if I have to go in later, I'm sure I won't mind too much. It would just be disappointing and I do want to actually have a life. I also want to get started on finally driving. When I get paid and find out my schedule, I will figure out when's a good time to go in for classes and how much I will be paying for it. I'm hoping this will be a good year for me, maybe even a fresh start. I know I'll end up with the same annoying people I was stuck with in high school, but I'm hoping to meet someone new. My friend Jessica is leaving for college, and I know I will feel alone until I meet someone new. I want to see Jess whenever we can, and hang out with others I just met. But not everyone from high school was annoying. I'm hoping to see my friend Kyle, and even Jed who apparently is going there. He didn't even graduate yet, but I'm guessing he was either lying or he got his GED. But I really have no clue. I really wish that life would get started, rather than playing on repeat. I don't feel any more grown up, or different, then when I was in high school. It feels like I'm just going to Northglenn for another year. I guess it's because I'm still at home and school is just a few blocks away, while everyone else has the luxury of living in dorms. What I want is to have my own apartment, but I admit that I want to live with someone until I know what it's fully like to live on your own. I doubt that's going to be anytime soon, though. I love living at home and my family's great, I just want to grow up and start my life, that's all. Eh, well, I obviously have a lot of different thoughts and emotions going through my head, so I will just go and relax now. I had the day off today, and I am so relieved for that. Tomorrow I work another 1:30 to 10:30 shift. Hooray, I get to close */end sarcasm*. lol. Oh, and I finally trained on the cash register. It's actually pretty fun, and I already had to help a few customers. I'm just scared though because I'm still not used to all of this. I have to work at registers at least 50% of the time I'm there now, and I know I will screw up and get screamed at. I'm hoping it's not anytime soon that that happens, and I have learned to completely deal with it by then. Okay, well, good night everyone. Have a lovely day or evening. I love you guys, and I'm sorry that I haven't updated or commented lately. Life is just currently in a different stage and new cycle for me, but I will come back more, I promise. Love you!

current mood:  exhausted 

current music:  none

Okay, well I am way too tired to retype this whole thing, so I decided to just copy and paste this from my other journal. lol.

First Day Completed.

Well, today was my first day, and it was fun, though really quite hectic. As you know I took an 8 hour shift today (not including lunch), and it was a very long day. They had us do general maintenence, but it's really a lot harder than it looks. So please, hang back up your clothes, or fold your pants and put them where they belong when you are done. Trust me, just one pair of pants is way better than a million having to be folded properly, categorized in the most confusing number coding, and also by size. lol. Okay, I'm done now! But no really, it was still pretty fun. I got to work with my friend Roxana, and she is so laid-back, that it makes all my frustrations go away. Even when I was literally dying of the pain from the stupidity of wearing high heels, she always made me feel much better, and had me motivated to hold on and keep going. We constantly watched each other's back, too. One would do this, the other would do that so we could get done much faster. We both got approached by a lot of customers asking us questions, and we did a pretty good job. Couldn't always answer their questions right away, but was able to find assistance and everything when we couldn't. I felt bad though, constantly going up to even random employees for help because sometimes the one who was in charge was called off somewhere real quick. But I am definitely going to find out the name of 2 of them, for they helped me more than they could possibly know, and were nice about it! I want to find out their names because each employee can fill out a thank you/recognition card to a fellow employee, and they could win a $20 gift card if their card gets selected from a hat, and I want to do that for them. I want to do one for Roxana too. She, again, was what kept me going and I think it's awesome how she always wanted to work hard, even when most would slack. So yeah, that's what I am going to do probably tomorrow or something. Speaking of which, I am working from 1:30 - 10:30 pm. Eck, kind of a crappy set-up there. lol. But ah well, I like closing. Clean up is a hell of a lot easier because you don't have to deal with customers, and their continuous (practically endless) mess anymore. lol. Oh, something scary happened at work today. This guy walked in to go shopping, and he just started to seizure right near by while I was folding clothes. He had fallen and hit the rack of children's clothes, and started seizuring. I've never seen anything like that before. Thank goodness my supervisor was there to help, because she is trained and I would have no clue how to deal with this. We read it in our little handbook, but there's a huge difference between words and what's actually happening in front of you. But the ambulance came and took him, so hopefully he will be alright! Well, that was depressing, so let's continue, I guess. My sister came and visited me, which I loved because I love seeing her, she is just too cute. I had to go shopping after work because I needed new dress pants, a couple of tops, and definitely needed some dressy/no-healed shoes. After a day like today, those shoes felt like heaven. lol. I got a pretty good deal, too. Even though I don't have a discount card yet, and went to another Mervyn's (my work didn't have the shoes I liked in my size, so we went to the one next to my house), I still only paid about $104 for 3 pairs of pants, 2 blouses, and a pair of shoes. Since I paid that with my own money, I thought that was pretty sweet! Oh, and my mom bought me a new cell phone, too, after work. I will be paying the monthly bill, but she bought me the actual phone. Wow! So much freedom, it's just fun to plan or at least think about what you are going to do with your next pay check, you know? The first one will be clothes shopping again, because I still need more, and the second is more for fun and paying for my phone. Well, that's about it. I had a great day, and I just love my job! Yay! Now I think I will just go soak my feet in some water, finish this incredibly awesome peanut butter & chocolate chip shake, and then go to bed. I don't have to get up until at least 11 or so tomorrow, but I am too exhausted to even care! lol. I love you guys, and I hope you will have a great day tomorrow!

P.S. Nessa, thanks so much for caring and being there for me. It really makes my day seeing your comments. I am tired now, but I will definitely read and comment more once I finally get used to working for so long. lol. I love you, and again, thank you!

current mood:  happy 

current music:  none

First off, sorry I haven't updated lately. I was too lazy to, and not enough excitement. But that's all going to change, because today was my orientation at Mervyn's. It was so much fun, I couldn't even believe it. The girls that were in the room with me to train too were so unbelievably nice. It was as if we've known each other for a while, and we felt comfortable enough to chat and just relax. The orientation was kind of long though. It was from 5:30 - 10:30. We even had to take a 15 minute break to go eat because it was so long. lol. It was just me and the girls, eating food and talking until break was over. Again, they are just too awesome. But during the entire thing, we basically got acquainted, were told where and when we will be working, etc. I will be working in the Women's Sports Department, and I can't wait! We also signed some legal stuff, read through the hundreds of rules and regulations, took a tour, and helped out the staff by straightening up, etc. I thought that was pretty fun. Tomorrow is my first day, too. I will be working from 10 am - 7 pm. I will be working the rest of the week as well. Saturday I have off though, because I have to go in and retake my tests because my advisor said that I am just one point off on 2 of them from being in a higher course. Oh I just hope that they can talk to me when I'm done that day, cause my boss needs to know what hours I can work when school starts on the 22nd of this month, and I can't know until I talk to them. Eck, I actually can't wait for school. But anyway, I found out that I can't give discounts out to anyone. *cries* I feel so bad! I really wanted to give everyone I knew one. But I get a discount. I get 15% off of anything, plus, I get the same one in other stores that are with Mervyn's in certain ways. Yay! That rocks! I get paid biweekly, which I like. Oh, and I also got a really cool and spiffy name-tag with my name on it, and a ton of phone numbers to call in case of anything. lol. I know it's nerdy, but I thought it was cool. I am not working at the cash register just yet. I will start training for that I think on Sunday. Just for now I think I will be doing basic maintenance, and everything. Oh, and today when I was there, I ran into my friend Kevin's adorable mom. I saw her when I walked in, and it surprised me that she recognized me. She is such a doll, and I think she helped me release some nervous tention because it was right before I had to go in when I saw her, and it was nice talking to her. Well, that's about all I can think of. Oh, I think after work I will be going shopping. I need more dress pants and blouses, because no jeans or t-shirts are allowed when working. :-/ lol. Okay, well I love you all so much! Thanks for being so supportive, and I can't wait to get started tomorrow. Yay!

current mood:  relaxed 

current music:  none

Wow! It's been a while, huh? So, I will update you real quick on what I've been up to. Well, I went in for that job interview, and she told me welcome to the team. Yay! I am so happy, that she said that! I start orientation for the job on Tuesday, and I just can't wait. But I admit, I am kind of hanging on thread here. What I mean is, that I at first said that I could work any time she wanted me to, which was true at first, but now I am going to start college soon, and I need time for my classes too. Plus, I don't know my schedule for that yet. I still need to go in and re-do my math tests, because I was not happy with the scores and those tests determine which classes you will go in. So until I do all that, I don't know my schedule. Oh, and on top of all that, I need to factor in bus schedules to my figuring on when I can get there from school, and what classes are good to take. Ugh! This is just really irritating. lol. But I'm sure I'll be just fine. Once I get started I bet it'll all start to flow, and be a piece of cake. My parents are back from their Vegas trip. They had so much fun, and I am happy for them. My mom won a lot of money, and so did my step-dad. They also bought my sister a really pretty butterfly hair clip, and me an Amy Brown Faery calendar. My mom wasn't sure if I would like it because it's not all "Vegasy" and stuff, but of course I loved it! It's Amy Brown's Fantasy Art, of course I loved it! lol. Oh, and speaking of which, I now have the second volume of Amy Brown's book of fantasy art. Yay! I pre-ordered it online, and it had just came this week. I am so excited! She does just absolutely beautiful work, and it makes me happy. Well, that's about all I can think of right now. We are all going out to dinner a little earlier tonight. So I best be going to get ready. Laters everyone. I love you guys!