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Saturday, April 26, 2008

no sense.

 I've been sitting on my computer all day, not doing anything of actual value.
I wanted to finish this stupid paper yet i got little to nothing done all i've been doing is letting
my mind wander farther into space. I must be in another galaxy now because i can't even stand this
idea of being awake any longer. I am not sure why i am so upset or sad.
I feel like I'm missing out on something, like the days skipped by me this week.
this month really seemed like the longest one of this year. I really hate April.
last year i was crying over boys and this year came to leave me pretty badly tore off as well.
I hate this, i hate that my life is full of tedious task and that i have no muse or motivation to do any
of them. I'm getting older and I feel like I'm hollowing out.
I know that this is the point in my life when i can push myself and make things change I'm still very young.
right? I can still change things around.
i wish i could believe in the things i was saying but i just don't have that feeling in my heart.
that self motivation, or confidence. I am destined to fail.
nononononono
sigh
yes.

I wish i hadn't given up on Bryan so fast.
i wish that i would have been able to see more potential in us.
i know these feelings will pass and that my disconnections with my friends
will either grow or find away back
i just wish that i didn't have to wait around for the end results.
i wish it would just happen already
i kind of wish my whole life would just happen already.
the failure or the success.
no ones ever held my hand through these things and i don't know why
i am always waiting around to be saved. but its time i see that no ones going
to come and i have to worry about myself.
man up.
-Christian


Sunday, July 22, 2007


 

What a good week.
What a good week.
What a good week.

-minus
getting a level 10 fever and dying.
lacking money
boyz.

I actually don't remember what i did at the start of this week but i'm pretty sure it
consisted of beach and museums goings.and riding my bike,unless that was the end of last
week...i should write these things down. whatever doesn't matter either way.
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i know that one day i went to the beach with raquel and desiree.
that was nice minus i think i might have gotten the HIV after stepping on
something that made my foot swell up. (note: i have to go to the doctor)
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and i know one day i was bike riding with sharon and we ended up at the hall of science. that was fun.
very um..educational.

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either way life turn sour when me and Steph hilton went out for some cultured cuisine.
because we both got sick after well more me then her. fucking flushing japs.
anyways after being dead for like 2 days. i recovered and spend some time with KG<3P7180414
it was very very nice. the movie spun causes me allot of anxiety.

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eitherway my baby boy david jacobs took me bowling which was fun
our accumulated scores where about 140 which is like half of a perfect game?
so as you can tell we were pro bowlers in our past lives.

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I saw my loves gravy train!!!! and V.I.P on thursday, i forgot i loved them. I missing dancing at show's.
oh and i miss being 16....why can't i be 16 again. ugh. this show felt like a myspce party because i def saw 
about 12 people i know from myspace. (note to self get of the internet)

yesterday i saw the love of my life. miss M.I.A

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I managed to get way up in the front some how mostly because i prented to lose my little nonspeaking
asian sister and i just had a hunch she was way upfront so people let me pass. oh M.I.A how i love you.

after siren i went to Deniz house warming all the way Uptown.fuckin 200th st onDYKMEN AND CUMMING of SEAMAN ave. not even joking.
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he has a nice place but i have to say me and Desiree had a shitty time.
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so this weekend was pretty bomb.i liked it much.much. i got that new harry potter book too
For 20 bucks but now i remember i don't remember what happened in the six one so i'm gonna reread that
real quick. ugh.I had this strange feeling all day. Like when you go away for awhile and then you come back and
everything seems different. i had a feeling kinda like that but in a good way. maybe i just feel well rested.
whatever it is, its a nice feeling. tomorrow i'm going to go find out if i'm dying or not.fingers crossed.

love is all

-ChristianHorrible.
 


Thursday, July 12, 2007

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my hair is starting to fade out. i like my lightingbolt.

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i went tanning on my roof with Raquel. im not any darker.

 

 

i robotripped last friday and thought i was going to die. i liked it.
i havnt drank in about a month,  i think im going to take up smoking again.
i feel stressed. i got new bike. SUGARDADDY HOLLYWOOD.
i like it better.i developed tons of old pictures. i miss bobby pache because of them.
im broke again. who wants to take me out to eat?i gained 5lbs since the summer started.
im sure no one can tell. no one can ever really tell when i gain or lose weight anyways.

i think i have a crush onsomeone.
how exciting.

 

 

loveisall

-Christian Horrible.


Wednesday, June 20, 2007

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so the other day as in yesterday i called up my high school to make sure i passed all my classes.
i did. so yuppie for me. bitches.i'm out.
now it seems more appropriate to post a picture of prom,
it was cute it was quick it was painless. minus the crazy limo driver and lack of sloppy drunkness it
was nice i wish i had a picture to contrast and compare the year before. but i don't so ill just have to
use my memory but oh god i rather not.

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i have alot more pictures but i don't really care about them and i lost all the polaroids i took somewhere
i'm sure they will turn up or something. anyways everyone looked nice and stuff props kids.

i'm so happy. cant you tell.

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sharon & I , when the sun shines we shine together 
blah blah umbrella lalalala ella ella ella.
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i like it better when the sun comes out.
i'm going to miss taking the N train every morning 

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&seeing this face

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but as much as i am going to miss school and as much as i am
going to hate all the free time im going to have now. i can say
with out a doubt i am happy that its over.

DEAR EVERYONE I WENT TO HIGHSCHOOL WITH,
thanks for the good times, minus i didn't really go to school all that much
and that most of the people that i really knew graduated last year.
and even though now that i think of it i didn't have all that many
good times with all that many of them either,
thanks anyways.
Sorry if we had a falling out at any given time.
sorry ex BFF'S. because i obv have new best friends all the time.
so heres to not being all that close after all.

love always just not.

-Christian horrible



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