| lately, God has really been reminding me that He should be my first love. we took the youth group to a revival event last month, and the speaker, bernie shim (a michigan alum!) spoke on the passage from revelation 2 that says "Yet I hold this against you: You have forsaken your first love. Remember the height from which you have fallen!"
the Holy Spirit convicted me that i've become complacent in my relationship with God, and it's time i got serious. the last few years of my life have been a blur of serving... youth ministry, organizing the discipleship program, worship team, leading small group, the young adult fellowship, teaching Sunday school -- and tony has all that plus the building finance committee, sports ministry... it's a wonder we haven't totally burned out, thanks to the grace of God. but in the midst of all that, we've neglected our own personal relationships with God. our focus has been on serving God, but not God himself! i've always struggled with the "martha" syndrome -- running around busily doing everything (i have issues with being able to say no), when all God really wants is for me to sit at His feet and enjoy Him.
i was trying to remember the first time i fell in love with Jesus. it was probably mid-high school. those were the days i would journal every night and talk to God on the ride to school. one day, rachelle and i decided to go door-to-door at a nursing home, asking the residents how we could pray for them. sadly, i can't say that i'd do that now...
last week i went to nashville for the society of women engineers national conference. not because i am interested in women in engineering... but because i knew this was an opportunity to get away from the craziness, just me and God, and sit at His feet. (okay, it didn't hurt that it was an all-expenses paid trip.) after the seminars and workshops were over, i would go back to my hotel room, relax, read, and rest. it was wonderful. sure, i got a chance to catch up on the office, grey's anatomy, and desperate housewives... but best of all, i spent some quality time with my BFF. :)
i want to return to my first love. hold me accountable, please.
and now, mommy, here are some random pictures, just for you:
maica
 marvin
 uncle steve
 grandma & grandpa hesson
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happy halloween! |
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| hehe i love my mommy. here's an email ashley and i got from her yesterday: --------------------------------------- Hi dear, First thank you so much for emailing me so many pictures of your life....We are so happy to see Ashley and Ken are having busy life in Japan and with Tiny. But I think I am funny I think of funny thing lately, and worry that someday without Tiny, if you two would know how to enjoy each other.... for us or so many couples, all their life had been taking care of their kids. The kids are occupied the center of their life and it's wonderful...but until one day the kids are gone and they don't know how to interact with each other, isn't that sad they don't have anything in common to share or actually they don't know how to bound to each other , of cause they still very much in love.... It is true!...( may be you think mom and your dad are having problem....no is not :) I still remembered when you two were very young age, when Bee was one ? Romalia our neighbor at Cherry Lane.... offered to baby-sit you two and let us went out to celebrated and we got in the car and we didn't know where to go or what do we do... so we end up went to Meijer to shopping and walked around.... isn't it funny.....:) of cause Ken and Ashley aren't like that :).... go go--go ...Just find something to do together without Tiny....OK...:)
Have you still have prayer time or devotion sharing time together. that is the foundation.*** Bee, you and Tony too.....love you !
Love you, God bless you,
Mom Finally, enjoy our Michigan first snow......... |
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teen camp 2000 as a camper. amazing.
teen camp 2006 as a counselor. still amazing. :)
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