12.20pm

so i have been actively updating my wedding site, looks like im in the mood for weddings again! heehee

well, we went back to dad's village for gawai last weekend - i came back with heaps of mosquito bites - thank GOD now the village is accessible by tar road and the bonus for this year is that we have electricity - this year however we had no water - since its the hot season, perhaps the river/waterfall has dried up - we had to gather the water only in the night time, when everyone else is asleep

other then that, it was great fun! i have not been back for 10 years so the food, the ambience, the people - whoa they actually know how to party! i was too tired as i was helping mom in the cleaning and food preparation

the fiance was sick as he could not stand the heat! blaardy 36 degrees! he had tonsilitis too which he at first thought was swine flu - you see, airline crew live in paranoia because of their job of constantly going in and out of different aircrafts, countries and the contaminated airport

looks like everyone is still partying back home

the best thing is that, since both the sister are not able to make it, my cousin is coming to assist me on my ROM! yeaye!

11.35am

so i've decided to start another blog solely on my wedding planning and its update

i refuse to share this site with others since i've penned down almost 9 years of my life here

not so nice experiences and also stories of of course the then bf

hence, you can visit me here at

http://lovechriszie.wordpress.com/

i will still of course update this blog as it is still a place for me to vent my anger, stress and share my happiness

nothing much had happened lately besides me, planning for my big day

and yes, ive been to the gym, ive visited the gym and yes that bloody weighing scale is telling me lies

hence, i signed up with a personal trainer!

wtf, what a waste of money - there goes my wedding fund - its now call save the wife from being fat fund!

11.09am

and so the planning is on the way - i've decided to pick it up again -wtf? i must organise it as the fiance had mentioned that he will only pay and ATTEND the wedding - fine by me!

as a start, the organisation for the ROM is pretty much done - i have engaged viv to make my invites, place cards and wedding favours - i am still contemplating in making up 4 goody bags for the children - thank God we only have 4 kids to deal with - i am thinking - colouring books so they do not annoy the hell out of us adults - and some sweets to shut them up - i mean some sweets because they are sweet little things  - i better start getting my act together

candies for the lil monsters

things to play with

jigsaw puzzles

colour colour colouring books

so to sum; ROM is pretty much done besides flowers and also the cake!

1 down 2 to go.. eeeks..

9.45am

she has been great - she has been fun - she has been my strength - she has been my protector

now she is no longer mine

good bye my lovely sexy - may the new owner treats you well

you know the feeling of having your first car - the car that you've bought with your hard earn money?  - well my feeling to my car, whom i named sexy is everlasting - as i left my life in Adelaide - i left her as well - she was put up in the market for almost 9 months and finally she was sold to a young aussie bloke - hopefully he doesnt trash her and adores her like i did

i need to move on with my life after sexy!  

in the meanwhile, weddings and so many more wedding plans!

ill be meeting viv together with sylvia this evening after work

im engaging viv to make my invites for the ROM since there's going to be less then 10 people

ive decided not to have any wedding favours for the wedding in kuching as the hotel will be providing us with free favours - pfft..im saving the money for a new house

also, we will be having a small cocktail party by the pool in the afternoon for close friends and family - itinerary is still in the progress - im also thinking of having a candy bar at the outdoor reception area where photobooks displaying our pre wedding photo and our journey together will be displayed, together with the wishing tree - i can get the fiance to fly around the world to get cheap candies - why not?

our homework for this weekend will be to make the wedding band at our jeweller and also scout for a florist whom will decorate the ROM area and my bouquet

i am starting to get back into the planning mode

12.17pm

oh shucks, somehow its 6months till the big day - oh i mean 4 months to the ROM and yet, im not feeling the hype - i have given up on planning the big day - wtf right?

i think i should get back into the mode - but nothing is helping because i worry about spendings and like heloo fiance *waving*, *hint* *hint* - you need to pull your weight to in deciding on the decos, cards, gifts, flowers, and so much more

and so, my wedding planner emailed to check if i was OK - i used to be the ON THE TOP kinda bride but lately, i hate to plan - weird but true - i have given up and yikes, i repeat NOTHING is confirmed, NOTHING had been done besides the dress and getting venue booked and getting the photographer and bridesmaid dresses and bestmen's tie and some champagne bubbles and know where to get dresses for the little flower girls - maybe its not that bad after all

to get myself into the wedding planning mode, i've forced myself to googled some pretty pictures to inspire me:

ok now im back into the planning mode - i should spend the whole arvo at work looking at beautiful pictures and stop doing work since i so hate it anyway