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Sunday, August 03, 2008

So Amazing

I get to pray. Me. Little Christy all of 29 years old, barely a drop in the bucket of the eternity God has created. And at any moment, on any given day, I can go boldly to the throne of God and request anything I need.

What's even more amazing to me is that the King of Kings...the One who hung the stars and keeps the planets in orbit around the sun. The one who causes the tides to ebb and rise, the one who formed the mountains and dug out the oceans....listens.

Little insignificant me, and the Lord of Heaven bends His ear to hear about my day. He laughs and celebrates with my joys and gathers me into His arms during my sorrows. He offers me wisdom when I'm confused and correction when I mess up.

So amazing.

I don't have to stand in line to see him. I don't have to wait. He's there, waiting on me to turn and speak. He's speaking to me, offering encouragement as I walk through my day, cheering me on as I live my life.

Isaiah 62:5 says God rejoices over me like a husband rejoices over his bride. He sends me love notes all day long. A pretty sunset because he knows I like them, or birds playing because it makes me laugh. Unexpected blessings from the nuttiest places...just because it pleases Him to see me happy.

I can't get over that. With all the big things going on in the world. God wants me to be happy and hold me close in a relationship with Him.

How can I worry about money or car trouble or tomorrow when I'm sitting in the middle of the hand of God, protected and provided for?

I don't even need to know how He'll do it. Just that He will just like He always has.

The amazing peace He applies to my heart on a daily, hourly, minutely basis as I need it. The quiet (and sometimes not so quiet) delight I am filled with looking at another day full of the adventure of walking with Him.

It's an amazing love story. The King who falls in love with a peasant and gives her anything and everything of His kingdom. The Father who delights in the child that He brought into existence...

Thinking on these things makes me wax sentimental but also just....makes me sit in wonder and awe. To really think on it and turn over every facet of how completely and totally and abundantly I am loved is almost too much for my brain to handle.

I think it is too much. That's why God always give so much...So it has to be shared and given away! Take my treasure! I don't have room for it all! Have some of these fish I caught! My boat is sinking from all their weight! I have too much peace! Too much joy! It's going to splash onto those around me, not because I was so wonderful, but that the Giver gave so completely that this little vessel couldn't hold all He wanted to give.

So amazing.

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Two types of voices command your attention today. Negative ones fill your mind with doubt, bitterness, and fear. Positive ones purvey hope and strength.

Which one will you choose? You do have a choice ya know.

Do you let everyone who knocks on your door into your house? Don't let every thought that surfaces dwell in your mind. Take it captive! If it's something you shouldn't be thinking or something negative - throw it away!

Negative thoughts never strengthen you. How many times have you cleared a traffic jam with your grumbles? Does groaning about bills makethem disappear? Why moan about your problems and tasks and aches and pains?

Be careful what you think,because your thoughts run your life. - Proverbs 4:23 -

You gotta love Max Lucado


Friday, October 12, 2007

Cudahy Carolers Tickets

Cudahy Carolers Tickets Go On Sale Oct. 15th! Get ready kiddies! Another season of Cudahy Carolers is gearing up to begin. The shows sell out almost immediately, so despite the warm temps, start thinking Christmas!

Written by Anthony Wood 11.23.07 – 01.05.08

Marcus Centerfor the Performing ArtsVogel Hall929 N. Water Street

 

In Tandem Theatre returns to Vogel Hall in a co-production of this audience favorite. Come join us on a wild journey as our hero, Stasch Zielinski, rounds up the beloved Carolers for one final triumphant concert.

Loaded with local humor, this smash hit musical comedy leaves audiences doubled over with laughter and cheering for more. Don't miss this opportunity to see the show that everyone's talking about! My brother Rick is going to be in the cast this year so naturally I have to pimp it! Click on the photo or RickPendzich.com for ticket information!


Thursday, October 11, 2007

So I started my study on the Song of Solomon today! I ended up spending a LOT of time on it. This study is SO addicting! They haven’t even GOTTEN to The book of Song Of Solomon yet! They start out with a bit on Mary of Bethany. Prepare ye for lots of commentary on this study for however long I’m in it. Because it's MMM MMM GOOD!


If you want to check it out it’s FREE and online (I printed mine) here: http://www.songofsolomondevotional.com/preview.php

SERIOUSLY. If you are looking for something TOTALLY amazing to study - check this thing out! Read the preview of the first page. There are I think 8 PDF files and they are detailed and awesome. I have only read 15 pages of the first file and I’m already beside myself with glee!!

When I like something or something hits me I gasp and underline the coolness. I had to restrain myself in this study because I’d be literally underlining EVERYTHING! I don’t know if they will all be as detailed as the following, but I didn’t want to forget the stuff God rocked my socks with this afternoon. 



Song Of Solomon Devotional Notes - Day One



If there was ever a family that Jesus bonded with it was "The Bethanys" Mary, Martha & Lazarus. Jesus came over to their place to teach and eat supper with them. They gave Him and His disciples shelter and a place to sleep. They sat up talking about God and the scriptures. They laughed together and cried together. They were a tight knit bunch.

So when Lazarus gets sick (John11:1), his sisters Mary and Martha send word via messenger to Jesus. They know Jesus loves Lazarus as much as they do, and Jesus has healed so many people, they know if He comes to the house, that Lazarus will be well again. So they are sitting with their brother, probably encouraging him; "Don't worry when Jesus gets here everything will be alright."

Meanwhile Jesus tells the messenger not to worry, "This isn't a sickness unto death, but that God will be glorified." So the messenger goes home and probably tells the girls not to worry. Jesus said Lazarus isn't going to die. Everything is going to be fine.

Lazarus dies.

However, it was a Jewish belief that the soul of a person hangs around for 3 days after death, so if anything could be done even if He was late, Jesus could still do something as long as it was in those 3 days.

Jesus didn't get to them house for 4 days. This would mean there was no coming back, no getting better, because Lazarus' soul would have been TOTALLY gone for a full day according to the Jewish belief.

In John 11:5&6 It says "Now Jesus loved Martha, and her sister, and Lazarus. SO when He heard Lazarus was sick, He stayed for two more days in the place He was."

Jesus knew what He was going to do when He got to Lazarus' house. If He had showed up and healed Lazarus before He died, sure, it would have been cool and an awesome miracle and everyone would have been happy. But Jesus did that kind of thing countless times a day. Jesus loved Lazarus, Mary, and Martha. He knew they loved Him, SO (there is that SO again) He waited 2 more days after word had been sent to Him that Lazarus was sick. Inf act, He flat out told the disciples that Lazarus was dead.

This is totaling 4 days after Lazarus' death so that when He did what he was preparing to do, it would not only be a miracle, it would be one that would be told far and wide and cause many people to believe! He even said to the disciples, "I'm glad I wasn't there so that you could believe." (John 11:15) He must have been so excited. This was going to be such a huge miracle that it would raise the faith of the disciples who were used to seeing a kajillion healings a day! And what a cool blessing for the Bethany family!

So 4 days after Lazarus dies, Jesus shows up with the disciples and Martha comes up to Jesus and says "Lord! If you had been here my brother would not have died!" (John 11:21) and you have to imagine Martha's tone here. Kinda saying "IF you'd been here .... but you weren't and now he's dead!" She quickly added right after that; "But even so, I know that God will give you anything you ask of Him." She's being a little religious here, saying the things she knows. Even in spite of Jesus' "failure" at letting Lazarus die, Martha knows God sent Jesus. But she is finding no peace or comfort in the reality of what that means.

Jesus says to her that her brother will rise again and she gets a little more religious, almost like you can see her reciting something she'd been taught; "I know my brother will rise at the resurrection on the last day."

This girl knew her scripture, but she didn't have the reality of it in her heart. She knows who Jesus is, she's seen the awesome things He has done. She has the theology and the religious thinking, but not the reality of what her relationship with Jesus means. You can tell this later when Jesus tells her to roll away the stone and she tells him it's a bad idea, because the dead body will have been rotting for 4 days and it's going to smell bad. She was not expecting Jesus to do anything.

I don't really blame Martha for freaking out at Lazarus' death. I mean of course she was sad that she lost her brother, but in that culture two unmarried women living alone were pretty much were doomed. Lazarus took care of them and provided for them. Their future was really bleak without him. Without him they had nothing, no one to provide! So Martha probably had all of that in mind when she went to Jesus. And it had to burn her up, knowing if He'd been there He could have healed Lazarus. She probably doesn't understand why someone who claims to love them so much would put them in this kind of position.

Martha knew all the teaching, but she was looking at the circumstance instead of at the solution.

So Martha goes back to the house to get Mary because Jesus asked for her. John 11:20 says Mary was "still" in the house when Martha rushed out to meet Jesus. I always thought it was because she was pouting or something. But the original Greek translates this usage of "Still" as "To be in a state of rest." Martha was running out to accuse the Lord, and Mary was staying in the house, in a state of rest, with her emotions under control, trusting that somehow everything would be ok.

She stays there, waiting patiently for the Lord to do whatever He is gonna do. Mary drew this strength and this knowledge from her time she'd spent sitting at Jesus feet while he taught. In Luke 21:16-20 Jesus warned "You'll be betrayed by family and friends... but not a hair on your head will be harmed....In your patience possess (purchase) your soul." It seemed like Jesus betrayed her by letting Lazarus die, but she waited patiently.

"In your patience, possess (purchase) your soul" is something very powerful. When you are patient in waiting for God to do what He's going to do, you'll see Him do something AWESOME and then reap the rewards. But if you are impatient, you'll get frustrated and give up. Eventually this can lead to giving up on God because He didn't do things the way you thought they should be done and in the time you thought it should be done by. So in your impatience...you walk away from God and lose your soul.

So even though Mary didn't understand, she held her peace and waited to see what Jesus was going to do. When Martha came in and said that Jesus was asking for her, Mary RAN down to the tomb where Jesus was. She didn't walk. She RAN! This was going to be her answer! Jesus would give her the lesson she was going to be learning. Mary still didn't know what He was going to do, but she trusted Him and went to find out what she was trusting Him for.

And all the people from the funeral followed her.

Ironically, Mary said the same thing Martha did when she got to Jesus, just in a different way. John 11:32 & 33 says she threw herself down at His feet and cried. "Lord, if You had been here my brother would not have died." By putting herself at His feet, she was showing she worshipped Him, But her crying shows she was also in agony at the situation. Jesus then asks her to take Him where her brother is laying.

A lot of people have John 11:35 memorized. "Jesus wept." The shortest verse in the Bible. But a lot of people don't get what it means. The people attending the funeral saw Jesus crying as he went to the tomb and assumed what a lot of us do. "See how he loved Lazarus?" They said. But Jesus wasn't crying because Lazarus was dead.

He did the whole waiting thing earlier so that He could come and give them an even bigger miracle because He loved them so much. But when He got there, the people he loved so dearly, who he'd eaten and fellowshipped with, who He'd sat up all night and talked about scripture with, didn't believe He would be able to do anything when He got there to do this amazing miracle. For all their love and for all His teaching, they still didn't understand. That must have just broken His heart. And so He wept.

Jesus heads over to the tomb with the whole weeping, wailing funeral procession behind Him. (You could actually hire professional mourners back in that time who would come and wail at the funeral.) Jesus turns to Martha and tells her to have the stone rolled away. She reminds Him that Lazarus has been dead for 4 days and the smell of the rotting flesh would be terrible. Jesus says to her; (in a little more plain a way, giving her a hint at what He plans to do) "Didn't I tell you if you believed you would see the glory of God?"

Light bulb.

Martha says "Roll away the stone!"

And one has to hope they weren't downwind.

Jesus turns His eyes to heaven, not looking at the people around Him who were full of doubt, or this seemingly hopeless situation, but instead to God from whom His help was going to come from. (There is a whole sermon in itself, hey?)

He says: (John 11:42) "Father, I thank You that You hear me. I know that You always hear me, but because of the people who are standing by, I say this so they may believe that You sent Me." And then He looks back to the tomb and in a loud voice, full of confidence He says: "Lazarus! Come Forth!"

We all know what happened next!

One Brother! No waiting!

Out comes Lazarus all wrapped up in graves clothes, probably wondering what that terrible smell is! And the crowd is so awestruck and shocked, Jesus has to prod someone to go and untie Lazarus' burial wrap!

Jesus turned a funeral into a "welcome home" party! And all the people who had followed Mary down to Jesus got to see this awesome sight! And John 11:45 says many of the Jews which came to Mary had seen these things and believed on Jesus.

Mary's faith and patience helped her not only be strong in a really hard situation but she got two blessings for the price of one! A resurrected brother and to see a bunch of people in the funeral group believe in Jesus!

What an awesome example of how far a little faith will take you. Time spent with God puts faith and strength into your spiritual reserves so that when something happens that requires faith and strength, you have something to draw on. Mary drew from her reserve some of the faith, strength and patience that she had learned in times of peaceful learning at Jesus' feet. When the chips were down, even in her fear, Mary approached Jesus the right way.

And because of it she reaped a reward not only by physically having her brother back, but imagine how much closer she felt to Jesus after that! Imagine how her faith was encouraged! The next time the bills were having a problem getting paid, or there was a troublesome situation, she probably said; "This is no big deal! If God can raise my brother from the dead, this problem is small potatoes!"

She had the experience of victory and the result of faith placed in God.


Sunday, July 29, 2007

What an amazing day.

Brian and Janine are two amazing missionaries who have been friends with my church for years and years. They are this dynamic couple who have been all over the world. So many christians are like Lord I love you but please don't call me to africa. And Brian and Janine are the opposite lol. They lived for years in africa and are now in a transitioning period in virgina beach.

Everytime they come, something in my spirit resonates like I am standing in the middle of a bell. There is this amazing shaking and my whole world shifts with the power of God they speak into my life.

I was looking foward to today because Brian would be preaching both services and he is just someone I "get", his humore, his concepts , I understand them. My wrist is always sore from all the notes I take when he preaches hehe.

I have been in a place lately of a little bit of frustration. I know there is something big God has called for me and I felt like I had hit a brick wall and was sinking away from it slowly. I needed to be refreshed so badly.

I have that hour long car ride to work and I tend to talk the things in my life over with God. Not as often as I should, but I think that will change. God proved Himself so UNBELIEVABLY faithful in the few things I talked to Him about in my car on the way to work.

There were FOUR things I SPECIFICALLY prayed for, alone and never told anyone about that Brian preached on today. While there was a lot of response from others, I felt like today's service was like a special love note from God.

We sang three of my all time favorite worship songs and I have two scriptures that are my favorite in the whole bible. BOTH of them were used today. One of them was the chorus Brian and Janine sang over us and taught us.

My two favorite scriptures are:

Zephaniah 3:17 -
For the Lord your God is living among you. He is a mighty savior. He will take delight in you with gladness. With his love, he will calm all your fears. He will rejoice over you with joyful songs."

The hebrew for rejoice actually means to dance and sing and celebrate. The image of God up in heaven jumping aroun and singing with excitement because of me is just something that warms my heart and strengthens my spirit SO much. Plus as a singer, the thought of God singing over me... wow. As a daughter, thinking of being in the arms of my Father while he sings over me...double like woah.

My other favorite is:

Jeremiah 29:11 - For I know the plans I have for you," says the Lord. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.

I have a plan and a purpose in life. Sometimes I forget and this scripture reminds me that God knows what He is doing :)

The chorus we learned had lyrics of: (Get a load of this awesomeness!)

You dance over me
While I am unaware
You sing all around
But I never hear the sound

Lord I’m amazed by You
Lord I’m amazed by You
Lord I’m amazed by You
How You love me

How wide
How deep
How great
Is Your love for me


One of the things I prayed for, was a better understanding of God's love. I think I missed the boat as far as love is concerned sometimes. Like that pure love, that God looks at me and for all of my mess ups he doesn't look at me and wish that I was someone else. He is thrilled to pieces with me. And I have a revelation of that now.

Another thing I prayed for was about my calling. There are many things in my life that I am passionate about, many things in the creative realm I know I'm good at because God has a plan to use them. But I was in a place where I was freaking out a little. So many passions pulling me in so many different directions. What am I to do with them?

At the end of this morning's service I was so moved by the message (and I'll have to type more on that later because it's amazing) it was in short about claiming your calling, and taking the "land" that God has promised you. Which is EXACTLY what I wanted to do.

So I come up for prayer, and Janine comes over and I start pouring out my heart about the 4 things God answered in the morning's message. And she began to pray over me and God kept showing her all of these things about me and before I knew it tears were just running down my face.

God heard me and answered my every request and gave more above it. He showed me His kind of love today. I didn't really go into detail with Janine about the thing I felt God had equipped me with for a purpose but she started listing them and said how God was showing her that each one, each thing about me that makes me unique, each talent I use for God is like a precious gemstone. Each beautiful in their own right but as they are strung together by the spirit of God, they become like this necklace that is unique to me.

What an image. What an encouragement. She went into a few other things further clarifying the call on my life and there was that feeling again. Like standing in the middle of a bell, my enture being buzzed with excitement and understanding.

-sighs- What a day. Thanks God. For caring about me enough to ease my mind and sending comfort and encouragement when I was worried and frustrated. You're the best.






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