havent updated for many years now.....hows everyone?

life in kongU has been ok, not too busy with school (though i admit ive been very slack with accumulating knowledge) and not too busy with anything else...i guess this is the really sweat honeymoon year, just a nice refresh/ break before final MB?

cant believe that my old class, m08....will have their finals in 4 months? wow time passes real fast, very soon, (actually, in 4 months) theyll be doctors ! :) add oil m08...!

sigh...being a doctor really must be hard...

today was a rather :( day...actually, i dont know what word to use..its not an unhappy day, but rather a very uncomfortable day....it seems like ive always known that ppl would die...since 3rd year weve always been exposed to ppl who u know will die soon, or ppl with incurable cancers, weve read about millions of diseases where the prognosis is poor..... but for the first time in my life i actually saw it/felt it, and saw the impact it has on d ppl around...

last week, i saw the nurses hurriedly dressed the body, while the family was screaming and wailing in the wards...today i saw a couple hugging each other outside the wards, crying non stop...

it seems like so much happens within this building...babies are born, ppl get diagnosed with incurable diseases, ppl die, some ppl lose so much, some ppl gain so much...

sometimes i dont know what to feel when i talk to patients, aged 30 with cancer and knowing that its incurable...or, patients aged 40 with severe scleroderma with multiple admissions for complications on long term steroids and immunosuppressives who cannot walk/talke without feeling exhausted...sometimes i dont know if i should just cry with the patient or pretend to be strong...

ppl always say that ppl must die..yah sure, growing old and dying is something vvv natural..but what bout those who die after decades of battling at the age of 30?

sighsigh...maybe im not strong enough to be a doctor...or maybe thats why i took a gap year so that im one year more mature to handle this before i graduate..

anyway...i guess god works in his own way..n that we cant use meter rulers to comprehend his microscopic creation??

sighsigh i really dont know...but it sure feels uncomfortable...

anyway...

seriously add oil m08~ u guys are so close to actually making a difference in ppls lives.....ga yau!!

        3rd week into french immersion ...quite fun so far though sometimes i get really really annoyed of the monitors (they literally eavesdrop for hours to catch u speaking in english) but anyway..so far so good..

ppl here r really really nice n i love my friends here alot :) we started a so called "food club" and we eat good food every single day...weve had chinese, thai, indian....will have japanese korean n italian soon! so excited! (n no wonder why i am SO broke right now......)

some pictures :

at the ttc (subway) station in toronto...(i miss MTR SOOOO MUCH!! dont we just all LOVE hk transportation?)with druve, lisa, fiona n yuliya :)

harbour front @ toronto..on one of the no smog days...(seriosuly..im surprised how toronto could be sooo smoggy)

henri n i...

outside our campus when i was waiting for the bus...the sky is sooo beautiful eh?

another pic on d ttc...with amy fiona n druve

lisa n i at salad king => a real gooood thai restaurant :)

city hall with jill aamir n jacques.....during a compulsory "treasure hunt"=> can u believe it? we were actually FORCED to go treasure hunting in downtown toronto.......seriously feel like a kindergarden school kid! anyway..it was fun..so ill stop complaining...

with amy at harbour front..was soooo nice seeing here in toronto! but sooo wished hargau was around tooo :)

enjoying myself so far..hope it all stays good..

m08~add oil ...ging gwo cct!

im in canada! this place is BEAUTIFUL , as always..with the beautiful grass n trees n squirrels n birds etc etc etc etc...though, i have to admit..the sky isnt as pretty as before...maybe hk - ur not alone...:( SIGH...the sky has a hint of pollution...its much greyer now n defintiely not as tall n as clear as before....hopefuly its just this week ..?

french classes have been good (todays my first day), my teachers called marie-france, from quebec, n has a VERY strong quebecois accent...to be honest i really didnt understand half d teachers french here. most likely cuz my french is really bad, but also cuz, the quebecois accent IS really quite hard to understand!!its so accented, so.....i dont know...rough? well, defintiely much rougher than french french accent..!!but marie france is really good...shes really expressive (like most european ppl) n really really nice :) my class is good also...alot of real nice ppl :)

we have a rule of 3 warnings here...everyone HAS to speak french in class and out of class, n if ur caught speaking english (they never said anything about chinese :p => though i have no one to speak to in chinese) 3x ur kicked out of the program..so my life in the past two days involve spying desperately where d monitors are n bringing my msg across real fast in english when theyre not around, or a combination of broken french and sign language...quite tiring really!

it seems as though i never update xangas now, but honestly speaking, nothing really big (except for kwanmei visiting hk) happened ...medskool - exams after exams after exams after exams after exams...its just funny how we manage to do so many exams within that one year....here comes 4th n 5th year...(providing i pass my summatives ) sigh! my godmother didnt recognize me when i was in toronto cuz she said i looked sooooo exhausted..i seriously wonder what i will look like when im done with 5th year...SIGH!

highlight of the past few months - KWANMEI IN HONG KONG!!

was sooo happy to see hargau again, n im sooooo glad that my navigation skills improved substantially from the time angga came to hk.....haha.. those 3 days was really fun..n really happy that hargau came!n really happy to have met grace :) will hopefully visit singapore during christmas / summer !

n thanks kwanmei i stole d pics from ur facebook :P

ok wish me good luck with my french + sign language (actually, more like sign language n minimal french)

    3 weeks into medicine....time passes by fast doesnt it?? med is really quite stressful...seems like u need at least a 50hr day to finish what u minimally need to finish...SIGH!! n some of the profs really could be crazy at criticizing...."ur knowledge is totally NON-EXISTENT"  "thats a horrible, horrible concept that u have there" "dreadful!! totally dreadful!"~grunt~ , are stuff that they have said to me in the past month...sigh...

but medicine is really quite fun..its sooo much more interesting than before....loving it alot!!m08 n m09 ~bok jun!!

also went hiking with steph, clara, steven, trevor n dennis @ sai kung...was soooo much sooo much fun!! d day was just amazing, with the perfect combination of good luck and bad luck (haha)...was just a blast!! some pics ~

our target next time~

mountains, sea and...hmmm..is trevor the sun??

n d BEAUTIFUL beach from the hills...

we hiked from 2 30 - 8 ish 9? was just SCARY trying to hike downhill...ive got this severe height-phobia!! but thanksthanks to this trip - i think i got over it abit!!

once again i need to thank trevor - our recreational sec, for organizing such an AMAZING outing, n hotdog chair for her guidance, and harrison for his knowledge in Medicine, n clara for being just amazing as always, n steven for him and his wife! thanks for all the pics!

and grandhyatt dessert buffet when sumsum came back to hk :)

to-ey, moi n mary

hope sum is doing well in japan??

hmmm...wat else...i finished 10km with mary christina and to-ey!! so happy so happy!! especially when im normally a person who gets severely dypnoiec and dizzy running just 200 m...:) thanksthanks steven for running with me...training was really really fun!!

n a pic from stevens xanga taken on main campus... i find really funny....

haha..life will be scary if there was really so many me's around!!

anyway, life has been amazing as always... :)

add oil everyone~ ging gwo!

       hmmm...about time to update :)

just finished surgery exam...gosh it was soooo scary!! when i was taking history everything was fine, i was confident..everything was ok..until the doctor came, starting blushing turning red sweating shaking freaking out..etc etc...even the most simple of all questions, i couldnt answer..! sighsigh..fingers crossed hope it all goes well? but i hafta say i was very lucky to get a good case...simple Hep B=> hepatocellular ca....really hafta thank the doc in the ward for changing the patient for me (my first patient was deaf....couldnt take history at all)

school has been good, m09 has been awesome...really like the class n m enjoying it a lot..

anyway, some pics (some from a LONG LONG time ago.....)

yoly and sumsums farewell...

sumi and i

and jo's farewell

hope theyre all enjoying exchange?

and my pbl group...

Christina yoly sum & bels bday :)

and mary's bday

mary and christina's handknit scarf!!!

been a really good semester....hope all goes well :)

bok jun studying everyone..