happy new year everyone. this year pap night will be on 21 Jan. starting from 5.30 pm. looking at how my juniors struggle this few weeks remind me a lot of myself during last year's pap. i still remember how i got scolded by most of my frens for running around that nite, which was only 1 week after my apendicitis operation. hehe. splendid experience.

i ve just force my good fren to accompany me to watch pride and prejudice. damn good. i like it very much. for the first 15 mins, the gals are a bit too desperate. cant blame them actually. they got nothing else to look forward to in their life besides man. the gals are beautiful, and so are the man. Mathew Macfayden is damn gorgeous..

something is up..

reaaly gtg. sorry for ending it abruptly.  

'students should always be better than their teacher, otherwise both fail.'

these is the first statement blurted out by my microbiology lecturer in his first lecture. true, but to a certain extend. i really want to write more about it but time does not allow me to do so. i need to do some research on antimicrobial properties of certain microbs/food and hand it up asap if i want to survive for this sem.

anyway, MERRY CHRISTMAS everyone.

I had received a very bad news yesterday and did not sleep the whole night.

New system is now available in UMS where we can check our results thru sms. And this is where i got the bad news from.

I cant believe i perform this bad. it's disastrous. I got 'TL' for on one of my subject. It turn out to be "Tidak Lengkap". What the fuck.

I dont really know wat does it mean. but i remember clearly that i finish all the work that is assigned to me.

If i m still not improving, BAT is going to kiss my ass out of their scholars list.

'If you give a fish to a man, he can eat for a day, if you teach him how to fish, he can eat for a lifetime.’

Our government doesn’t seems to get it. Perhaps they never will. Not only that they pamper the bumiputras ridiculously, they did the same thing to Sabah and Sarawak. I will go one by one. First of all, our ever so perfect education system. For your information, in certain papers, we ( the kl student ), need to get at least 50 to pass, and for the Borneo students, they can get an A if they score above 60. It doesn’t happen all the time, but their passing and scoring marks are definitely lower than ours. Unfair isn’t it? Well, I got to know this since I was very young. And frankly speaking, I’ve already accept the fact. I am very sorry to say this, but I do mean it. They are just lucky because they are in Sabah. Wait till they come to our place and see how the geniuses overshadow the brilliant ones and how the average ones are labeled as ‘stupid’, oops, less brilliant. I am getting mean. My apologies.

But my point is, helping them (the student) in this way will lead them to nowhere. Why is it so difficult to set the same level for all the students in Malaysia? Why differentiate them by states? The repercussion of these is apparent when these students further their studies to the tertiary level. Look at how they struggle when they compete with those from the peninsula. They could have done better if they are not pampered like that in the first place. The same case goes to the matriculation students. It’s true that if they are not given any privileges, the amount of them who can make it will be lesser. But they will eventually find a way out themselves and those will be the very good ones.

Next, the professionals. Many of us is unaware that the lawyers from the peninsula is not allow to practice in Sabah. The reason? Because of some ludicrous treaties made on 1963 to ‘protect’ Sabah and Sarawak. All the other professionals (lecturers included) are not allow to stay in Sabah if their contracts is over. The attempt of lowering the competition from the peninsula is not going to raise the standard of the local professionals. The million dollar question is : for how long can these local people be protected?

There are many restrictions for the us, from the peninsula, in Sabah. We cant buy a house in Sabah. We cant stay there more than 3 months, we cant own a business there without a Sabahan as a partner, bla bla bla… The same reason given for all the restrictions ; to protect the Sabahan by giving priority to them. However, these priorities are not helping them, they are pampering them. I think it’s time for the government to let go and let them buck up for their own, on their own.

I still remember clearly how hesitated i am last night on today’s trip to the island. Wendy was forbade from going beyond the waist level and therefore, she is not going to join me snorkeling. While both of us were waiting for bus for more than one hour this morning, we almost cancel our plan and thinking of going ODEC instead. (ODEC is the name of the beach in our varsity) Somehow, we got onto the bus and stick to our plan without any enthusiasm. We thought of going to a new island, the Sulug island. As it is an unknown island and rarely visited by tourists, we was told that we might have to wait for hours for the boat. Reluctantly, we go for Manukan. Again.. It was really cheap though. RM 15 per person.

Once we got there, we were told that a person was drowned in less than half an hour ago. Honestly, I was disturbed and was trying so hard to not to think about it. Hoping that I wont bump into his dead body while I was snorkeling, I went straight into the sea, forgetting to apply some sunblock.

Unexpectedly, I had fun snorkeling alone: swimming among schools of fishes, observing how the clown fish swirling around the anemone, chasing some rare fish, and playing with sea cucumbers and seaweed. It cast my mind back to my first few dives. I begin to wonder when am I going to log my… erm… 5^TH dive. Hehehe.

The sea was rough in the afternoon, to the extend that the lifeguard do not allow us to stay in the sea. It was raining, very windy, and damn cold, exactly like the weather when we went there last year. But I had a great time, with a great company. This is probably one of my best trips. At the end of the day, I begin to realize that sometimes when you do not have high expectations; things might turn out to be great.

this picture is taken a year ago. din manage to take pictures with new frens we met there today.