can't believe it's been a week already... it's like time passes me by so quickly. i've not much to tell bout my past week as i was mostly at work... sunday and monday, we went for a night swim at the Millenium Hotel in Dubai. Monday was a bit fun because tita apple and tito boyet were there, but i can see in the face of tita gina that she wished they were not there. so much for being a family, huh?  really can't believe them! don't know why i had to stay and live with them!!!  most of the days of this past week, i felt very exhausted, even at work, i felt like i just wanted to sleep all day...  every now and then, i'd get to talk to tita apple, so that lessens the burden at home some times. thursday night... we went to mass after they looked for a shop to upholster their brand new car...can't believe them! they've been complaining with bills, debts and other financial problems, and they still found a way to get a brand new car...  to top i ta all, my ex ian started texting me again! i don't know how he got my number, though he said he called at my house and pretended to be one of my college friends, so my cousin gave him my number....  oh my!!!! what to do? what to do? and to think that gilbert and i are having some problems of our own as well... this is just too much to bear right now! i'll try to continue this later, if i'm still sane enough to think of anything to write!!!!

  it's been a while again since my last blog... i've been too busy in my depressed state of mind that i've been shutting myself from the world for quite some time now...     i'm still confused... weary... sad and very much alone... i know there are people who cares a lot for me,but there are also instances when i can't burden them with all my problems.... oh, how i wish i can just feel the warmth of someone's embrace... just the comfort feeling of someone's shoulder to cry on...

Artist : Train
Song : When I Look To The Sky

When it rains it pours and opens doors
And floods the floors we thought would always keep us safe and dry
And in the midst of sailing ships we sink our lips into the ones we love
That have to say goodbye

And as I float along this ocean
I can feel you like a notion that won't seem to let me go

Cause when I look to the sky something tells me you're here with me
And you make everything alright
And when I feel like I'm lost something tells me you're here with me
And I can always find my way when you are here

And every word I didn't say that caught up in some busy day
And every dance on the kitchen floor we didn't dance before
And every sunset that we'll miss I'll wrap them all up in a kiss
And pick you up in all of this when I sail away

Whether I am up or down or in or out or just plane overhead
Instead it just feels like it is impossible to fly
But with you I can spread my wings
to see me over everything that life may send me
When I am hoping it won't pass me by

And when I feel like there is no one that will ever know me
there you are to show me

there's still too much pain inside me...i want to be with my family and friends again...the blissful moment of being at a place you can really call home... i've been feeling tired this past few days filled with sleepless nights, i'd lay awake on my bed crying myself to sleep... how i felt so helpless...  i just hope and pray the coming days will get better for me... i know my angel will always look over me...

not much happened this past week... i'm quite bored at the office, its the middle of the summer, and most people are gone to vacations in other countries... who would want to stay in the heat of the desert for more than 3 months... they'd probably be back by september or so, coz that's when winter and ramadan starts. the holy month of the muslims... and it will eventually start on my birthday! we'll be working half day for a whole month, and lots of holidays after that also... =) can't wait for the summer season to end. its just too much here!!! really can't take it anymore...

the weekend was quite busy at home, we're arranging some packages for the philippines, and we've almost prepared 10 boxes!!! oh my, even if we pay for seafreight, it's just too much!!! oh my!!! had to budget what's left of my salary or i'll be broke even before i get my next one!!! that would be unfortunate!!! ='( 

Ciao for now!!! --- we can do no great things...only small things with great love... @--)------